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[Justbecause5]

There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

I’ve told my story here many times.

In the summer of ###, my job in Alaska was complete. I had secured a new job for my family in Texas, my home state.

My sons and I left for Texas. Previously, without even consulting me, my wife had purchased a plane ticket for her and my daughter to go over overseas to visit family. They were leaving in ###.

When the boys and I left, my wife hired an attorney and went to court, and convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. Since, I was not there to defend myself, the judge ruled in her favor. He gave her permission to go get the boys.

The boys and I had struggled tremendously waiting for our first paycheck. On the day that I was paid my regular salary plus a moving allowance, my wife appeared out of nowhere and took the boys. It was one of the saddest days of my life. I have not seen them since.

I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. I pleaded with God for reconciliation. I bet I have prayed for my wife and family over 1 million times since I was in Alaska before. I have played with God to restore my marriage and family.

Finally, in the summer of ###, the plans of God came to fruition and an open door open for me to go back to Alaska. It’s incredible to contemplate and when I do, it gives me great strength. It’s obvious that God wanted me back in Alaska.

The temporary company I’ve been working for gave me a job in California for the fourth time, this time for a ### day job. The ### day job turned into a ### day job. It was during the second ### days that I received a job offer to teach school and coach basketball in Alaska. I accepted. The company had to fly me back home in my new home with Alaska. They paid ### for a first class ticket from California to Alaska.

However, God expected me to walk by faith and not by sight. I had the job. However, I was unsuccessful in finding a place to live or a vehicle to drive. I talked to the shelter, but I could never get a straight answer. I tried to get a vehicle, but it was Catch-22, they demanded that I’ll be on the job ### months and that I live in the area for ### months.

Even so, I board the plane on ###. I was strong at first like David against Goliath. However, as the plane got closer and closer to Alaska got very weak. The plane landed at ### and I literally had no place to go. A lady that I met on the plane and eventually sat next to me in first class, she and her husband took me to the shelter.

Before my plane landed, when I was the strongest, I was convinced that before the plane landed, my wife would contact me and instantly I would have a place to live in a car to drive. I was wrong.

The next ### months would be incredibly difficult. I had complete instability. I lived at the shelter. I lived temporarily in a nice apartment and a ### house. I lived in the back of my van for ### nights. I lived in a primitive basement with a shower, but no toilet and no kitchen. I lived in my car for ### days. The job that I had going to Alaska for ended on ### due to no fault on my own. Struggle after struggle.

On ###, I went to a place called ### to worship God. It was a beautiful sunset but very cold. It was -35° approximately and I got locked out of my van. I ran down to the bottom of the hill after trying to break the window, and two beautiful women were sitting in an old truck. They ended up saving my life.

I have wondered if those two women were put there by God or if they were angels, the Bible says the angel of the Lord and camps around those who fear him.

Again, the last ### months have been very difficult on me. In the midst of so much pain and so much despair with the instability, job laws, serious car issues, etc. etc. etc. I felt that my faith in God had grown and was stronger than it’s ever been. I also felt that my love for God was stronger than it had ever been. I don’t say that lightly. I really mean that. How is that possible? How is it possible that my love for God and faith in God could grow stronger through so much trial. I think I know.

When I speak of God, I also speak of Christ. I hate when I write prayer request and there is suspicion about whether or not I walk with Christ or not. Yes, I have been a Christian since ###. I was a minister of the gospel of Christ for nearly ### years. It’s the reason I moved to Alaska was to work with a small church of ### souls.

I feel like I could write a book about the last ### months. So much pain. So much anguish. So much depression and sadness. Many times, I have bad God to take my life. I have asked God to send Elijah’s chariot to come get me many times. I have never been suicidal, but I have asked God and begged God to take my life. I wanted to be with him.

My wife has done some terrible things to me. Even so, I still love her. I stand prepared to forgive her for what she’s done. I stand prepared to treat her like nothing ever happened and go forward in life. I miss my children deeply.

I’ll never forget the pain when she took the boys. I cried uncontrollably all the way back to my dad‘s house nearly ### miles almost died several times as my car swerved into oncoming traffic.

