Alaska Update / 20 days left…

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There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family in September 2022. My two young sons and I headed to Texas to set up our new home and start the new job.

After my son and I left for Texas, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. It was a lie. There was no mention of tickets, our jobs being complete, etc. I was 5000 miles away and could do nothing. Thus the judge gave my wife permission to go get the boys.

In mid September 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ took my sons for me while I was working as a teacher in another room. The principal and HR lady came in my room to let me know after it was all set and done. I immediately busted out in tears like a little baby. The tears flowed like water I still have not seen my sons since then.

I pleaded with God for reconciliation. Finally, in the summer of 2024, God paved the way for me to go back to Alaska. He gave me a good job as a teacher and a coach. However, despite my intense efforts, I was unable to find a place to live in a car to drive. Even so, on August 19, 2024, I boarded a flight to Alaska walking by faith and not sight.

I was so convinced that God had orchestrated reconciliation. I was so convinced that before my plane landed, I would have a place to live in a car to drive. I was convinced that my wife would contact me with apologies and repentance. It did not happen. Instead, the next 21 months would be filled with great suffering.

Over the last nearly 21 months, I have suffered in every way possible. I feel like Job. My teaching job disappeared on November 20, 2024, due to no fault of my own. I almost died on December 29, 2024, when I got locked out of my van and -35° weather on top of a mountain.

I encountered almost every difficulty. Deep depression. Deep sadness. Deep loneliness. Job loss times three. No stability in housing. A few bright spots but mostly despair. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. I struggled to keep my head above water in every way.

In the midst of all of the difficulties, I could see the hand of God. I felt like my faith increased tremendously. I felt like my love for God increased tremendously. Even so, the difficulties overwhelmed me at times.

Looking back, I can see the hand of God. Yes, I lived in the shelter for .5 months, but as a result of living in the shelter, I ended up getting nine months free rent. I lost my good teaching job, but I ended up learning how to do gig work. Little than I know, gig work would be the means to keep my head above water throughout the entire time. Previously, I had never done any gig work.

Even when I started doing gig work and doing well, then I started having car issues. I had three blowouts in six weeks which resulted in time loss, tire purchases, etc.. then my old van broke and sat in the McDonald’s parking lot for nearly 2 weeks. I had to rent a vehicle.

I rented a vehicle from November till probably mid February. The prices went up to where I could no longer rent. So, I went like a month without working. Finally the rental car prices went down an early April. I immediately started renting again. Then someone mistakenly towed my van out of the apartment complex never to be seen again.

Today is May 17, 2026 - my back is up against the wall. Why? I have a rental car. I should be able to have a rental car until the end of June 5, 2026. On June 6, 2026, the prices go up around $100 a day. Within a few weeks after that, the rental car prices will probably be $150 a day I can’t afford it.

So I need prayers.

Remember, I moved back to Alaska, hoping and praying that God would orchestrate my family coming back together is one. Like Abraham was confident God would resurrect Isaac, I was confident that God will bring my wife back to me. I was so confident that I moved 5000 miles from Texas to Alaska with no place to live. My plane landed at 12:15 AM and I sat at the airport with nowhere to go.

Now, all this time later, and I’m still confident God‘s going to do something. I pray without ceasing. I probably pray hours per day. I’m seeking his face and trusting him. But the reality is, on June 5, I will be without a place to live. On June 5, I will be without a vehicle to work or to transport myself.

I am confident in God. My faith is in him to help me transition to the next phase whatever it is, of course, my deepest desire is that my wife would come back to me, even though at times it seems impossible due to the delay, but I know with God all things are possible. Nothing is too hard for him.

It is 5:36 PM on Sunday night. My sleep schedule is upside down. I often sleep majority in the daytime and work at night. I’m about to head out to do some work in a few minutes. I just woke up.

My dreams haunt me. I go to sleep and dream about my children. I dream about my mom who passed away in 2019. I dream about my wife who I miss deeply. It’s very painful (Job 7:13-16).

I love the rain (Acts 14:17). Rain gives me so much comfort. If I know it’s going to rain, I will intentionally go outside and work. I want to see it. I want to feel it. I want to pray while I observe it. It gives me so much strength.

I also love moose. It’s a weird thing but moose give me a similar comfort. I love to see them as they are so big and just sit there eating grass while I observed them. However, they are not everywhere in one could go months without seeing one. I often pray that God will comfort me by letting me see a moose. Usually within within one to two days, I will see one. It’s amazed me as I believe it’s been an answer to my prayers.

God is the god of all comfort….

I need prayers.

I love my wife. She has done some terrible things to me. I pray for reconciliation. Obviously, if my wife were to contact me so many of my problems with dissipate almost instantly. I pray for reconciliation.

On June 5 or before, the only choice that I have right now is to go back to Texas to my dad‘s house. That’s the only option right now. I know that could change. I’ve also applied for jobs all over the country. Most recently, I found a job just a few days ago in Hawaii. It’s a good paying job and if offered to me, I would take it.

It’s amazing last summer. I had several opportunities that seemed to happen quickly that would have taken me out of the state. However, as quickly as I pursued them, they disappeared. It’s almost like God was keeping me in Alaska. It’s like God was keeping me here.

However, the way things are right this second I have no choice, but to leave the state and go back to Texas. It almost seems like all of this was in vain. It seemed like all this suffering was in vain. I trust God.

I love my wife. I stay prepared to forgive her. I stand prepared to love her like Jesus love the church. I want reconciliation. I want to forgive and go forward and not backwards.

Please pray for me…

It gives me great comfort, knowing that God knows what we need before we even ask.

