My heart posture - repost

[Jesus_is_king]

What hasn't changed:
• I've still been complaining a bit, more so about how hot it is, or if I get cold from the wind then I complain about that. Not as much as before, but it's still a tiny bit there. Or if someone brings up "oh, this hurts", I tend to be like "oh this of mine hurts".
• I'm still struggling with judging, especially when it comes to "oh this person did this", e.g. they're gossiping in front of me. I haven't noticed this as much as of recently, but I feel like when I'm out into that situation, I will be back at it, so how do I not do so? Focus on the Lord? If so, does that mean to just pray for them to stop or for Him to speak through me or both?
• I know I can't save myself & I can't work my way to Heaven, but that thought is in the back of my mind, especially when it comes to baptism. I see it as a ticket to Heaven, even though I know its not & it's a declaration of faith. Do I just keep reminding myself of the truth, like read Bible verses about salvation? What Bible verses are there about salvation?
• I definitely still judge, still more so in thought than out loud. But, my body language may say something, as well as I sometimes stare. I'm doing what I don't want people to do to me, & God reminded me through a movie today of the Bible verse "do unto others as you would have them do to you". I've realised I do it a bit, & i try to stop myself when I'm aware I'm doing it, but sometimes I think I'm doing it as a thing of "does this person stand out?" in the sense of am I supposed to pray for them? God taught me to pray for a lot of people in one of my experiences of going to a new place & on the way through Christs strength, I was praying for as many people as I could, as a thing of making the most of it as I never thought I would go down that way ever again, as I had never been before. With the judging, it's still there, but it's like God has reminded me to look from their perspective, but how do I exactly put that in place? Especially if I don't know what exactly their perspective is, as a lot of the time it's people I know nothing about, just mere appearance, & i know that God looks at the heart, not outward appearance, so how do I have that same perspective as God?
• still have pain from sciatica on my right leg & my back. I've still been declaring in the name of Jesus, & I know not to rely on that as me saying it is what makes it happen. It's like I know that, but not like I believe it. I find it hard to trust God with a lot of things, like my family's salvation & my healing. I did go to the doctor a long while ago, but all they said was to get an x-ray & was said that nothing was wrong with my back or something like that.
• family members or others are still gossiping in front of me, but I have either kept quiet or said something good about them person or even changed the subject. Sometimes when I hear my mum & brother gossiping, I purposely don't leave my room, so they don't try & get me to join in.
• still doomscrolling on Tiktok, but God has defo called me out for it, as theres a guy who says about it being idolatry, he came up once & i watched the whole video but I ignored it & carried on. Then, like half an hour later on that day, he came up again & was more specific this time & said to the girl in bed on her phone doomscrolling with her Bible on her bed (not long before doomscrolling, I put my Bible on my desk, bearing in mind that it had been on my bed like all day)

What's changed:
• I have prayed a bit more I feel like, but still a bit stuck on the whole doomscrolling on Tiktok. I feel like I've been doing more Bible study, but not as much as before the slump
• How do I take my thoughts captive? I'm not sure if I've been doing it, maybe a little
• what changed about the family gossiping is that they notice I don't like it, but yet they still do it anyway

Thank you to everyone who replies or prays for me, God bless you

 

[Articles]

We hear your heart and the honest struggles you’re laying before the Lord. It’s clear you’re wrestling with areas where the flesh still clings, complaining, judging, doubt about salvation, pain, and the pull of distractions like doomscrolling. Yet we also see the Holy Spirit at work in you, convicting, correcting, and drawing you closer. Let’s bring all of this before our Father in heaven together, seeking His strength and truth to replace every lie.

First, we want to affirm that your salvation is not earned by baptism, good works, or even your own efforts to "do better." Salvation is a gift received by grace through faith in Jesus Christ alone. Ephesians 2:8-9 says, "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast." Baptism is a beautiful outward declaration of an inward transformation, but it is not the ticket to heaven, Jesus is. When doubts creep in, we encourage you to meditate on verses like Romans 10:9: "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." John 3:16 also reminds us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life." Keep preaching these truths to your heart, not as a mere mental exercise, but as the foundation of your identity in Christ.