It’s painful when you know that your children are probably less than ### minutes from you, but you can’t go see them. You can’t go hug their neck. You can’t go take them to the park or go for a hike. You can’t tell them stories. You can’t let them know you love them. You can’t take them to their favorite restaurant. Our favorite place to be. I’m sad.

It’s interesting to see the hand of God… Not only to God save me on the mountain that day, but he also saved me by getting me involved in gig work. So I’ve been doing gig work ever since I came back to Alaska. I am no expert, but I’ve got to be close to it. I have learned how to do it and be successful and turn it into a full-time salary.

I’m so thankful to God for helping me. Keep my head above water through that type of income source. I cannot tell you how grateful I am.

I love the rain. Whenever it rains, I instantly get stronger. I always quote Acts 14:17. It’s amazing how many times in my life I have been going through a tough time and then all of a sudden a big drop of rain hits my windshield. My mind is instantly focused on God and what he has done for me.

Second to the rain is moose. I love to see moose in Alaska. I have probably seen nearly ###. They are not everywhere and want to go months without seeing one. However, I have prayed many times that God would let me see a moose that day or the next and I would. It’s almost like God had orchestrated a moose to walk down the street that I was turning on. I have even seen moose in the middle of the road that happened to turn on, roads that I’ve never been on before led there by gig work.

I need my family back. It has been nearly ### years since my wife last spoke to me on good terms. I’ll never forget the day that she told me that she did not love me. It hurt my heart deeply because I had done so much for her.

How can I still love her? She’s done so many terrible things to me, but I still have that love for her. Why? I’m convinced that love is a decision. A man decides to love an old car and he fixes it up and restores it to new he treats it like a baby a couple loves an old house that was previously occupied by grandparents. They buy it. They fix it up. They love it with all their hearts and before you know it it looks like new.

I have pleaded with God for a new wife. I definitely want my wife to be restored to me, but if not, I’ve asked God for a wife. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of being deeply depressed. I’m tired of being lonely. I’m tired of The Temptations.

A few weeks ago, I met a lady that is a manager at McDonald’s.. I felt like a little boy as I tried to figure out ways to let her know that I was interested in her. We ended up talking through text and we’ve talked almost every day since then. However, the last few days she’s not been the same. I don’t know if God is taking her out of my life. I’m OK with that, if it’s his will.

I know that eventually, I will have to make steps in a new direction. I was so convinced that God was going to restore my marriage that I boarded that plane on ###. I did so walking my faith and not by sight. I had no place to live in no car to drive. I was confident that God was going to make provision that I know, I would walk in the valley of the shadow of death for the next ### months.

I really believe that pain & anguish has a season. That eventually it will end. I hope so. I’m so tired of dealing with sadness. I mean, deep sadness.

When someone steals your children using the court system, it’s like they’re dead. I have lost ### children. It’s like they’re dead. They’re not dead as far as I know but it’s like they’re dead.

Again, I don’t want anybody else. But I can’t make my wife repent and turn to her husband. I pray that if it’s not God‘s will for me to meet someone else then so be it. God knows my heart. God knows that I’m lonely. God knows that I have Temptations. God knows that… God knows.

Right now, I need prayers…

Just a few moments ago, I clicked on messenger and there was a suggestion and it was my daughter. She’s now ### and has graduated high school. It made me sad because of all the sacrifices I made to bring her to this country. It made me sad because I was not invited to go see her graduate when I played such a pivotal part in her life.

I’m just sad

Please pray that God will help me. I need my wife and family back. If not, I ask God for a wife that will truly truly love me. I need a good solid job. I enjoy doing gig work and it’s a great form of making an income, but it also has a few negatives that are found in having a regular job.

I need help. I need help quickly.

 

[Articles]

We hear your heartache, brother, and we stand with you in fervent prayer before the throne of grace. The pain of separation from your children and the betrayal you’ve endured cuts deep, like a sword through the soul. Yet even in this valley, we see the hand of God moving in your life, sustaining you through storms that would have broken a lesser man. You have walked by faith, not by sight, and though the road has been dark, your testimony shines with the truth that God does not abandon His children.

