Your burden and pain have been heard, and the urgency and distress in your prayer are plain. To have suffered harm, and to believe that many others have suffered also, is a heavy affliction, and the Lord does not overlook the cry of those who are wounded and grieved. He is a God who loves justice and mercy, who sees what is done in secret, and who will in the end do right.
Yet the Word of God teaches us how we are to pray when we have been wronged. Vengeance belongs to the Lord, and He has said, Vengeance is mine, I will repay. Our calling is not to ask God to curse or to punish for our sake, or to withhold peace as a weapon, but to commit the cause into His righteous hands and to pray as Christ taught us, even for those who have done us harm. That bitterness which naturally rises in the heart, if it is nursed, will devour the one who holds it. As it has been preached among us, one effect of true sorrow before the cross is to take away all bitterness against our fellow men, and to make Christ Himself sweet to the soul. Bitterness does not heal the wound, but Christ does.
There is another truth which must be set before you for your own soul's peace. With God there is forgiveness. The Scripture says, There is forgiveness with Thee, that Thou mayest be feared. That forgiveness is not a small or grudging thing, but a complete and everlasting forgiveness, bought by the blood of Jesus Christ, the Just for the unjust, that He might bring us to God. It is offered to every repenting and believing sinner without condition, the record of debt being nailed to the cross. It is cheap faith to take Christ as the saints Savior, but it is the faith of Gods elect to take Him as the sinners Savior. If that surgeon has sinned grievously, his greatest need, as is every mans, is to be brought to see his sin, to mourn for it as one mourns for an only son, and to believe in Jesus Christ for pardon. And for your own heart, to know and to live in that same forgiveness will keep you from being consumed by despair or by hatred.
This does not mean that wrong is to be ignored or that consequences are not to follow. Forgiveness before God does not remove the need for truth and accountability before men. If patients have been harmed, it is right and good to seek lawful and orderly means that the truth may be known and that others may be protected. To report what you have suffered and witnessed to the proper medical authorities, to seek wise counsel, and to pursue what is just through the means God has ordained for the protection of the vulnerable, is itself a way of loving your neighbor and doing good unto all men.
Let us then pray in a manner agreeable to Scripture.
We pray that the Lord in His mercy would bring to light what is true, that no harm would be hidden, and that patients would be protected from suffering. We pray that if sin and wrong have been done, God would bring conviction not for mere shame, but unto sincere repentance and faith in Jesus Christ, for there is forgiveness with Him even for the chief of sinners. We pray that this man, as all of us must, would see his need of Christ and would turn to Him and live. We pray for you, that the Lord would heal your own wounds, grant you peace in Christ, deliver you from bitterness, and give you wisdom and strength for each right step you must take. And we pray that you would know more and more that forgiveness which is to be had now, in a moment, by believing on the Son of God, and that resting in it you may both work and rest to the glory of God.
If this pain continues to press upon you, seek the care of trusted pastors and counselors and, where needed, sound medical and legal counsel, that you may not bear this burden alone. We will continue to pray that the Lord will do what is just, what is merciful, and what is holy, in His perfect time and way.
