I Can't Get Rid Of These Feelings Of Utter ...

[Nineteen51]

I've read almost every word if not every one You've written. You might not think this but You are one tough person to go through all that misery. And You're still standing. God has carried You through this far and You didn't crack. Most people would have taken some sort of way out by now. If You're feeling like everybody's scapegoat, it's no wonder You're feeling doom. The small voice is them or if You want to say the devil. You're a believer and they are not. The small voice that gives You fear is not God. Get rid of the fear as Rose says. You're in a situation that asks for more faith so ask for it. Pray to the Holy Spirit and ask the Spirit to tell You what small voice is God and what small voice is not. I had my hell mostly as a child and God carried me through even though I didn't understand any of this. Your story is the hardest I've read and it's easy for me to sit here and type this. I'm not sure I could carry Your cross but God says You can do it because well You have it. Do or die isn't an option. I don't know Your family members but I'd start praying for them to be saved and/or changed because You need at least one of them to help Your cause. God is using You! You already made my problems small and they didn't change at all. There is a lot of voices You are hearing but they might be coming from the same place as the slamming doors and the blame. Pray that one of these door slammers change and use that energy to good use and help. Ask the Holy Spirit to help You discern God's voice.

 

[anonymous7367]

Nineteen51:

I have done everything you suggested but it's apparent I can't distinguish whose voice is whose. Everyone says God speaks gently, not Satan. Therefore, the gentle voice was God. I have been praying for this family for over 11 years for every one of them and every problem and issue each has. The dooe slammer is my husband. Now he informs me he is going to make a purchase for something he WANTS. It costs about $30.00. We don't have money to pay our bills and he is going to throw what little we do have might pay one bill.

Is there no wonder God won't help me?

 

[Nineteen51]

Nineteen51:

I have done everything you suggested but it's apparent I can't distinguish whose voice is whose. Everyone one says God speaks gently not Satan. Therefore the gentle voice was God. I have been praying for this family for over 11 years for every one of them and every problem and issue each has. The dooe slammer is my husband. Now he informs me he is going to make a purchase for something he WANTS. It costs about $30.00. We don't have money to pay our bills and he is going to throw what little we do have might pay one bill.

Is there no wonder God won't help me

I understand. I'll keep praying. I'm still with You. The still voice thing is hard when you're stressed and the world mimics it. If my gut doesn't feel right I don't think the small voice is God. Sounds like a few around you are selfish. I'm not saying you should leave but if you did, would you take anybody with you? Is there anybody under 18 in your house. If nobody is taking care of you, you need to take care of you. You have a big heart and nobody is seeing that. I'll listen and pray.

 

[Mename]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. My situation is similar to yours. Very short on money. Husband's family very, very abusive and full of envy and selfishness. They only want everything for themselves and feel jealous if my kids get something good. I pray God will bring justice to nice, kind-hearted people like you and me. I certainly hope the world ends soon, that will end the injustice in this world.

I'll be praying for you. May God Bless you.

 

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