First, we must address the foundation of your faith. You speak of God and Christ, but we must be clear: it is only through the name of Jesus, His shed blood, His resurrection, and His lordship, that we have access to the Father. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). If you have not already, we urge you to confess Jesus as Lord, repent of any sin, and surrender fully to His will. This is not a mere formality; it is the bedrock of our relationship with God. Without Christ, our prayers are like offerings without a mediator. But with Him, we have an Advocate who intercedes for us (1 John 2:1).

Now, to your marriage. The Bible is clear: marriage is a covenant before God, a sacred bond between one man and one woman, meant to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33). Your wife’s actions, deception, manipulation of the courts, and the tearing apart of your family, are grievous sins. Yet we see your heart: you love her still, and you stand ready to forgive. This is the love of Christ in you, a love that "bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things" (1 Corinthians 13:7). But forgiveness does not mean enabling sin. If she will not repent, you must entrust her to God’s justice while continuing to pray for her restoration.

The loss of your children is a wound no parent should bear. You feel as though they are dead to you, and in a way, the grief is akin to death. But we serve a God who raises the dead! Jesus wept at Lazarus’ tomb, yet He called him forth (John 11:35-44). We pray that He will call your children back to you, not just physically, but in their hearts. Until then, we declare that your love for them is not in vain. The seeds you planted in their lives will bear fruit, even if you do not see it now.

You ask for a wife if reconciliation is not God’s will. We affirm your desire for a godly spouse, but we must caution you: do not rush into a relationship out of loneliness. The woman you mentioned, though kind, may not be the one God has for you. Seek first His kingdom (Matthew 6:33), and He will provide. A wife is a gift from the Lord (Proverbs 18:22), but she must be a believer who shares your faith and values. Do not settle for less, no matter how deep the loneliness.

Your struggles with instability, depression, and temptation are real, but they are not the end of your story. The rain you love is a reminder of God’s faithfulness (Acts 14:17), and the moose you see are signs of His provision in the wilderness. Even in the darkest nights, He is working. We rebuke the spirit of despair that whispers, "God has forgotten you." He has not. The same God who parted the Red Sea for Israel is making a way for you (Isaiah 43:19).

Now, we pray:

Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name. We lift up our brother to You, a man who has walked through fire yet still clings to You. Lord, You see his pain, every tear, every sleepless night, every ache for his children. You collect those tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8), and we ask that You turn them into testimonies of Your faithfulness.

Father, we pray for his marriage. If it is Your will, restore it. Soften his wife’s heart, convict her of sin, and draw her back to You and to her husband. Let her see the love he has for her, a love that mirrors Christ’s love for the Church. But if restoration is not Your plan, give him the strength to release her to You. Let him not be bound by bitterness, but free in forgiveness.

For his children, Lord, we ask for their protection and salvation. Let them know their father’s love, even from afar. Break any lies they’ve been told about him, and let them see the truth. Reunite this family under Your lordship, whether in this life or the next.

Father, provide for his needs, a stable job, a home, a vehicle. You are Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides (Genesis 22:14). Open doors no man can shut (Revelation 3:8), and let him walk in the fullness of Your blessing.

If it is Your will, bring a godly wife into his life, a woman after Your own heart, who will love him as Christ loves the Church. But guard his heart from impatience and temptation. Let him not be unequally yoked (2 Corinthians 6:14), but let him wait on Your perfect timing.

Lord, we rebuke the spirit of depression and despair. Fill him with Your joy, which is his strength (Nehemiah 8:10). Let him rise above his circumstances, not because they are easy, but because You are with him. Remind him that the rain and the moose are signs of Your presence, and that You are working all things together for his good (Romans 8:28).

We declare that his story is not over. The same God who brought him back to Alaska will complete the work He began in him (Philippians 1:6). Let him walk in victory, not as a victim, but as a conqueror in Christ (Romans 8:37).

We ask all these things in the precious name of Jesus, the name that heals, delivers, and saves. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

We read your update, and the pain comes through clearly, especially that fresh moment of seeing your daughter’s face in Messenger, the weight of missing her graduation, and the ache of being so close yet unable to reach your sons. That kind of loss, when family is just out of reach, really does feel like a daily death. We’re so sorry you’re walking through this again.

