Blogs

I was in bondage to fear most of my life. It seems each fear would spin out more fears. At times they would be overwhelming. Thoughts of fears would also produce feelings of anxiety, depression, loneliness, crazy, panic, etc... Those feelings would then produce undesirable behaviors. I would distance myself in relationships, I may withdraw, short fuse, avoidance of certain places people or actions. I was also very aware of the fact that I had given my children the curse of fear. I did not want them to suffer like me. When I read Bondage Breakers I was shocked, relieved and hopeful to find out I was not alone. Many people were in bondage to fear. So many there was a whole section devoted to it. There was a check off list of fears...

Ephesians 6:10-20 New International Version (NIV) The Armor of God 10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood,but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the...

Sometimes just a bible verse is enough for a whole day without my thoughts mixed in. 23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

day 1 cos failed today so starting over thank you God for the good that You have done though before the failling stuff I am sincerely thankful for the way You have been moving and organising and answering prayer I am sorry for sinning today please God You know the time frame in my heart please God by Your Mercy and Grace please may that come to pass i do ask for your help with that. if i can do that time frame can do longer. please help me sleep tonight, dont think that will be a problem but please protect me and the ones You know I'm thinking of tonight. Thank You God for everything You did the last couple of days. Thank You for not leaving me even though i failled You :sad: .

Every day should be Thanksgiving. I am so grateful for the miracles and healing and etc. I am thankful for this site, for the people here. I am thankful for so much. It may seem like I have little but then I realize how much worse things are without God. Updates: I really don't want it to seem like my life is as crazy as it may sound on here but in ways it is. However, prayers make everything better! Most of my needs right now are about finances, health, friendship and spirituality(for my father). Also people judge me and my family because we have so many problems it sounds unbelievable so that sometimes causes me to be upset or slightly melancholy because I don't think Christians should be doing judging in that way. It's not like i'm...

The Bible tells us to forgive, my therapist told me I had to forgive for my sake, every self help book says I have to forgive. The prevailing question HOW?The next question is do I really want to forgive them. Here is a favorite quote I have heard Un forgiveness is like drinking poison expecting the other person to die. After the abandonment of a biological father, the sexual abuse from two men, an adopted father that was full of rage alcoholic and emotional abusive, an ex husband that tried to kill me cheated on me then a current husband that cheated on me HOW? And a lot of I deserve to feel sorry for myself, rage, anger, unworthiness, hopelessness, and vengeance. I almost felt comfortable being miserable. I was used to betrayal and...

I have been reading 2 Chronicles recently, and I have seen a lot of examples of influence. For example, 2 Chronicles 22:3 "He [Ahaziah] too walked in the ways of the house of Ahab, for his mother encouraged him in doing wrong." In this situation, we see how Ahaziah's (King of Judah) mother had a bad influence on him. What if his mother was a woman of God? Would Ahaziah have done right? We don't know for sure, but I think so. "He [uzziah, king of Judah] sought God during the days of Zechariah, who instructed him in the fear of God. As long as he sought the Lord, God gave him sucess." (2 Chronicles 26:5) In this case, the prophet Zechariah had a good influence on Uzziah. If Zechariah did not do right, maybe Uzziah would have been more...

Sunday I received freedom from the bondage of sexual abuse, along with that The Lord pulled out anxiety, helplessness, depression, shame, rage, and confusion by the roots deep down in me. My biological father was one of the men that had abused me. I have very little contact with him. Last night he posted a very sexual response to a Christian Post I made on a social media site. Immediately the words "I do not receive that" came to mind. I will talk more about those words in a bit. I posted it with I still love you. Honestly, I felt disgusted, angry, and with in seconds self pity I knew I did not want to go back there. I posted a prayer request urgently needing help with forgiveness. I then posted a separate prayer request that my father...

As children of God we should seek to do our BEST yet often their are things that we may read, hear, or see that makes us see and feel what is WRONG in our life neglecting to recognize the good in our life – what little that might be at times….let us not forget that becoming a soldier in the army of God ....a child of God made in His image... this is a process we go through…being TRANSFORMED into God’s likeness…but there is good in all of us...God says so..He says there is a spot in a mans spirit that only He can fill and satisfy...so everyone has this..He says so..it's focusing on it and allowing it to grow in His image...that's the hard part....that's the choice. some of us have had really bad, dreadful lives and dreadful...

The most prevailing thought today is still the miracle of healing I received on day 1 of my fast. Every single part of me has been changed. There is a new peace and gentleness in my soul. I am stronger in my conviction and bolder in my speech. I just want every single person in the world to be freed from their bondage. I am still in Awe that Jesus has used me in very profound ways even before my healing. Three months ago He baptized a women through me. It was as powerful as giving birth to my own children. He has used me many times before I thought I was "good enough" I am reminded of David. God used the "runt of the family" to Glorify Him and in the direct line of Jesus Christ His only son. We do not have to be perfect to be used by...