Chrysostom
Beloved of All
The very request you make, to hold fast one thing while not letting go the other, reveals a heart striving after God yet tangled in the cares of this life. The apostle speaks plainly: "No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life" (2 Tim. 2:4). You pray earnestly for the salvation of a former spouse and a child, and that is itself a noble act of love. Yet hear the warning of the Spirit: an impure life, or even the choking dust of worldly anxieties, extinguishes the gift of grace like a lamp smothered with water and earth. If you fix your eye continually upon that past union and the outcome of another’s repentance, you open a door to a wind that can quench the flame within you. Close the door. Shut your mouth to complaints and your ear to whisperings of despair. Do not let the past drain the oil that fuels your present light.
Consider the power of the Cross. It has crucified the world to you, and you to the world. All things have become new: a new creation, a new rule of life, new things God even now declares and performs. To this newness you are called; let not the old dispensation of your former life hold you back. It is right to intercede, but know this: Christ, our High Priest, ever lives to make intercession. He is able to save to the uttermost, He has no successor and no weakness. Entrust that prodigal and that distant one to Him, and then forget what lies behind, as the runner strains toward the prize. To keep turning back to gazes upon their unregenerate state is to look where you have been ordered not to look, and to run with sandals full of lead.
Be thankful, unceasingly thankful, for the grace already given to you. For nothing is so acceptable to God as a heart that offers praise for both its own mercies and those bestowed on others. And let that thanksgiving govern your prayer: not as one bargaining with God for outcomes, but as one standing in the light of a grace that is sufficient. All trials, this very tension you feel, are permitted not to destroy you but to teach you lowliness and to prepare you for hardiness. The struggle to keep one hand on the new while the other stretches backward is itself the trial. Its proper fruit is not a divided life but a decisive one. You cannot be a soldier carrying two shields. Cast off the weight, for the night is far spent and the day is at hand. Judgment stands at the doors; we know not the hour, but we know the season calls for vigilance, not entanglement.
Desire open doors for the Gospel? Then see that your own life is the first door set open to the world. A clean conscience, an unquenched Spirit, a lamp burning bright, these are the credentials that herald the message. Better is one who does the will of the Lord than ten thousand transgressors, and better is one soul wholly given to present duty than a heart divided between ten thousand cares. The world itself, with all its claims, would not counterbalance the pearl of this present season where God is doing a new thing. Therefore, set in order the things that remain; meet each pressing need with diligence; and run your race in such a way that you may win. But you cannot win if you run with your eyes fixed behind you.
Finally, do not think you must ask for protection as if you fight alone. The cross has opened doors that were shut, has quenched the venom of the evil one, and has made an entrance into Paradise for all who abide in Christ. He who sends angels to cast the wicked into the furnace is the same who keeps the feet of His saints. Ask, then, for grace, but also take hold of the grace already given. Shut the door to temptation by the fear of God; guard the eye and the ear; let not a blast of wickedness come in from outside. And walk forward, not looking back. The new things are before you; enter into them with thanksgiving, and the God of peace will be with you.
Consider the power of the Cross. It has crucified the world to you, and you to the world. All things have become new: a new creation, a new rule of life, new things God even now declares and performs. To this newness you are called; let not the old dispensation of your former life hold you back. It is right to intercede, but know this: Christ, our High Priest, ever lives to make intercession. He is able to save to the uttermost, He has no successor and no weakness. Entrust that prodigal and that distant one to Him, and then forget what lies behind, as the runner strains toward the prize. To keep turning back to gazes upon their unregenerate state is to look where you have been ordered not to look, and to run with sandals full of lead.
Be thankful, unceasingly thankful, for the grace already given to you. For nothing is so acceptable to God as a heart that offers praise for both its own mercies and those bestowed on others. And let that thanksgiving govern your prayer: not as one bargaining with God for outcomes, but as one standing in the light of a grace that is sufficient. All trials, this very tension you feel, are permitted not to destroy you but to teach you lowliness and to prepare you for hardiness. The struggle to keep one hand on the new while the other stretches backward is itself the trial. Its proper fruit is not a divided life but a decisive one. You cannot be a soldier carrying two shields. Cast off the weight, for the night is far spent and the day is at hand. Judgment stands at the doors; we know not the hour, but we know the season calls for vigilance, not entanglement.
Desire open doors for the Gospel? Then see that your own life is the first door set open to the world. A clean conscience, an unquenched Spirit, a lamp burning bright, these are the credentials that herald the message. Better is one who does the will of the Lord than ten thousand transgressors, and better is one soul wholly given to present duty than a heart divided between ten thousand cares. The world itself, with all its claims, would not counterbalance the pearl of this present season where God is doing a new thing. Therefore, set in order the things that remain; meet each pressing need with diligence; and run your race in such a way that you may win. But you cannot win if you run with your eyes fixed behind you.
Finally, do not think you must ask for protection as if you fight alone. The cross has opened doors that were shut, has quenched the venom of the evil one, and has made an entrance into Paradise for all who abide in Christ. He who sends angels to cast the wicked into the furnace is the same who keeps the feet of His saints. Ask, then, for grace, but also take hold of the grace already given. Shut the door to temptation by the fear of God; guard the eye and the ear; let not a blast of wickedness come in from outside. And walk forward, not looking back. The new things are before you; enter into them with thanksgiving, and the God of peace will be with you.
