Chrysostom
Beloved of All
Your honesty in sharing all of this is heard and taken seriously, and you are not forgotten by God even when you feel so low and dead inside. The Lord sees your heart cries, your desire to be right with Jesus, to be washed in His blood, to be filled with the Holy Spirit and to know His presence and love in a real way.
Scripture is clear that salvation and cleansing come through Jesus Christ alone, and that when we confess our sin He is faithful to forgive and cleanse us. If you have turned to Him in repentance and faith, you are washed in His blood, not because of your feelings but because of what He has done on the cross. When feelings tell you that God has passed you by or does not care, that is not the truth of His character. He is near to the brokenhearted and He hears every prayer, including your longing for children and for a future. He has not abandoned you, and His timing and His ways are loving even when they are hard to understand.
You mentioned pornography and things online that have you in a spiral and leave you depressed about your sin. God does not bless or affirm sexual sin, but He does offer real deliverance from it. The greater deliverance God wants to give is not only from outward troubles but from the power of sin itself, so that you can resist and walk in freedom. This freedom comes as you walk honestly with Him, make no provision for the flesh to fulfill its lusts, and seek health for body and soul rather than indulgence. Practically this means bringing this struggle into the light with a trusted mature Christian or pastor for accountability, putting clear boundaries and filters on your devices, and daily feeding on Scripture and prayer instead of what tempts you. The enemy never gives up trying to accuse and trap us, but you must not give up hope for your own salvation. God is able to deliver you from every evil work and to keep you from falling.
You also asked for prayer against demonic oppression and for angels to attack the demons in your life. The Bible teaches that Jesus has already defeated the powers of darkness through His death and resurrection, and that as you submit to God and resist the devil he will flee. You do not need to be afraid. Ask God to fill you with His Holy Spirit, to guard your mind, and to make your home and your thought life a place where Christ reigns. Fill your mind with what is true and holy, and pray in the name of Jesus for protection and peace.
For your other burdens, we are praying with you. For your health and that you can eat properly again after being unwell, ask God for strength and take practical steps to care for your body as His temple, eating regularly, resting, and seeking medical help if needed. For work, for provision to pay your bills, and for the difficult situation with your brother bossing you at work, ask God to open the right doors, to give you wisdom and patience in relationships, and to provide for your needs as your Father who knows what you need. For the hurt you experienced with security in Israel that has left you down, ask God to heal that wound, to comfort you where you felt mistreated, and to help you forgive and find peace.
God often allows a season of trial to train us in endurance, not to destroy us. When we learn to bear it patiently and trust Him without demanding immediate relief, He brings deliverance in His perfect way and time. You are pressed on every side but not crushed, perplexed but not driven to despair, because Christ lives.
Let us pray for you now. Father in heaven, we lift this dear one to You in the name of Jesus Christ, Your Son. Wash them fully in the blood of Jesus, forgive their sin, and make them clean. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit and with the assurance of Your love and presence. Break the power of pornography and all online temptation, and set them free to live in purity as You designed, with sex and intimacy kept within the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman. Heal their body, help them to eat and sleep and regain strength, and lift the heaviness of depression. Provide work and meet every financial need, give peace in workplace relationships, and heal the hurt from how they were treated. Cast out all fear and demonic oppression by the authority of Christ, surround them with Your protection, and lead them out of this spiral into life and hope. Help them to keep trusting You for the future, including the desire for children, and to know that You hear and care. Amen.
Keep seeking the Lord daily in prayer and in His Word, stay connected to a faithful local church, and do not walk through this alone. God will deliver you and will not let you be put to shame for trusting Him.
Scripture is clear that salvation and cleansing come through Jesus Christ alone, and that when we confess our sin He is faithful to forgive and cleanse us. If you have turned to Him in repentance and faith, you are washed in His blood, not because of your feelings but because of what He has done on the cross. When feelings tell you that God has passed you by or does not care, that is not the truth of His character. He is near to the brokenhearted and He hears every prayer, including your longing for children and for a future. He has not abandoned you, and His timing and His ways are loving even when they are hard to understand.
You mentioned pornography and things online that have you in a spiral and leave you depressed about your sin. God does not bless or affirm sexual sin, but He does offer real deliverance from it. The greater deliverance God wants to give is not only from outward troubles but from the power of sin itself, so that you can resist and walk in freedom. This freedom comes as you walk honestly with Him, make no provision for the flesh to fulfill its lusts, and seek health for body and soul rather than indulgence. Practically this means bringing this struggle into the light with a trusted mature Christian or pastor for accountability, putting clear boundaries and filters on your devices, and daily feeding on Scripture and prayer instead of what tempts you. The enemy never gives up trying to accuse and trap us, but you must not give up hope for your own salvation. God is able to deliver you from every evil work and to keep you from falling.
You also asked for prayer against demonic oppression and for angels to attack the demons in your life. The Bible teaches that Jesus has already defeated the powers of darkness through His death and resurrection, and that as you submit to God and resist the devil he will flee. You do not need to be afraid. Ask God to fill you with His Holy Spirit, to guard your mind, and to make your home and your thought life a place where Christ reigns. Fill your mind with what is true and holy, and pray in the name of Jesus for protection and peace.
For your other burdens, we are praying with you. For your health and that you can eat properly again after being unwell, ask God for strength and take practical steps to care for your body as His temple, eating regularly, resting, and seeking medical help if needed. For work, for provision to pay your bills, and for the difficult situation with your brother bossing you at work, ask God to open the right doors, to give you wisdom and patience in relationships, and to provide for your needs as your Father who knows what you need. For the hurt you experienced with security in Israel that has left you down, ask God to heal that wound, to comfort you where you felt mistreated, and to help you forgive and find peace.
God often allows a season of trial to train us in endurance, not to destroy us. When we learn to bear it patiently and trust Him without demanding immediate relief, He brings deliverance in His perfect way and time. You are pressed on every side but not crushed, perplexed but not driven to despair, because Christ lives.
Let us pray for you now. Father in heaven, we lift this dear one to You in the name of Jesus Christ, Your Son. Wash them fully in the blood of Jesus, forgive their sin, and make them clean. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit and with the assurance of Your love and presence. Break the power of pornography and all online temptation, and set them free to live in purity as You designed, with sex and intimacy kept within the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman. Heal their body, help them to eat and sleep and regain strength, and lift the heaviness of depression. Provide work and meet every financial need, give peace in workplace relationships, and heal the hurt from how they were treated. Cast out all fear and demonic oppression by the authority of Christ, surround them with Your protection, and lead them out of this spiral into life and hope. Help them to keep trusting You for the future, including the desire for children, and to know that You hear and care. Amen.
Keep seeking the Lord daily in prayer and in His Word, stay connected to a faithful local church, and do not walk through this alone. God will deliver you and will not let you be put to shame for trusting Him.
