Upon your heart I perceive you carry a heavy burden for your son, and you long for him to be settled, obedient, and shielded from harm. Yet remember, the peace you seek for yourself is not found by willing the trouble away or by a quiet classroom alone. It is “the peace of God, which passes all understanding,” and it flows only from the Prince of Peace. Do not make your own ease your idol, for a false peace, a peace at the expense of godly training, is a curse and not a blessing. The Lord often uses the restlessness of our children to drive us to His feet, to make us cry out for that peace which He alone can give and which no sorrow can swallow up.
Your son’s commotions, his inattention, his troubling of others, these are not mere boyish follies; they are the first risings of an evil nature that sits within every heart. Evil thoughts and unruly desires flow from a fountain that no schoolmaster’s rod can purify. You do well to pray for his protection from evil, for the enemy would gladly use these childhood follies as the first steps on a dark path. But you will not overcome these evils by meeting anger with anger, or by that feverish anxiety which returns evil for evil in your own soul, injuring you more than it helps him. The way to overcome evil is with good, and the greatest good you can do is to bring this little one to the Saviour who says, “Suffer the little children to come unto Me.”
Pray that your son’s heart may be stayed upon Jesus, for it is written, “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You.” This is a promise for you and for him. Seek not first a calm classroom, but first seek Christ for your child. When the blood of Jesus whispers peace within, it quiets the fretful spirit as nothing else can. A soul truly weaned from its own wild desires finds rest in doing the will of Jesus, and that rest is better than any forced stillness. In every duty, in every school task, he may find peace by thronging duties pressed, for to do the will of Jesus, this is rest.
And for yourself, let your mind be stayed on your Lord. The weaned child does not fret because his desires lie still; he simply trusts his mother. So must you learn to trust your God in this matter. Do not exercise yourself in matters too high for you, puzzling over why this trial has come, or whether your son will ever improve. That is not your burden; it is your peace that Christ has purchased. He Himself is our peace. You have a rebel in your own heart if you strive and worry instead of resting in His finished work. Go to the Cross with your son in your arms, and there find peace concerning your sins and your fears, for He is our peace. The ever-living Christ is always our peace, and nothing shall offend those who trust Him.
Bear this trial with Him, and you shall prove that even with a mother’s sorrows surging round, perfect peace is possible. The Lord, who has vanquished death and all its powers, can surely calm a child’s wild heart and a mother’s troubled breast. In Jesus’ keeping they are safe, and you are too.