Now, about the complaining and judging, these are areas where the Holy Spirit is clearly convicting you, and that’s a good sign! Complaining often stems from a heart that has momentarily forgotten God’s sovereignty and goodness. Philippians 2:14-15 says, "Do all things without murmurings and disputes, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without defect in the middle of a crooked and perverse generation." When you feel the urge to complain about the heat, the cold, or even your pain, pause and thank God for His provision in that moment. Gratitude shifts our focus from what we lack to the One who supplies all our needs.

Judging others is a subtle but dangerous trap, especially when it comes to gossip. James 4:11-12 warns, "Don’t speak against one another, brothers. He who speaks against a brother and judges his brother, speaks against the law and judges the law. But if you judge the law, you are not a doer of the law, but a judge. Only one is the lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge another?" When you hear gossip, remember that God calls us to love, not condemn. Instead of judging, pray for the person being gossiped about, and even for the one gossiping. Ask God to give you His eyes to see them as He does. 1 Samuel 16:7 says, "For Yahweh sees not as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but Yahweh looks at the heart." You don’t need to know their whole story to love them as Christ does. When you catch yourself staring or judging, take those thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5) and replace them with prayer or a kind word.

We also want to address the doomscrolling on TikTok. The conviction you’re feeling is the Holy Spirit nudging you away from idolatry. Anything that consumes our time, attention, and affection more than God becomes an idol. Jesus said in Matthew 6:24, "No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other; or else he will be devoted to one and despise the other." If TikTok is pulling you away from time in the Word, prayer, or simply resting in God’s presence, it’s time to set boundaries. Consider fasting from it for a season, replacing that time with worship, Bible study, or serving others. Ask God to help you use your time in ways that honor Him.

Your struggle with trusting God, especially regarding your family’s salvation and your healing, is understandable, but we want to gently remind you that God is faithful even when we doubt. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths." Your role is not to fix your family or heal yourself; your role is to surrender these burdens to God and trust Him with the outcome. Keep declaring His promises over your pain and your family, not because your words have power, but because God’s Word does. Isaiah 55:11 says, "So is my word that goes out of my mouth: it will not return to me void, but it will accomplish that which I please, and it will prosper in the thing I sent it to do."

Now, let’s pray together:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts full of gratitude for Your mercy and grace. We lift up our brother/sister to You, asking that You would strengthen them in every area of weakness. Lord, we ask that You would root out complaining from their heart and replace it with gratitude. Help them to see every circumstance as an opportunity to trust You more. Father, we repent for the times we’ve judged others, and we ask that You would give our brother/sister Your eyes to see people as You do. Break the power of gossip in their presence, and give them the courage to speak life instead of death.

Lord, we declare that salvation is found in You alone. We pray that You would deepen their understanding of grace and remove any lies that suggest they must earn Your love. Help them to rest in the finished work of Jesus on the cross. Father, we ask for healing in their body, touch their sciatica and back, and give them the faith to trust You with their pain. We also pray for their family, that You would soften their hearts to receive the gospel. Break every chain of unbelief, and let Your light shine brightly in their home.

Finally, Lord, we ask that You would deliver them from the distractions of this world, especially the temptation to waste time on things that do not honor You. Fill them with a hunger for Your Word and a desire to spend time in Your presence. Help them to take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ. We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we are saved. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

We feel the weight of what you're carrying, not just one area of struggle but several layered together, and you've been honest about all of it. That kind of honesty before God and others is actually a mark of growth, even when it doesn't feel like it.

The way you described catching yourself judging and then wondering, does this person stand out because I'm supposed to pray for them?, that's worth pausing on. It sounds like God may be redirecting something old (a critical eye) toward something new (intercession). When you notice someone's appearance or actions, and that familiar judgment rises, what if you let that be your cue not to analyze them but to offer a brief, silent prayer? Not a long one, just something like Lord, bless them and meet whatever need they have today. Over time that practice can reshape the reflex itself, turning what used to be criticism into compassion.

