We hear the depth of your pain, frustration, and anger, and we want you to know that your feelings are valid, God can handle your raw honesty. The weight of eviction, financial strain, infertility, immigration battles, and the silence of those you expected to stand by you is overwhelming. It’s no wonder you’re crying out, "Where is God?" In moments like these, it’s easy to feel abandoned, even by Him. But Scripture reminds us that God is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18) and that He collects every one of our tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). Your anger doesn’t push Him away; it’s often the first step toward a deeper, more honest relationship with Him.
You’ve tried to do things "His way," and it feels like it’s never enough. We want to gently remind you that God’s ways are not a transaction, "do this, and I’ll do that." His love isn’t earned; it’s a gift (Ephesians 2:8-9). The struggles you’re facing aren’t proof that He’s withholding His goodness; they’re evidence of a fallen world where sin, injustice, and brokenness still reign. But Jesus entered into that brokenness to redeem it. He didn’t promise an easy life, but He did promise to be with us in the storm (Matthew 28:20). The fact that you’re still reaching for Him, even in anger, shows that His Spirit is at work in you.
We must address a few things with love and truth. First, your reference to your "significant other" is concerning. If this relationship is not a marriage, we urge you to consider whether it aligns with God’s design for intimacy and commitment. Scripture is clear that sexual intimacy is reserved for marriage between one man and one woman (Hebrews 13:4, 1 Corinthians 6:18-20). If this is a struggle for you, we encourage you to seek accountability and prayer as you pursue holiness. God’s boundaries are for our protection, not to restrict us.
Second, your question about where Jesus is in the midst of suffering is one that believers have wrestled with for centuries. The answer isn’t simple, but we know this: Jesus wept at the tomb of Lazarus (John 11:35). He doesn’t stand at a distance from our pain; He enters into it. The fact that you’re even asking these questions shows that your heart is still seeking Him, and that is a sign of His presence. The Iranian believers you mentioned are seeing dreams because God is pursuing them in the darkness, just as He is pursuing you. His silence doesn’t mean His absence.
As for your church, it’s painful when those who should be family fail us. But we want to gently challenge you: have you shared your struggles with them beyond surface-level updates? Sometimes, people don’t reach out because they assume you’re doing well or because they don’t know how to help. That doesn’t excuse their silence, but it’s worth considering whether there’s an opportunity to rebuild those connections. Isolation feeds despair, but community, even imperfect community, can be a lifeline. If you’ve been attending for years, you are part of that family, and they should know your needs.
Now, let’s pray together:
Father God, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our sister who is hurting deeply. Lord, she is angry, exhausted, and feels forgotten, but we know You see her. You know every detail of her struggle, the eviction, the infertility, the immigration battle, the silence of her church. Jesus, You are the God who collects tears and hears cries. Meet her in this moment. Remind her that You are not distant or indifferent; You are Immanuel, God with us. Forgive us, Lord, for the times we’ve made faith about performance rather than Your grace. Help her to rest in Your love, not in what she can do for You. We pray for her significant other’s asylum case, grant wisdom to the judge and favor in the outcome. Protect them both from despair and from the enemy’s lies that You have abandoned them. Lord, we ask for healing in her body and in her heart. If there are areas where she has strayed from Your design, give her the strength to walk in repentance and restoration. Surround her with Your people who will love her well. And if her church has failed her, raise up others who will speak life into her. We declare that You are working even when we can’t see it. In Jesus’ mighty name, we pray. Amen.
We also want to encourage you with this truth: God is not punishing you. The hardships you’re facing are not a reflection of His displeasure. Jesus already took the punishment for sin on the cross (Isaiah 53:5). Your struggles are not a sign that He’s withholding His love; they’re an invitation to lean harder into Him. The enemy wants you to believe that God has forgotten you, but Scripture says the opposite: "Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you!" (Isaiah 49:15).
If you’re open to it, we’d love to hear more about your journey with Christ. Have you placed your faith in Him as your Savior? If not, we’d gently share that salvation comes only through Jesus (John 14:6, Acts 4:12). He is the way, the truth, and the life, and no one comes to the Father except through Him. If you have already trusted in Him, we encourage you to cling to that truth even when it feels like He’s silent. His delays are not denials.
Lastly, we want to leave you with this: "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up" (Galatians 6:10). Your story isn’t over. God is still writing it, and He is faithful. Keep pressing into Him, even in your anger. He can handle it.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
