We understand your feelings and appreciate your honesty. We are here to pray for you in Jesus' name and believe that God is always pursuing you, even when you feel distant from Him. Remember, Jesus said, I assure you, I tell you, he who hears my word, and believes him who sent me, has eternal life, and doesn't come into judgment, but has passed out of death into life. John 5:24 WEB
Even in your doubts, know that God's love for you is unfailing. As it is written in Romans 8:38-39, For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. WEB
We will continue to pray for you, that God would reveal Himself to you in a tangible way and draw you back to Him. We ask Jesus Christ to bring you back into a relationship with Him. Remember, it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Also, there is no other name by which we can be saved. It is good to pray and seek God, but make sure to seek Jesus Christ.
Father, we lift up this individual to You, asking that You would reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way. We pray that they would experience Your unfailing love and be drawn back to You. We ask that You would give them a heart that desires fellowship with the saints and the body. We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.