On the sciatica pain: we are glad you saw a doctor before. If that was some time ago or the pain is lingering, we would gently encourage you to see one again, a different one if needed, because persistent nerve pain deserves a thorough look. This is not a lack of faith; seeking medical help is wisdom, and we can walk in wisdom while still crying out to Jesus for healing. You can hold both at the same time.

And that TikTok conviction you mentioned, the way God brought that video across your feed twice feels tender, not harsh. He's not shaming you. He's inviting you out of something that numbs and into something that nourishes. Small swaps help here: maybe set your Bible or a notebook on your phone before bed so you physically have to pick it up and decide what you're reaching for first.

As for baptism, you already know the truth; the struggle is feeling it deeply. Keep rehearsing what is true even when your emotions lag behind, that you are saved by grace, not by rituals, and that baptism is a beautiful declaration of what Christ has already done, not the thing that makes it happen.

We're praying with you.

Lord Jesus, we lift up this one who is weary of the same cycles and yet keeps showing up before You. Please heal the sciatica and back pain, bring relief and guide them to the right help. Quiet the internal judgment and replace it with a heart that instinctively prays. Break the pull of endless scrolling, and let Your Word feel sweeter than any feed. Settle their heart on the finished work of the cross so that baptism is treasured for what it truly is, not feared for what it isn't. Draw their family members to Yourself. In Your name, amen.

 

[usha rani]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

God perceives the heart, while man is arrested by the outward appearance. Your own acknowledgment of judging by mere sight shows the Spirit is not so grieved as to withdraw His gentle rebukes. That very discomfort, the inward wince when you stare or measure another, is the tender wounding of a friend; it is the faithful stroke that prevents the soul from settling upon its lees. The dress of things impresses us, but all things are naked and opened before Him. To share His perspective, you must abide near enough to hear His thoughts. How precious also are His thoughts unto us; if you be thoughtfully seeking Him, remember His thoughts can bring Him down to you. Pray for those who look strange to your eye, and in the very act of intercession the false scales of outward judgment will often fall away, replaced by a holy inventory of their immortal worth.

Honest dealing with God requires you to confess, not as a parrot repeating words, but as a man who has taken hold of the throne of grace with a tenacious grip. You speak of knowing you cannot work your way to Heaven, yet a shadow flits behind your mind that baptism is a ticket. That whisper is an insinuation that God is not ready to save a sinner as he is, casting the blame of your unbelief upon the Almighty. Let God be true and every man, and every lurking fear, a liar. If God says one thing and your aching, doubting heart says another, God is true, and your fears are falsehood. Salvation is not by ceremonies, nor by your right understanding of the ceremony; it is by grace, through faith. The very fact that you cannot rid yourself of the thought that you must contribute something is only the stubborn pride of our fallen nature, which we are to lop off, not by polishing it, but by looking wholly to the finished work of Another.

The doomscrolling of which you speak is that idolatry which catches the soul in a net of trivialities, making a god out of mere mental chaff. You have found a monitor in the man who spoke of the Bible lying beside you on the bed; that was a leaf from the tree of life, waking you. The least things of Christ, a whispered admonition, a remembered verse, a prick of conscience while staring at a screen, are for the healing of the nations of sins within us. Pluck that leaf and apply it. When the impulse to scroll seizes you, take hold of God instead; turn the impulse into a cry, however short. If your hand reaches for the device, let the other hand reach for the unseen arm of the Lord, for there is no conversation with Him in the bottomless pit of passing amusement.

And what of the pain in your frame, that sciatica which bites and burns? The Physician is at the right hand of God, and His least leaf is charged with healing virtue. You confess it is hard to trust Him for healing and for your family’s salvation; yet you have never found your God to be untrue. Give Him your trust till He proves unworthy of it. You lay the declaration of His name against the pain, but struggle to believe. Very well, then take hold of God Himself, not merely of a formula of sound. A drowning man does not analyze the chemical properties of the rope; he grasps it. Grasp Christ, who knows your constitution of dust and fire. The leaves of the tree are not only for the cure of the soul, but the body is the Lord’s. Wait upon Him; His thoughts toward you, even in this long night of aching, are more in number than the sand. Present peace is yours, even if future perfection tarries.

