Chrysostom
Beloved of All
Your prayer cries out from a place of deep pain, and I hear the anguish in your words. But look carefully at what you seek: "remove them permanently," "do not let them be successful." The desire for an end to injustice is natural, yet if we are not watchful, a righteous plea can become a demand for vengeance that wounds your own soul more than any bully could. The harm you fear they have invented to ruin you and your stuff, this is but an external threat. But what of the internal? A heart blazing with wrath, even justified wrath, can destroy your peace far more thoroughly. Christ did not promise us a life free from the wicked; He promised us a peace that the world cannot give, a peace that abides even when enemies surround us.
Consider the difference between the peace of the world and the peace of Christ. The world's peace is the absence of conflict, the removal of whatever troubles us. But the peace our Lord came to bring is a sword. What does this mean? Sometimes the diseased part must be cut off for the body to be whole. Sometimes a false peace, a truce with evil, must be shattered by a good discord. It may be that these bullies, in their malice, are a sword that God permits in your life to sever you from an unhealthy attachment to the things of this world, or to test and strengthen your faith. When you pray "heal me and my stuff," ask yourself: what truly needs healing? Is it your reputation, your property, your comfort? Or is it your soul, that it might be conformed to the image of Christ who, when reviled, did not revile in return? The things you call your stuff, they are mere shadows. Life is not a plaything, or rather, our present life is a plaything compared to the things to come; we build houses like children at games, not realizing how fleeting it all is. The only possession that endures is your soul. Let them take what they will; if your soul is anchored in God, you have lost nothing.
You ask for permanent removal of your tormentors. But I tell you, the only permanent removal that profits you is the removal of sin from your heart. When you stand before the Lord, will it matter what tools of harm they invented? No, for that mercy-seat speaks not of earthly wars and petty feuds but of heaven and the life to come. Instead of demanding their obliteration, pray for their conversion. For if you are at war with your brother, you are at war with a member of Christ, however estranged he may be. Did not our Lord say, "Love your enemies, bless those who curse you"? This is the majestic usage of the Church: we receive peace, we give peace, we pronounce peace upon all. How monstrous it would be if, while hearing "peace be unto all" so often, we harbor a feud and pray for harm upon another! The peacemakers are the sons of God; the makers of disturbance are sons of the devil. Examine your soul: are you a maker of disturbance by your prayers, or a peacemaker even towards those who wrong you?
Do not misunderstand. I do not say you must affirm their wickedness or pretend it is not evil. But the true healing you need is not the cessation of their attacks but the sanctification of your own heart. God permits trials because He loves us; He knows that prosperity often breeds forgetfulness of Him, while affliction drives us to cling to Him alone. Your prayer for protection is answered not always by the disappearance of the wolves, but by the Shepherd's presence in the midst of them. He is the God of love and peace; if you follow peace with all men and pursue holiness, without which no one shall see the Lord, then the divine peace will garrison your soul, and no external weapon can truly touch you.
Therefore, cease from the madness of warring against your brothers in your heart. Entrust them to God's justice, which is far wiser than yours. Pray for your own healing, yes, the healing of bitterness, fear, and vengeful obsession. And then, if it is God's will, He may remove the trial; but if not, you will have gained something far greater: the unshakable peace of Christ that is the foundation of all joy. For He Himself came and preached peace to those who were far off and those who were near. Through Him we have access to the Father. Live in that peace, and let no bully rob you of it.
Consider the difference between the peace of the world and the peace of Christ. The world's peace is the absence of conflict, the removal of whatever troubles us. But the peace our Lord came to bring is a sword. What does this mean? Sometimes the diseased part must be cut off for the body to be whole. Sometimes a false peace, a truce with evil, must be shattered by a good discord. It may be that these bullies, in their malice, are a sword that God permits in your life to sever you from an unhealthy attachment to the things of this world, or to test and strengthen your faith. When you pray "heal me and my stuff," ask yourself: what truly needs healing? Is it your reputation, your property, your comfort? Or is it your soul, that it might be conformed to the image of Christ who, when reviled, did not revile in return? The things you call your stuff, they are mere shadows. Life is not a plaything, or rather, our present life is a plaything compared to the things to come; we build houses like children at games, not realizing how fleeting it all is. The only possession that endures is your soul. Let them take what they will; if your soul is anchored in God, you have lost nothing.
You ask for permanent removal of your tormentors. But I tell you, the only permanent removal that profits you is the removal of sin from your heart. When you stand before the Lord, will it matter what tools of harm they invented? No, for that mercy-seat speaks not of earthly wars and petty feuds but of heaven and the life to come. Instead of demanding their obliteration, pray for their conversion. For if you are at war with your brother, you are at war with a member of Christ, however estranged he may be. Did not our Lord say, "Love your enemies, bless those who curse you"? This is the majestic usage of the Church: we receive peace, we give peace, we pronounce peace upon all. How monstrous it would be if, while hearing "peace be unto all" so often, we harbor a feud and pray for harm upon another! The peacemakers are the sons of God; the makers of disturbance are sons of the devil. Examine your soul: are you a maker of disturbance by your prayers, or a peacemaker even towards those who wrong you?
Do not misunderstand. I do not say you must affirm their wickedness or pretend it is not evil. But the true healing you need is not the cessation of their attacks but the sanctification of your own heart. God permits trials because He loves us; He knows that prosperity often breeds forgetfulness of Him, while affliction drives us to cling to Him alone. Your prayer for protection is answered not always by the disappearance of the wolves, but by the Shepherd's presence in the midst of them. He is the God of love and peace; if you follow peace with all men and pursue holiness, without which no one shall see the Lord, then the divine peace will garrison your soul, and no external weapon can truly touch you.
Therefore, cease from the madness of warring against your brothers in your heart. Entrust them to God's justice, which is far wiser than yours. Pray for your own healing, yes, the healing of bitterness, fear, and vengeful obsession. And then, if it is God's will, He may remove the trial; but if not, you will have gained something far greater: the unshakable peace of Christ that is the foundation of all joy. For He Himself came and preached peace to those who were far off and those who were near. Through Him we have access to the Father. Live in that peace, and let no bully rob you of it.
