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Chloebaby1980
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Hi Dear Prayer Partners
I am unhappy as I drifted from God and I also fell into bad company. Too tired so will write briefly. My mgr said I should manage my emotions and my peer relationships too, and I figured I was too man crazy and insecure, that's why I am letting myself get so upset and so overwhelmed. Fortunately, my manager said my work was great in Beijing, so I am spared, but I am also hoping I can get my act together as I value the job. Store is opening soon and I don't want to let anything mess me up. My parents are still hard, especially my dad; he is getting senile and my mom is also very driven by status, and goodness, I just don't want to stumble as I had come a long way. I really want to move out but now is not the time, and I have gone back to cigarettes, I gave up on alcohol now in HK but in Beijing, I drank too much, and I also feel sad and pressured when I see couples. It dawned upon me that I'm really better off living on my own, but now I need to still stick it out with my parents. I wish autumn would come soon and I miss the simple life in Beijing as HK is a very difficult place as it's stressful and competitive. I am really too naive and idealistic a gal, and as I'm sensitive, I think I will die before my time, so do pray God will work out a situation at my workplace where I can get transferred to Beijing or even Shanghai, I really don't mind as I'm so sick of the "New York" bitchiness and competitiveness of the HK lifestyle, I just want to make decent money using my talents and I don't want to go through my life bitter and strained...
I feel my soul slipping away and now I plan to take my shower, say my prayers, and sleep. Tomorrow, I will put on my pink top, rugged boy shorts, and my pink high top sneakers with a black hoodie, I think I should fare better in a place like Brighton as they have the same store there too, and tomorrow, my China manager is coming down, and I hope I can move to Beijing at least for a year or two as HK is way too stressful for me, and also I get along with the Beijing staff there, and rent there is cheaper too, please pray in regards to this for me as I have a friend there who is Christian and who can take me to church too.
Love and much appreciate.
I am unhappy as I drifted from God and I also fell into bad company. Too tired so will write briefly. My mgr said I should manage my emotions and my peer relationships too, and I figured I was too man crazy and insecure, that's why I am letting myself get so upset and so overwhelmed. Fortunately, my manager said my work was great in Beijing, so I am spared, but I am also hoping I can get my act together as I value the job. Store is opening soon and I don't want to let anything mess me up. My parents are still hard, especially my dad; he is getting senile and my mom is also very driven by status, and goodness, I just don't want to stumble as I had come a long way. I really want to move out but now is not the time, and I have gone back to cigarettes, I gave up on alcohol now in HK but in Beijing, I drank too much, and I also feel sad and pressured when I see couples. It dawned upon me that I'm really better off living on my own, but now I need to still stick it out with my parents. I wish autumn would come soon and I miss the simple life in Beijing as HK is a very difficult place as it's stressful and competitive. I am really too naive and idealistic a gal, and as I'm sensitive, I think I will die before my time, so do pray God will work out a situation at my workplace where I can get transferred to Beijing or even Shanghai, I really don't mind as I'm so sick of the "New York" bitchiness and competitiveness of the HK lifestyle, I just want to make decent money using my talents and I don't want to go through my life bitter and strained...
I feel my soul slipping away and now I plan to take my shower, say my prayers, and sleep. Tomorrow, I will put on my pink top, rugged boy shorts, and my pink high top sneakers with a black hoodie, I think I should fare better in a place like Brighton as they have the same store there too, and tomorrow, my China manager is coming down, and I hope I can move to Beijing at least for a year or two as HK is way too stressful for me, and also I get along with the Beijing staff there, and rent there is cheaper too, please pray in regards to this for me as I have a friend there who is Christian and who can take me to church too.
Love and much appreciate.
