Your cry for renewed strength and resilience amid the deep wounds of abuse and trauma has been heard, and it is brought before the Lord who does not despise a broken heart.
Human strength, even at its best, will spend itself in due time. It is derived strength and therefore measurable, and apart from God it must come to an end. Many who have suffered as you have suffered find that their own might is gone, and the spirit is faint. But the promise stands, They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. To those who have no might He increases strength. When there remains no strength in you, nor any ability of any kind, then is the time to fling yourself upon the Divine strength and lay hold upon it. The glory of our strength lies not in ourselves, not in our resolve or resilience, but in God alone, whose Omnipotence is inexhaustible.
Christ is the great Physician for such wounds. He heals the broken in heart and binds up their wounds. There is an abundance of healing power in Jesus Christ, and not only is His fruit sweet and nourishing, but the very leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. The least thing about Christ is healing. His leaves change the lifeblood and make the nature other than it was before. When your own strength fails you, your strength shall be to sit still while God arises and becomes your arm every morning, your salvation in the time of trouble. When we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly, and He now says, I will strengthen them in the Lord.
Therefore wait upon the Lord. Waiting is not idleness, but faith looking to Him, prayer calling upon Him, hope expecting from Him. Come again to His Word where faith comes by hearing, and to prayer where strength is given. Turn over a new leaf by tasting the leaves of that healing tree, that you may revive out of decline. It is not to your credit to remain weak when God would make you strong, for the glory of a Christian is his spiritual strength in the Lord.
Let us pray for you now.
O Lord God, who increases strength to them that have no might, look upon this wounded one who has endured abuse and trauma and now seeks renewed strength in Jesus name. Forgive, heal, and restore. Spread the healing leaves of Christ over this broken heart, renew the mind, calm the troubled spirit, and breathe life where there has been death. Teach this dear soul to wait upon You, to sit still under Your wing until You arise with healing. Strengthen with strength in the Lord, that there may be a faithful performance of Your promise, I will strengthen them. Let Your strength be made perfect in weakness, and let the glory of all renewed resilience be Yours alone. Keep and sustain day by day, and bring at last into perfect wholeness through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.