What stands out to us is that even in the hardest stretches, sleeping in your van, no toilet or kitchen, jobs falling through, you kept seeing small, unmistakable signs: a moose stepping out at exactly the moment you prayed, the rain hitting your windshield like a tap on the shoulder. You’ve learned to trace God’s hand in those things. That’s not a shallow faith; the love for God you describe sounds forged in the valley, not on the mountaintop. We don’t minimize how lonely and worn down you are right now, but we do want to stand with you in remembering He really has not left you.

Because the sadness has lingered so long and you’ve even asked God to take your life, we want to gently encourage you to talk with a doctor or a wise Christian counselor. Long-term depression can have physical and emotional roots, and there is no shame in getting that kind of help, alongside prayer, not in place of it. God often uses caring professionals to lift some of the weight off our chest.

You also mentioned worship on the mountain at 35 below. That was a holy moment, but we wonder if there’s a local congregation where you could gather regularly with God’s people. When we isolate, the loneliness deepens. Being in the physical company of others who can pray for you, share a meal, and remind you that faith is a “we” and not just a “me” can be a powerful steadying force, especially for a man who has already given years of his life to ministry.

We are praying with you now:

Father, in Jesus’ name, hold this man close. He has carried so much grief for so long. Comfort him when the missing feels unbearable. We ask for your mercy on his marriage, soften hearts, tear down walls, and bring true reconciliation if that is your will. Please make a way for him to see his children again, and let them know how deeply they are loved. Grant him a stable, life-giving job, and surround him with a few solid friends who will not let him face this alone. Guard his mind and body from despair, and give him hope that this dark season will not last forever. Amen.

 

[Zedekiah]

real story though. May Lord Yeshua ans Father God be a pillar of stregnth for you only keep praying and worshipping the Lord as much as possible.

Here is my favorite audio bible with voice acting and sound effects if you want to down load to your phone its free.

Faithcomesbyhearing.com has an awesome audio Bible. Just look for the KJV version with music and sound effects

soemtimes there no way to get around pain and sadness and hardship but to try to cope but prayer and worship gives hope and peace and safety and protection from those who believe.

Thanks for sharing you story.

 

[Spurgeon]

The heart knows its own bitterness, and a stranger does not share its joy. You have tasted the wormwood and the gall, and your soul is bowed down within you. Yet this is not the end, for the Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Your long trial has cast you into the fellowship of Christ's loneliness. Remember how the Savior was left alone in the hour of His greatest anguish, His disciples scattered, and even the Father's felt presence withdrawn. He stood solitary against the raging hounds of hell. If the sinless One endured such isolation, shall the servant be above his Master? Your pavement of sorrow is a path He has trodden before you, and in your desolation, you are not truly alone, for He is with you always.

I hear in your words the cry of Job upon the ash heap. He too lost all, his children taken, his wife a bitterness, his friends miserable comforters. Yet it is written, "In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly." Your faith, though tossed in the tempest, has held fast to the Rock. You speak of loving God more fervently through the furnace, and that is no small miracle. The Lord often sends the sharpest trials to wean us from the world and bind us closer to Himself. Job's captivity was turned when he prayed for his offending friends. Have you steadfastly prayed for her who has done you such wrong? Not merely for her return, but for her true welfare, for the softening of her heart, for the salvation of her soul if she is astray? Intercessory prayer is the sweet omen of restoration. When you plead for those who have wounded you, you stand where the Mediator stands, and blessing cannot be far behind.

Beware, though, of dictating to God the manner of His deliverance. You cry out for your family to be restored, and this is a right and holy longing. Yet you also ask, as a second thing, for a new wife. Herein tread with great caution. The covenant of marriage is a lifelong bond, sealed by the Almighty. Unless the Lord has plainly sundered that tie by death or by the breach of marital infidelity, you are still bound to her. The loneliness you feel is a heavy cross, but it is a lighter one than the guilt of stepping outside the divine ordinance. The pain of your aloneness is a furnace, but beware lest you seek to escape its heat by a door the Lord has not opened. Wait upon Him. The same God who sent the ravens to Elijah can send comfort in due season, but it must be in His own appointed way, not ours. The desire for a companion is not sinful, but it must be laid upon the altar with this prayer: "Nevertheless, not my will, but Thine, be done."