 

[Rrfitor]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

Heal Me Lord Jesus Spirit, Soul, And Body​

Healed Spirit Soul And Body

be-an-encourager.blogspot.com

 

[Chrysostom]

The complaints that escape your lips over heat and cold are but small sparks, yet they reveal the tinder of discontent within. Look not at these trifles, but at the common Teacher of all, who had not where to lay His head. If He endured the cross for your salvation, can you not bear a passing warmth or chill without murmuring? Let such thoughts be quenched at once, lest they grow into a fire.

You are right to be troubled by the judgment that rises in your heart. When you hear gossip, or catch yourself staring and measuring others by their outward appearance, remember that God is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. You see only the shell; He sees all. Do not judge another, but deliver yourself from the charge against you. The punishment is greater when you blame others and do the same things yourself. When you are tempted to form an opinion of a stranger, instantly turn it into a prayer for them. Say in your mind, “Lord, have mercy on this soul; I know nothing of their battle.” So the dog of your anger barks at the intruding sin, not at the person. This is how you put on the helmet of salvation: let saving thoughts that inspire good hope rest upon your mind and guard it from harm.

Concerning baptism, you know the truth, yet the old lie whispers that it is a ticket. Do not trust the water, but the unspeakable power of the Cross. Salvation is in Christ Jesus alone, with eternal glory. Baptism is a declaration, not the price. When the thought rises, nail it to the cross of Christ. Remind yourself: “He who did not spare His own Son, how will He not also with Him freely give me all things?” The whole of Scripture proclaims this, Isaiah, the Psalms, the apostles. You are not saved by a rite but by grace through faith.

Your body cries out with sciatica, and you have spoken words of healing, yet your heart trembles. Present afflictions are indeed bitter, but they last only a day. Do not think that saying the name of Jesus as a charm compels God; rather, humble yourself under His mighty hand. The physician saw nothing grave, yet the pain remains. Perhaps God permits it so that you might learn to trust not in formulas but in the Father’s will. Cry out with the psalmist, “I am poor and needy; make haste to me, O God!” and then be still. He knows your frame.

You have done well to avoid the gossip of your household. When they speak evil, let your silence be a rebuke and your change of topic a seed of peace. You are like Daniel in Babylon, dwelling among captors yet refusing their delicacies. Keep your own lips pure, and pray for them from your room. God sees your flight from that snare.

The doomscrolling on TikTok is a plague of thorns choking the word. You ignored the first warning, but God in His mercy sent a second, speaking directly to your condition: the girl in bed, Bible near but untouched, while the world scrolled before her eyes. That was no accident. Burn up those thorns now. Delete the app, or chain its use to a fixed, brief hour. How can you set your mind on things above when your eyes feast on vanity? The time given to you is for the salvation of your soul and the service of others, do not pour it out like water. As many as partake of the Body and Blood of Christ are partaking of that which is worshipped by angels; shall we then grudge a few moments to Scripture and prayer?

Take every thought captive. When a judgment or complaint flits into your mind, meet it at the door with a verse or a prayer. The battlefield is within. Let faith be your helmet, the Word your sword. You have begun to pray more and study again, God strengthen you! Do not look back at the slump, but press forward. The light you have received, even this self-knowledge, is proof that the Good Physician is at work. Endure as seeing Him who is invisible. He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion.

 

[Jonathan_M]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Silas]

Your honesty here is a gift, not just to those reading, but to yourself. Writing it all out takes courage, and it reveals a heart that genuinely wants to please God, even when the flesh pulls in another direction. You are noticing the small complaints, the quick judgments, the pull of the screen, and that awareness itself is evidence that the Spirit is not silent within you. He is refining your sight.

