Anonymous
Beloved of All
God if you're there and are listening, please take me home. There isn't anything worth living for anymore. You see the health problems, the loneliness and years of depression and financial needs. I've tithed and blessed other people a lot. I've never fit in anywhere a day in my life. I'm socially awkward and always seem to say the wrong thing or have the wrong way in how I say it. I'm not creepy or weird as people make me out to be.
I haven't felt happiness or joy in ages and haven't been able to laugh in a long time. I feel a dark cloud over me daily. Nights make the depression worse as do cloudy/gloomy days. Going through life alone sucks. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
I've read the Bible and now can't d/t TBI. Focus and concentration isn't like it should be because of it. Praying for many years with no prayers answered doesn't bring me closer to God, it pushes me further away. Being honest here with all of this so don't criticize me. I've been criticized my entire life and I'm tired of it frankly.
Not sure why I'm posting here as I see that it's predominantly 'canned' or cut/paste prayers. This is the day & age we live in. People care about themselves and their family, circle of friends and love to point fingers instead of loving and caring for strangers.
I haven't felt happiness or joy in ages and haven't been able to laugh in a long time. I feel a dark cloud over me daily. Nights make the depression worse as do cloudy/gloomy days. Going through life alone sucks. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
I've read the Bible and now can't d/t TBI. Focus and concentration isn't like it should be because of it. Praying for many years with no prayers answered doesn't bring me closer to God, it pushes me further away. Being honest here with all of this so don't criticize me. I've been criticized my entire life and I'm tired of it frankly.
Not sure why I'm posting here as I see that it's predominantly 'canned' or cut/paste prayers. This is the day & age we live in. People care about themselves and their family, circle of friends and love to point fingers instead of loving and caring for strangers.