Crtaroofield
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Christians, I am asking you once again... once again I am asking you with pain and desperation to pray for me. Today, in the courtroom, the final decision will be made. I will not be present; only my recording from when I was at the court to give my statement about what happened to me will be played. Today, everything depends on God and what God wants. I admit that I am weak... I admit that I do not have the strength to pray alone... I admit that I do not have the strength to pray, my thoughts are still there, even though I have the child protection services, an association for women who have been raped and assaulted, and my family behind me. Still, my only hope for my peace is God. Regardless of whether he will be released from custody and be free or whether he will remain in prison, my only desire is to have peace, to be protected, to have God beside me. My only desire is for God to be present in my life, even if I may not have the strength to be the person He wants me to be. I wish that He would give me the strength to pray, give me the strength to follow Him day by day. My heart is broken, full of pain. Today is a very important day for me. Today, my peace depends on one single decision. Please pray for my peace, for my protection and the protection of my children. Pray for me to be guided onto the Lord's path, to receive the strength to pray, to receive the strength to follow Him every day. I am a strong and determined mother who does not show her children or strangers how much of a battle she is fighting. I am a mother who, despite all the problems, laughs, smiles and fights every single day. But lately, something has been missing from me: the strength to pray, the strength to ask God and to thank Him. I pray... but I cannot concentrate 100% on prayer. I pray, but my thoughts constantly wander somewhere else... I am asking you desperately to pray for me. I am begging you, please pray for me... I know that I am a child of God. I know that God has always been and will always be in my life. I know that God is beside me, but my absence from prayer makes me feel that I am disappointing Him. Yet I cannot concentrate on my prayers. I am writing this with tears in my eyes, with pain and desperation. Please pray for me. Please, do not overlook me. I was a victim of rape, a victim of domestic violence, a victim of an attempted murder. I was a victim... I fortunately escaped with my life, but the traumas that remain are taking their toll. Today is the final day of this entire process. Today I need God more than ever. Today I need you, believers, to pray for me. Please, do not overlook me. I beg you with all my heart. I, a mother of two little children, am desperately asking for your help through your prayers. Thank you in advance. May God bless you and be with you at every step. Lord, my God, today I place all my problems in Your hands, and I trust that You will make the right decision. I trust in You... and forgive me. I wish you a blessed day.

