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Heidi
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Heavenly father, thank you, we made it through the divorce papers. We were able to get through all of it. Lord, you know i am angry, hurt, feel unloved by brian. he still fills very strongly about this divorce. But Lord, he cant tell me that he dont love me anymore. He says hes not goin to lie to me. How can he want a divorce, and still love me? Lord, this is in your hands. Only you know what is best for me. I am goin on that promise. I'm having to sell a home i'm uside down on, have to move in with my parents. Contiue raising my children without Brian. Yet I know this is in your hands. You must know what lies ahead. Father, i know this home is just concrete, walls and paint. But its our home. This is all the children know. Yet, you know what is best for me. Father, i feel like I'm heading to a firing squad. I hate my lawyer, i really hate Bris lawyer. To me these guys are just hungry wolves. I dont mean to bare all my dirty laundry here Lord. I need help and understanding. Why must I go through this trial? Lord, how am i suppose to except brian back, after all hes taken away? I'm just so confused, i trust in you lord. i just want my sufferings to be over. Lord, you know what i gave to this marriage. So why do i have to suffer, because Brian didnt add to this marriage. I know i should have put you first always. I know your not punishing me. Lord, i ask, what are you tryin to teach me? At least tonight, i got my comfirmation from Brian, hes no where close to wanting to work it out. So father its in your hands, do with brian what you must. I turned the other cheek, i have been kind. I will continue to be. I will be faithful to you, because you have my best intrest at heart. I dont like what has to be done. But i soley trust in you. I pray this storm goes fast. In Jesus Name., amen