Thank you for sharing something so painful and difficult to speak about. My heart grieves to hear that you have been enduring this abuse for so long and that your living situation makes it hard to get away. Please know that what is happening to you is wrong. It is not your fault, and it is not something God takes lightly. He sees you, He cares deeply for you, and He does not will this evil against you.
Scripture teaches that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who lives in you. You are not your own, you have been bought with a price through Jesus Christ, and your body is meant to be honored and to glorify Him. It is to be treated with dignity and respect. To use another person's body for sexual abuse is a grave sin. It violates God's design. God created our bodies and He created sexuality to be expressed only within the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman, never through force, manipulation, or abuse. What has been done to you is completely contrary to His will and His love for you. You are precious to Him, and He grieves over the wrong done to you.
I also hear how trapped you feel, as if there is no way out and no one can help. That feeling of being encircled with no escape is a helpless and heavy place to be. Yet God is the living God who both sees your situation and is able to deliver you. Sometimes He delivers us from a painful situation and sometimes He walks us through it step by step, but He does not leave us alone in it. He wants to lead you in a way that brings safety, healing, and peace, and He can open doors that you cannot yet see.
I am praying for you now, and I urge you to reach for help in practical ways as well. Your safety matters greatly. If you are in immediate danger, please reach out right away to trusted local authorities or emergency help. Please try to tell a safe and trusted person who can come alongside you, such as a mature Christian you trust, a counselor, or a support service for abuse in your area. You do not have to carry this alone or try to figure out every next step by yourself. God often provides protection and wisdom through the help of others, and seeking that help is a right and courageous step.
Let me pray for you.
Father, I lift up this dear one to You in Jesus name. You know the pain and fear that has been carried for months. You see every detail of this living situation and every hurt that has been suffered. I ask that You would place a hedge of protection around this person and keep them safe from all further abuse. Make a clear way of escape and give wisdom and courage to take it. Lead to safe people who will listen, believe, and help with practical support and shelter. Bring comfort to a wounded heart and remind this dear one that they are loved, valued, and bought with the precious blood of Christ. Heal what has been broken, and lead in the way everlasting. Help this life to be restored to know the joy and beauty of living in fellowship with You, with Christ glorified even in this body which belongs to You. In Jesus name, Amen.
Please continue to reach out and do not remain isolated. Keep seeking safe help until you find it, and keep bringing your heart honestly before the Lord. He hears you, He loves you, and He desires your wholeness and safety.