When you ask how to stop judging, especially with the staring and the inward thoughts about people you do not even know, you have already hit on the real solution without realizing it. You remember that God looks at the heart, not the outward appearance. To have that perspective, you do not need to know their exact situation or their backstory. You only need to know what you already know about yourself. The moment you catch yourself forming a conclusion about someone, you are holding up a knowledge of good and evil that immediately turns around and exposes your own need for mercy. The very thing you notice in them is often a shadow of something you know is lurking in your own heart. That does not mean you are guilty of their exact action, but you are made of the same dust. Thinking of their perspective begins simply here: this is a person for whom Christ died, just as He died for me. They have struggles I cannot see, just as I have inner battles no one else knows. When the thought comes, you can turn it into a whisper of prayer right then. Not a loud, formal prayer, but a quiet turning of the heart. Lord, you see them fully. Have mercy on us both. That one sentence can stop the judgment in its tracks better than just trying to grit your teeth and resist, because it reorients your mind toward God’s mercy instead of your own assessment.

That same mercy matters deeply for what you feel about baptism. That nagging thought in the back of your mind that it is a ticket is not from God. A declaration of faith is precious, but the water itself saves no one. A right relationship with God is not triggered by a ritual performed while the heart is far from Him. Salvation rests entirely on what Christ has already done, received by trusting Him. Read passages like Ephesians chapter 2, where it says it is by grace you have been saved through faith, and that this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. Or Romans chapter 10, that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. When the lying thought comes that you must add something of your own doing to secure your place, treat it like the judging thought. Do not argue with it in your own strength. Speak truth to it. Jesus paid it all. I am trusting in His finished work, not in my own goodness or my own rituals. Keep reminding yourself of that truth until it settles deeper than the doubt.

On your body, the pain in your leg and back, I hear a weariness that goes beyond the physical ache. You are declaring healing in the name of Jesus, and you know intellectually that the words themselves are not a magic spell, but you sense a gap between that knowledge and a settled belief. That gap is not unusual. Faith often lives in the tension between a deeply held conviction and the cry of a struggling heart. Scripture tells us that God does heal. It also tells us of faithful servants who were not healed in the way they hoped. Timothy had frequent ailments and was given practical advice, not a miraculous touch. Epaphroditus was sick nearly to the point of death, and it was not for a lack of prayer or a hidden sin. Healing belongs to the sovereign wisdom of God. His ways are beyond tracing out. If a doctor found nothing structurally wrong with your back, that does not mean your pain is imaginary or that you lack faith. It may mean that the path toward wholeness involves a process you do not yet understand, even a process within the body God designed. Do not let anyone place guilt on you for being sick. Keep bringing your body before the Lord, but let your primary request be for His sustaining grace and for a heart that rests in Him whether the pain leaves or remains. Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and trust Him with the physical frame.

The doomscrolling is a real snare. It is significant that the message about it came to you twice, and that you noticed your Bible had been on the bed all day before you moved it. That image is not a condemnation. It is an invitation. The glowing screen offers a flood of information and noise that cannot satisfy the soul. It often becomes a place of escape. But God knows you entirely, and in being fully known by Him you are also fully loved. Nothing on that app compares to the depth of being known like that. When you feel the urge to scroll, what you are really holding is a hunger for relief or distraction. You can pause for just a moment and ask God to redirect that hunger toward Himself. Pick up the Scriptures, not as a duty to check off, but as a living voice that speaks to your actual condition. Even a single psalm read slowly can quiet the noise in a way the endless videos never will.

The situation with your family’s gossip shows real growth. Staying in your room rather than joining in is not cowardice; it is wisdom. Speaking something good about the person or changing the subject is a quiet form of peacemaking. You cannot control their tongues, but you can refuse to lend yours to the harm. That is a real change. Do not despise it just because they still talk. God sees the small faithfulness.

When your heart feels scattered between all these battles, return to the vertical axis. Your primary task is not to perfectly balance every behavior but to press close to God Himself. He is not taking a day off from working in your life. He knows the process is slow and that you stumble backward at times. Yet He still claims you as His own. Let that patience settle your spirit, and keep moving forward, not because you have mastered these things, but because He holds you fast.