Silas
Beloved of All
Thank you for sharing your heart so openly. It is good to hear that you are finding a quiet place to heal and that you are seeing some of your daily needs met, and that you know your hope is in the blood of Jesus.
Your desire for a godly husband is understandable, and Scripture gives a beautiful picture to help shape that desire. In the story of Ruth, Boaz is called a kinsman redeemer, one who was related by family and who stepped in to redeem and restore. That story points beyond itself, because the family line through Ruth and Boaz leads to David and then to Christ. Jesus Himself became kin to us by taking on flesh so that He could redeem us. He is the true Redeemer. If the Lord brings a husband into your life, pray that he will be a man who reflects that same redeeming love, a man who loves Jesus first and who will love you within the lifelong covenant of marriage as God designed it for one man and one woman.
It helps to remember that our words do not create reality. God is the one who provides and who works as He desires. Under the old law there was even a provision for the cleansing of a leper, though leprosy was incurable by human means. God in effect left room for His own grace and power to act, so that if He chose to heal, there was a way for that person to be restored. That shows us not to put God in a box. He is able to work in your health, in your work between two jobs, in the practical needs for your home and for the garage you are turning into a studio. Bring those needs to Him and trust His wisdom and timing rather than trying to speak things into existence.
You mentioned wanting peace while you work and build. Jesus is the one who speaks with authority. He rebuked unclean spirits and they left, and He rebuked the wind and said to the sea, peace be still, and there was a great calm. The same Lord can speak peace over your heart and mind as you labor and wait. That peace grows as you build up the inner life, by feeding heavily on the Word of God, by waiting on the Lord, by fellowship and by prayer. Fasting joined with prayer can also help set the heart to seek Him more fully.
You are right to rejoice in the blood of Jesus. Scripture is clear that God has made only one provision for sin, and that is Jesus Christ. There is no other way for sin to be atoned for. To believe in Him is to receive forgiveness and new life, and to turn from Him is to remain under condemnation. If you have put your trust in Him, you are indeed favored, not because of anything you have spoken or earned, but because you are clothed in His grace.
May the Lord continue to provide for your daily needs, bring healing where you are congested and weary, give you wisdom as you steward your work and the studio space, and guard your heart with His peace while you wait on Him. May He keep you close to Jesus, your Redeemer, and if it is His will, in His time bring a faithful, godly husband who will walk with you in the Lord.
I am praying that you will know more of His presence in that quiet place you have set apart, that you will be strengthened in the Word, and that you will rest in His care day by day.
Your desire for a godly husband is understandable, and Scripture gives a beautiful picture to help shape that desire. In the story of Ruth, Boaz is called a kinsman redeemer, one who was related by family and who stepped in to redeem and restore. That story points beyond itself, because the family line through Ruth and Boaz leads to David and then to Christ. Jesus Himself became kin to us by taking on flesh so that He could redeem us. He is the true Redeemer. If the Lord brings a husband into your life, pray that he will be a man who reflects that same redeeming love, a man who loves Jesus first and who will love you within the lifelong covenant of marriage as God designed it for one man and one woman.
It helps to remember that our words do not create reality. God is the one who provides and who works as He desires. Under the old law there was even a provision for the cleansing of a leper, though leprosy was incurable by human means. God in effect left room for His own grace and power to act, so that if He chose to heal, there was a way for that person to be restored. That shows us not to put God in a box. He is able to work in your health, in your work between two jobs, in the practical needs for your home and for the garage you are turning into a studio. Bring those needs to Him and trust His wisdom and timing rather than trying to speak things into existence.
You mentioned wanting peace while you work and build. Jesus is the one who speaks with authority. He rebuked unclean spirits and they left, and He rebuked the wind and said to the sea, peace be still, and there was a great calm. The same Lord can speak peace over your heart and mind as you labor and wait. That peace grows as you build up the inner life, by feeding heavily on the Word of God, by waiting on the Lord, by fellowship and by prayer. Fasting joined with prayer can also help set the heart to seek Him more fully.
You are right to rejoice in the blood of Jesus. Scripture is clear that God has made only one provision for sin, and that is Jesus Christ. There is no other way for sin to be atoned for. To believe in Him is to receive forgiveness and new life, and to turn from Him is to remain under condemnation. If you have put your trust in Him, you are indeed favored, not because of anything you have spoken or earned, but because you are clothed in His grace.
May the Lord continue to provide for your daily needs, bring healing where you are congested and weary, give you wisdom as you steward your work and the studio space, and guard your heart with His peace while you wait on Him. May He keep you close to Jesus, your Redeemer, and if it is His will, in His time bring a faithful, godly husband who will walk with you in the Lord.
I am praying that you will know more of His presence in that quiet place you have set apart, that you will be strengthened in the Word, and that you will rest in His care day by day.
