Namelesservant
Humble Servant of All
I face a huge stress from work and stress is causing me to have memory blackouts, minor ones at the moment like forgetting names, what I was doing, and slack in my work quality like forgetting or neglecting cleaning up due to forgetfulness. Also, this stress is causing me to take feedback in a way that is harmful. By this, I mean that I take the well-deserved and rightful feedback as a personal attack and a sign that I am not liked. This of course is not true, but because of emotional trauma, I feel this way.
The children I work with are challenging, and I feel pretty alone with them at times. I do have the support of my colleagues. But I still feel rather alone with this because there is no working pair in my group currently, so everything in the group falls on me and is my responsibility, or at least so I feel.
Father, please give me strength, work ethic, and morality to do the work after your own heart and in servanthood towards the children I take care of. Give me wisdom to deal with challenges in a way that benefits the growth of those children. And in conflict, help me to be more wise and gentle than before. Forgive me for I have sinned against you in some areas of my life, and this leads me to feeling shame and guilt. Release me from my sinful tendencies, and if need be, crush me so you can make me more like Christ. Without Christ, all I do in life is vain, all my struggle against sin is vain too. Only in Christ and knowing you through him, Father, everything derives meaning.
Writing and opening things in writing is maybe the best reflection too I have in my disposition. Writing feels a natural way to express myself. And also, this is a good way to pray and express what I think to you, Father. Please help me. In the name of Jesus, your son, and through the power of his shed blood, I pray, amen.
The children I work with are challenging, and I feel pretty alone with them at times. I do have the support of my colleagues. But I still feel rather alone with this because there is no working pair in my group currently, so everything in the group falls on me and is my responsibility, or at least so I feel.
Father, please give me strength, work ethic, and morality to do the work after your own heart and in servanthood towards the children I take care of. Give me wisdom to deal with challenges in a way that benefits the growth of those children. And in conflict, help me to be more wise and gentle than before. Forgive me for I have sinned against you in some areas of my life, and this leads me to feeling shame and guilt. Release me from my sinful tendencies, and if need be, crush me so you can make me more like Christ. Without Christ, all I do in life is vain, all my struggle against sin is vain too. Only in Christ and knowing you through him, Father, everything derives meaning.
Writing and opening things in writing is maybe the best reflection too I have in my disposition. Writing feels a natural way to express myself. And also, this is a good way to pray and express what I think to you, Father. Please help me. In the name of Jesus, your son, and through the power of his shed blood, I pray, amen.
