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Yesterday I went to pick my daughter at a friends house. The friends mother has been walking with the Lord for way more years than myself. She is under major attack from the enemy right now. I wrote about her a few days ago. I have been praying for her and her children. We got into a very deep conversation. In someways it was like holding a mirror up and seeing myself. I have had believers speak truth into me and for some reason there is a fog between their mouths and my ears. Eventually the words come back and the fog clears. She knows the Bible much better than I do, she has not done anything wrong, or bad, she continues to seek the Lord, and yet she is struggling. The enemy has slung an arrow of distraction at her and it landed. I...

1 Corinthians 3:16 Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you? Due to my situation I am more sensitive to prayer request regarding the betrayal of a spouse, but it is undeniable it is one of the top five prayer request on this site and others. This morning it seemed there were so many. I thought that would be what I would write about. While on the exercise bike I was listening to a podcast on Sexual Immorality http://www.heismore.com/podcast/sexual-immorality/ by Zak Kijinski . I was convicted immediately. He began talking about Body Hatred. This has always been a struggle for me. The first time I remember hating my body was in fourth grade. I was taller than all but two boys in the whole fourth...

I have a very heavy heart tonight. A friend confessed something she did in her teens, it was actually done to her. It has touched my soul deeply. I discussed it with my pastor. I expressed in no way do I judge her, I am just in so much pain for her, I actually get teary when I think about it. I am praying about it. I do not know if the pain I am experiencing is something God has touched me with and He will somehow use this pain to glorify Him, or if the devil is playing games with my thoughts. I have heard horrific things in my life, normally I can pray in the spirit and it somehow does not get through, to affect me for days like this. I want to heal her, I know only the Lord can do that. I see how this event shaped the rest of her...

I find that there is one thing or a other in my life that I need prayers for every week. This blog entry is just about what's going on in my life now. I realize I may not have clicked thanks for every prayer but I truly value each and all of you and thank you. Currently I need continued prayers for finances, health, and spirituality(for my father). I also would like a general prayer for happiness as I find financial burdens have really burdened my family. In Jesus name amen. Thank you all.

Romans 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. Proverbs 28:13 Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy. For most of my life I lived behind mask, concealing my innermost thoughts, feelings, desires, and fears. Part of me believed by denying the truth I could hide from it, the other part feared judgement, and being abandon. While I was hiding my sins, fears etc. I left a wide open door for the enemy to attack. For example by keeping the sin of anxiety and fear in the dark, I...

Yesterday as I was researching the devils lies and and Gods Truths I came across 1 Timothy 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. I was in shock. I have said this and thought this hundreds of times in my life, but had left out "for the love of". That changed everything. I had always said Money is the root of all evil. This was a life altering moment. As I was growing up I witnessed family members do, and say horrible things about money. Relationships were lost because of it, threats were always made about people being removed from wills. People had fits of rage against one another about it. There were an unbelievable...

Few verses from Mathew 18 explains about forgiveness. Jesus himself tells about forgiveness in this chapter. When i read i was able to find out the consequences if we dont forgive. 1. Lord was angry( verse 34) 2. you put yourself in prison(verse 30) 3. Delivered him to tormentors (Verse 34) 4.Other people affect your choices and dictate your life(Verse 30) 5. No answers from lord(unanswered prayers), because of unforgiveness (Verse 32-33) 6. Relationships will not be ok (Verse 31)

I have bought into the devils lies most of my life. While at a recovery group for women in my situation, we were given a list with the devils lies in the left column, and on the right the scripture stating the truth. It was very powerful to me. I could go down the list and see what I was believing was a lie. I again have given that list to someone that really needed it. I believe the Lord put it on my heart to write about it so I would have it in black and white again. I am using many resources for this list. Lie #1- There is no devil 1 Peter 5:8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Lie #2- The Bible is a story, not meant to be taken literally, and not that...

Lord Jesus has forgiven us when he died on the cross, what about us when others sin against us or hurt us Matthew 6:14-15 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. If we receive forgiveness from God, we must give it to others who hurt us. When you forgive them lord will forgive your sins.

Today is Sanctity of Life Sunday, and I am overwhelmed by the number of 55,000,000 babies murdered since Roe v. Wade. The Lord has put it on my heart to talk about Sin ranking (my made up term). Some Christians could justify condemning a woman that has chosen to abort a child. We could pass judgement on her, and feel ok about talking amongst ourselves about how horrible she is. We could then feel superior to her because we never committed THAT sin. On a more personal level, when my I found out about my husbands adultery, I felt like I was some how better than him. I believed I was superior to him. I used it to my full advantage too. I slammed him emotionally every opportunity I had. My thought process: even know I was alone for over a...