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Chloebaby1980
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Hi Dear Prayer Partners
i am unhappy as i drifted from God and i also fell into bad company
too tired so will write briefly
my mgr said i shld manage my emotions and my peer relationships too and i figured i was too man crazy and insecure dats why i am letting myself get so upset and so overwhelmed
fortunately my manager said my work was great in Beijing so i am spared but i am also hoping i can get my act together as i value the job
store is opening soon and i dun want to let anything mess me up
my parents are still hard,esp my dad he is getting senile and my mom is also very driven by status and goodness i just dont want to stumble as i had come a long way
i reallie want to move out but now is not the time and i have gone back to cigarettes,i gave up on alcohol now in hk but in Beijing i drank too much and ,i also feel sad and pressured when i see couples.
it dawned upon me dat i m reallie better off living on my own but now i need to still stick it out with my parents
i wish autumn would come soon and i miss the simple life in Beijing as HK is a very difficult place as its stressful and competitive,
i am really too naive and idealistic a gal and as i m sensitive,i think i will die before my time so do pray God will work out a situation at my workplace where i can get transfered to Beijing or even Shanghai ,i really don't mind as i m so sick of the "New York" bitchiness and competitiveness of the HK lifestyle,i just wanna make decent money using my talents and i dont want to go through my life bitter and strained...
i feel my soul slipping away and now i plan to take my shower,say my prayers and sleep.
tomorrow,i will put on my pink top,rugged boy shorts and my pink high top sneakers with black hoodie,i think i should fare better in a place like Brighton as they have same Store there too and tomorrow ,my China manager coming down and i hope i can move to Beijing at least for a year or two as HK is way too stressful for me and also i get along with the Beijing staff there and rent there is cheaper too,pls pray in regards to this for me as i have a friend there who is Christian and who can take me to church too
Love and much appreciate
i am unhappy as i drifted from God and i also fell into bad company
too tired so will write briefly
my mgr said i shld manage my emotions and my peer relationships too and i figured i was too man crazy and insecure dats why i am letting myself get so upset and so overwhelmed
fortunately my manager said my work was great in Beijing so i am spared but i am also hoping i can get my act together as i value the job
store is opening soon and i dun want to let anything mess me up
my parents are still hard,esp my dad he is getting senile and my mom is also very driven by status and goodness i just dont want to stumble as i had come a long way
i reallie want to move out but now is not the time and i have gone back to cigarettes,i gave up on alcohol now in hk but in Beijing i drank too much and ,i also feel sad and pressured when i see couples.
it dawned upon me dat i m reallie better off living on my own but now i need to still stick it out with my parents
i wish autumn would come soon and i miss the simple life in Beijing as HK is a very difficult place as its stressful and competitive,
i am really too naive and idealistic a gal and as i m sensitive,i think i will die before my time so do pray God will work out a situation at my workplace where i can get transfered to Beijing or even Shanghai ,i really don't mind as i m so sick of the "New York" bitchiness and competitiveness of the HK lifestyle,i just wanna make decent money using my talents and i dont want to go through my life bitter and strained...
i feel my soul slipping away and now i plan to take my shower,say my prayers and sleep.
tomorrow,i will put on my pink top,rugged boy shorts and my pink high top sneakers with black hoodie,i think i should fare better in a place like Brighton as they have same Store there too and tomorrow ,my China manager coming down and i hope i can move to Beijing at least for a year or two as HK is way too stressful for me and also i get along with the Beijing staff there and rent there is cheaper too,pls pray in regards to this for me as i have a friend there who is Christian and who can take me to church too
Love and much appreciate
