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"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7). If anyone has read my post on fear and anxiety, they would know I have struggled hard with anxiety, and fear, especially when it came to my children. I knew intellectually me worrying would not change a thing, but I could not seem to stop it. I would pray in desperation to God, without complete confidence He heard or cared about my prayers. Tonight my daughter and the youth group traveled two and half hours to a concert. I knew we had a winter weather advisory, and my daughter...

Yesterday when I ask the Holy Spirit to reveal in me what I was unwilling to give to the Lord, it became clear to me it was the affair. I am still sad, but I know the Lord is working and in His time He will heal those wounds. I have no idea why I am unwilling to give it to Him. I have been in a holding pattern for the last 24 hours. Normally I am a doer. I want to read the whole Bible or something to do. It is on my heart to "be" and receive. This is very difficult for me, I know the Lord is teaching me something while I'm "being". While at Bible Study tonight we talked about Joseph, and our dreams, aspirations. The teacher ask what our dreams were. She was a bit shocked when I said "for 6 months now it has been on my heart, Build Your...

Thank you God for You being there. Even though it was hard to hear, thank you for the verses and the reading thing ,even though it was hard to hear. please make it sink in. I need Your help, to not cherish sin in my heart, so You can fix me where I need it. I know its a process God but its really hard. i failed bad the last few days as You know God. but it does feel like making some progress too You have been here God and I thank You for that because thats what its about, being able to have a friendship with You. i dont want You to be far away its me thats been far away and pushing you away though, not wanting to face you and have to deal with things.

Earlier today I was listening to a Podcast, http://www.heismore.com/podcast/luke-pt-1/ , on Luke. The man doing it is from Cincinnati, where I used to live. He is an extremely humble, loving man full of the Holy Spirit and rooted deeply in scripture. He was teaching on the first part of Luke. He discussed when Gabriel spoke to Mary. 29 Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be. 30 But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his father David, 33 and he will reign over...

"Bless them Change Me" is a great tool when confronted with someone that annoy's or offends me. Sometimes I have to say it over and over and over. I love it, it usually powerfully defuses me, and lets me gain perspective. I am not sure if I am asking the Lord to change my perspective or allow Grace or to teach me something. One truth I have found consistent is If someone's behavior, attitude, or speech really annoys or offends me, it is always a characteristic I can find in myself. Normally I will try to deni it because I find that truth to ugly. The first time I became aware of this it shocked the truth right into me. I have a few people in my life that are very negative, always jumping to the worse conclusion, seeing the worst in...

For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Mathew 6: 14-15 Mathew 6 explains why we should forgive 1. Jesus himself says to forgive other people 2. For our sins to be forgiven 3. Because Jesus has forgiven us , we also need to forgive others, so that others will see jesus in us.

You are my Rock The One I hold onto when Times come hard and fast You are my rock the one I hold onto You make time for me I don't understand why you would love me like you do You never change you are my rock the one I hold onto Your love is everlasting you are my rock the one I hold onto. Written :©Betty Bolden

A silent wave rushing inside my heart Your hand leading me so far we won't depart Your voice I heard in away that's taking me far Into a silent wave rushing inside my heart. Oh the thrill it was to hear your voice so silent as I opened up to you so wonderful this silent wave rushing inside my heart I was searching for a answer to a question for so long there it was a silent wave rushing inside my heart Your voice Lord, in ways I never found a silent whisper so very loud inside my heart the silent wave replied to me your love is so divine.. So when the shattered dreams are filling your mind please please listen to the silent wave rushing inside your heart. Written by:©Betty Bolden

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My flesh has thought for a few days I should write about gratitude. Therapist, 12 step programs, and all the self help books say they are good, and they can change my focus, and make me feel better. I was going to write about it to "help" someone else. As if I have anything to do with the "helping" That was flesh, and pride. I am sure gratitude list works for some, but my experience was not so good. I would compare my life with a concentration camp survivor, a parent that lost a child, or a homeless person living under a bridge. The lists I am refering to took place before I was walking with the Lord, and I was not really thanking God, I was just trying to feel grateful thus feel good. Over the years I tried to get in the habbit of...