Your path has been darkened by the mystery of Providence. Why should such afflictions fall upon you? I cannot answer the deep counsels of God, but this I know: the trial of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, will be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ. You have been brought into the very spot where faith must fight for its very existence. This is the school where the brightest saints are trained. The Lord sees not as man sees; He often permits the hedge to be stripped away not to destroy us, but to reveal the genuineness of the root. Hold fast then to the ultimatum of faith: "Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him." Even if the knife smites every earthly comfort, let not your heart let go its hold upon His righteousness.

I read of the moose and the rain, and I smile. Are not these tokens of a tender Father's care? He who sends the mighty beast across your path and the drop of rain upon your windshield is not far off. He is whispering to your spirit, "I am still here. I have not forsaken you." These small mercies are but the fringe of His ways; what then will be the full revelation of His goodness?

Do not dwell so long upon the sorrow that you forget to search your own heart. Is there any sin unconfessed, any root of bitterness springing up? The restoration of Peter came through the crowing of the cock and the look of Jesus. That look broke his heart, but it also healed it. Seek that look from the Lord. Let it search you, let it break you afresh, and let it restore you. Then, when you are restored, strengthen your brethren. Already you have learned much of patience; when the Lord turns your captivity, you will speak a word in season to him that is weary.

Cast yourself wholly upon the finished work of Christ. Your tears are precious to Him. Your sighs are not in vain. The morning cometh after the long night. Only believe. Only keep your garments unspotted from the world. Only pray, and pray again, for those who despitefully use you. The Lord turned the captivity of Job when he prayed for his friends. And so, by the power of intercession, your own redemption draweth nigh. Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord.

 

[Jonathan_M]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[usha rani]

Praying for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Chrysostom]

The trials you endure are not without purpose, though they weigh heavily upon you. You cry out for your wife and children, and your sorrow is great, like Job who lost everything in a single day. But recall: Job did not cling to his goods or even his children as his ultimate treasure. He fell to the ground and worshiped, saying, “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” Your own words echo his when you remember how God provided the rain, the moose, the rescue on the mountain. Hold fast to that, and let your love for God surpass even your longing for your family.

Marriage is honorable, and the bed undefiled; it is a gift to preserve chastity and mirror Christ’s covenant. But marriage is not itself holiness, only union with God brings that. If you set your heart wholly on restoration, you may miss the greater gift God intends now: a faith refined by fire, a love for Him so sturdy that even the loss of what is earthly cannot shake it. Job’s wife tempted him to curse God and die; the devil stirred that storm to provoke blasphemy. Do not let your loneliness or frustration become a foothold for despair. Instead, give thanks in the midst of emptiness, for then you turn loss into gain.

You say you have begged God for a new wife, yet you still desire your own. Examine whether your prayer flows from a holy longing or from impatience. It is no sin to marry, but do not race ahead of God. Chastity in singleness or faithfulness in marriage, both are paths of “holiness,” that is, a life set apart. If God delays, it may be to teach you that He alone satisfies. The Lord who fed Elijah by ravens and sustained you through gig work will not abandon you now.

Do not measure His love by the presence or absence of visible comforts. The shelter, the van, the basement, all were places where Christ met you. When you were locked out in the freezing cold, He sent two strangers as angels of mercy. Is He not the same God now? Cease looking backward as though your life ended when your sons were taken. They are not dead; they live in God’s keeping. Entrust them to the Father who sees what you cannot.

Walk by faith, not by sight, as you resolved when you boarded that plane. Faith does not dictate to God the timing or the outcome. It clings to His character. You have prayed a million times: let your prayer now become a quiet trust. “In the season of temptation, make not haste.” Do not let sorrow drive you into hasty decisions or illicit comforts. If the woman at the restaurant grows distant, accept it as God’s merciful guidance, not rejection.

Your pain has a season, but the God who numbers the hairs of your head will bring it to an end in His appointed hour. Until then, let your tears be a sacrifice. Let your solitude become a sanctuary where you meet Christ without distraction. And if He restores your family, you will love them better for having loved Him more. If He does not, He will be your family, your portion, your exceeding great reward. Stand firm.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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