We hear the heaviness in your heart and we are lifting you, your husband, and your son before the throne of grace together in Jesus name. You are not alone in this season of pressing needs, and we want you to know that God has not left you, even when you cannot feel His presence.
The fear you are carrying about having blasphemed the Holy Spirit because you questioned a woman who calls herself an Apostle is not from the Lord, and we must gently but firmly rebuke that teaching. The Word tells us Beloved, don't believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world 1 John 4:1. It also warns For such men are false apostles, deceitful workers, masquerading as Christ's apostles 2 Corinthians 11:13 and reminds us that the church in Ephesus was commended because you tried those who call themselves apostles, and they are not, and found them false Revelation 2:2. The true apostles were eyewitnesses of the risen Christ and laid the foundation of the church Ephesians 2:20. Anyone today who demands that you must believe she is a vessel of God or you have committed the unforgivable sin is speaking falsely and placing a yoke on you that God never placed.
Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit as Jesus taught is the willful, persistent attributing of the work of the Holy Spirit to Satan and the hardened rejection of Christ, not an honest question or testing of a person's claims Mark 3:28-29, Matthew 12:31. Your caution and your desire to be discerning is actually obedience to Scripture, not sin. The enemy wants you to believe that your family's sufferings are punishment for not following this woman, but that is not the character of our Father. Our trials, sicknesses, and financial pressures are part of living in a fallen world, and God uses them to draw us closer to Him, not to condemn us for exercising discernment. He says I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you Hebrews 13:5 and Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid nor be dismayed, for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you Deuteronomy 31:6. Nothing can separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord Romans 8:38-39.
We also notice you speak of God but do not mention Jesus Christ, and we want to lovingly remind you that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father. Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6 and There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you have not already, we encourage you to place your full trust in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, confessing Him as Lord Romans 10:9. It is in His name we pray and in His name we are heard.
You asked for a sign of His presence, and we understand that longing. God is near to the brokenhearted Psalm 34:18 and He invites us to cast all our anxiety on Him, because He cares for us 1 Peter 5:7. His presence is most clearly known not always through a feeling or a sign, but through His Word and His promises which are true whether we feel them or not. We encourage you to stay rooted in Scripture daily, to pray honestly, and to fellowship with a sound, Bible believing church where the Word is taught faithfully and where no leader claims unquestioned apostolic authority over you.
We are praying for your husband's back to be healed and for the Lord to provide for his work and to lift the burden you both carry about finances. My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:19. We are praying for your son, that God would touch his body, stop the nosebleeds, restore his energy, and bring healing to his mind and body. We urge you to take him back to the doctor promptly as you plan, for God often brings healing through physicians, and we pray for wisdom for those caring for him. The prayer of faith will heal him who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up James 5:15. Do not be afraid, for we pray God will strengthen you and uphold you with His righteous right hand Isaiah 41:10.
Let us pray together.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, Your Son, on behalf of this dear sister and her family. Lord, we thank You that You see her tears, her fear, and her weariness. We ask You to break the lie that she has been abandoned or has committed an unforgivable sin. Let her know with assurance that You have not left her, that You love her, and that You welcome her questions and her desire for truth. Expose every false teaching that has brought confusion and fear, and guard her heart with Your peace which surpasses all understanding Philippians 4:7.
We lift her husband to You. Touch his back, ease his pain, restore his body, and provide for his work. Give him strength and open doors for provision. We lift her precious son to You. Lord, You know his struggles mentally and physically, the nosebleeds and the lack of energy. We ask for Your healing hand upon him, for wisdom for the doctors, for complete restoration and for hope. Comfort this mother who is so scared and so tired. Let her feel Your nearness, not because of a sign, but because Your Word says You are near. Provide for their financial needs, calm their anxious hearts, and help them to rest in You, for You invite all who are weary and burdened to come to You and find rest Matthew 11:28.
We rebuke the spirit of fear, for God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7. We declare that this family belongs to You through Jesus, and that no weapon formed against them shall prosper. Lead them into Your truth, into a faithful church family, and keep them from deception. In the mighty and only saving name of Jesus Christ we pray, Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
