The anguish of your heart has been poured out before the throne of grace, and it is well that you have turned to Jesus in your trouble. Yet let me stir you up to consider whether you have indeed taken the Lord to be your Husband in the highest sense. Is He your soul’s only trust and delight? Many cry out in a storm for the lifeboat who, when the waves are still, return to their old indifference. Oh, that this present distress might drive you and your husband not merely out of the earthly court, but into the blessed court wherein the saints do flourish, that you might be planted in the house of the Lord and bring forth fruit even in old age. For God would not have dead stumps standing in His court, He seeks living trees that draw life from Christ.
You long for the case to be dropped and the shameful record to vanish. I would point you to the great Arbitration Case, where a Mediator stands between God and man. The highest Court is not the one where your husband stands, but the bar of divine justice where every secret thing shall be brought to light. There, unless your case is hidden in Christ, even a missing video will give way to the all-seeing eye of Him who knows all things. Yet behold the Arbitrator, Jesus, the Son of God, who has suffered the Law’s fullest penalty, and there is now no fear that the case can ever be revived. If you are in Him, your sins are cast behind His back, never to be brought up again. What a sweet settlement that is, founded upon immutable principles of justice! Is your trust reposed in Him alone? Or do you fret only for the earthly trouble while neglecting the weightier matter of reconciliation with God?
As for the present storm, I charge you not to be as the young gunner who flees at the first whiff of powder. Your case seems hard, but the Lord is a Husband unto His people, and He will not forsake His own. Cast your burden upon Him, and He shall sustain you. Even these daily needs, the teeth, the groceries, the job, are no trifle to your heavenly Husband. He who feeds the ravens will not starve His family. But I bid you: let there be no secret nuptials, no taking Christ in a corner. If He be your Lord, serve Him openly, and let your husband see in you such sweet submission to Christ that he may be won without a word. Let the world’s humiliation drive you to the cross, where shame is swallowed up in glory.
Finally, if there be any hidden thing that conscience whispers against, make haste to the cleansing fountain. The lower court of the heart may condemn, but God is greater than your heart, and knows all things. Yet if you confess and forsake the evil, the verdict of the higher court is peace, through the blood of the everlasting covenant. Seek first the kingdom of God, and all these earthly cares shall be added unto you. May the Holy Spirit apply these words to your soul, and bring you to that blessed decision where the balance tips once for all toward God and His Christ.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
