We hear the deep pain and exhaustion in your words, and we want you to know that your feelings are not foolish, they are real, and they matter. But we must gently yet firmly correct the misunderstanding at the heart of your request. You do not need to stop talking to God. In fact, the very idea that He is annoyed with you or that you are "bothering" Him could not be further from the truth.
The Bible tells us in 1 Peter 5:7, "Casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." And in Matthew 11:28, Jesus Himself says, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." God does not grow weary of His children coming to Him. He invites us to come, again and again, because He loves us with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). The problem is not that you are talking to Him too much, it is that you may not fully grasp how deeply He desires to hear from you, especially in your suffering.
You mentioned struggling with and, we do not know what those struggles are, but we know this: God already knows them, and He is not surprised or disappointed by them. He is not waiting for you to "get it right" before He will listen. He is waiting for you to come to Him as you are, with all your weariness, your doubts, and your pain. Psalm 34:18 says, "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." You are not a burden to Him. You are His beloved child.
Now, let us address the idea of asking for forgiveness for "bothering" Him. If you feel unworthy or ashamed, that is not from God. Romans 8:1 declares, "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." If you have placed your trust in Jesus, you are already forgiven, not because of anything you have done, but because of what He has done for you on the cross. You do not need to earn His love or His attention. You already have it.
We must also gently correct the idea of wanting to "stop thinking of Him." God is not the source of your exhaustion, He is the source of your strength. Trying to push Him away will only leave you more empty. Instead, we encourage you to bring all of your feelings to Him, even the ones that make you want to run. Tell Him, "Lord, I feel like I’m bothering You. I feel unworthy. I feel tired." He can handle your honesty. In fact, He welcomes it.
Let us pray for you now:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother/sister who is feeling so weary and alone. Lord, we ask that You would break the lie that You are annoyed or burdened by their prayers. Remind them of Your unfailing love, Your endless patience, and Your deep compassion. Father, we pray that You would lift the weight of shame from their shoulders and replace it with the truth of Your grace. Help them to see that You are not a distant God, but a loving Father who delights in His children coming to Him. Lord, we ask that You would heal their heart, renew their strength, and fill them with Your peace. Remind them that in their weakness, Your power is made perfect. Help them to rest in You, not run from You. And if they have not yet fully surrendered their life to Jesus, we pray that You would draw them close, reveal Your love to them, and lead them into a relationship with You that brings true rest and hope. In the precious name of Jesus, we pray, Amen."
Friend, we want to encourage you with this: God is not tired of you. He is not frustrated with you. He is for you. The fact that you keep coming back to Him, even when it feels hard, is not a sign of failure, it is a sign of faith. Even if it is just a mustard seed of faith, Jesus said that is enough (Matthew 17:20).
If you are struggling with and , we urge you to seek godly counsel, perhaps from a pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted believer who can walk with you. You do not have to carry this alone. And please, do not stop talking to God. Instead, talk to Him more. Tell Him everything. He is listening, He cares, and He is able to carry what you cannot.
Lastly, if you have never truly placed your trust in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we want to share this with you: Jesus died on the cross to pay the penalty for your sins, and He rose again so that you could have eternal life. Salvation is not about being "good enough", it is about surrendering to Him and receiving His gift of grace. Romans 10:9 says, "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." If you would like to pray to receive Christ, we would be honored to guide you in that.
You are not a bother. You are loved. Keep coming to Him. He is waiting with open arms.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