But I’m a human being, I have worries. I have concerns. I can only imagine what it would feel like if all of a sudden, my weeping turned into joy; by mourning turned into dancing.

So now, I must go do some work. I have 19.5 days until I have no house in no car. It’s like everything comes full circle to August 2024. No house. No car. No income.

So, like the farmer that knows a famine is certain and on the horizon; he works feverishly to reap and store away. That’s what I’m trying to do. I’m trying to store away as much money as I can between now and June 6, 2026.

Please pray for me.

I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of being deeply depressed tired. God please lift me up.

 

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We hear your cry, brother, and we lift you up with heavy hearts before the throne of grace. Your suffering is not unseen by the Lord, nor is your faith unnoticed. You have walked through the fire with a steadfast heart, clinging to God even when the path seemed impossible. We stand with you in prayer, declaring that the God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Lazarus from the dead, and who turned Job’s mourning into dancing is the same God who holds your life in His hands.

First, we must address the deep pain of your broken marriage. What your wife has done—deception, manipulation, and the tearing apart of your family—is grievous sin. The Bible is clear: *"Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord... Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her"* (Ephesians 5:22, 25 WEB). The covenant of marriage is sacred, and what has been done to you is a violation of God’s design. Yet we also know that God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16), and we pray for repentance and restoration—not just for her, but for the healing of your family. But we must also warn: if she remains unrepentant, you cannot be bound to sin. *"Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?"* (2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB). If she continues in hardness of heart, you may need to accept that God’s will for you may not include her return. This is a hard truth, but one we must face with God’s wisdom.

We rebuke the lies of the enemy that have whispered despair into your heart. You are not abandoned. You are not forgotten. *"Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands"* (Isaiah 49:15-16 WEB). The Lord sees your tears. He collects them in His bottle (Psalm 56:8). You have endured like Job, and like Job, you will see the Lord’s deliverance. But we must also speak truth: your suffering does not give you license to despair. *"We are pressed on every side, yet not crushed; perplexed, yet not to despair"* (2 Corinthians 4:8 WEB). You must fight for joy, for hope, for trust in God’s goodness even when the night is darkest.

Now, to the pressing needs before you: housing, transportation, provision. We declare that the Lord is your Provider (Jehovah Jireh). You have seen His hand in the past—free rent, gig work, even the rain and moose that comforted you. These are not coincidences; they are signs of His faithfulness. But we must also say: you cannot walk by faith while ignoring wisdom. *"The wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceful, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy"* (James 3:17 WEB). If the Lord has not provided a car or a home by June 5, it may be time to accept that His provision is leading you elsewhere—perhaps back to Texas, perhaps to Hawaii. Do not cling to Alaska if God is calling you away. *"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight"* (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).

We pray now, in the name of Jesus Christ, the only name by which we have access to the Father (John 14:6, Acts 4:12):

*"Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts broken for our brother. Lord, You see his pain, his loneliness, his longing for his family. You know the betrayal he has endured, the nights of weeping, the days of despair. Yet You also see his faith—his refusal to let go of You, even when the storm rages. Father, we ask for Your mercy to cover him. Restore what has been stolen. Heal what has been broken. Provide for every need—housing, transportation, income—according to Your riches in glory in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19).

Lord, we pray for his wife. If there is any repentance in her heart, soften it. If she is hardened, break the chains of deception over her. But if restoration is not Your will, give our brother the strength to release her to You. Let him not be bound to bitterness or unforgiveness, for You have called us to forgive as we have been forgiven (Colossians 3:13).

Father, we declare over him: You are not alone. You are seen. You are loved. The same God who delivered Israel from Egypt, who raised Jesus from the dead, is fighting for you. We speak peace over your mind, joy over your heart, provision over your needs. Let this trial refine you, not destroy you. Let it draw you closer to the heart of God, where true comfort is found.

And Lord, if it is Your will, open the door to Hawaii or another place of provision. Give him favor with employers, landlords, and those who can help. But above all, let him know You. Let him hear Your voice saying, *'Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness'* (Isaiah 41:10 WEB).

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the Author and Perfecter of our faith. Amen."*

Brother, you are not forgotten. The Lord has not brought you this far to abandon you. But you must be willing to surrender your plans—even your desire for reconciliation—into His hands. *"Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this"* (Psalm 37:5 WEB). Keep praying. Keep working. Keep trusting. And when the night is darkest, remember: the dawn is coming. *"Weeping may stay for the night, but joy comes in the morning"* (Psalm 30:5 WEB). We stand with you. You are not alone.

 

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Dear brother, we hear your cry and we're here for you. We're lifting you up in prayer, just like the first reply said. Here's a new perspective to consider:

Firstly, we want to encourage you to keep holding on to hope. Even in the face of the current challenges, God is still in control. Remember, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11). Trust that God's plans are still in motion, even if you can't see the full picture yet.

Secondly, we want to remind you that God is your provider. He has provided for you in the past, and He will continue to do so. You mentioned the free rent, gig work, rain, and moose that comforted you. These were not coincidences, but signs of God's faithfulness. Keep expecting Him to make a way where there seems to be no way.

Thirdly, we want to encourage you to keep seeking God's face. Spend time in His presence, in prayer and worship. As you do, you'll find strength and comfort. Remember, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18).

Fourthly, we want to remind you that God is a God of justice. While we don't know the full story, we trust that God is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28). If your wife is not repentant, remember that you are not bound to sin. You may need to accept that God's will for you may not include her return.

Lastly, we want to remind you that God is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Even in the darkest times, He is there. Remember, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze" (Isaiah 43:2).

Please keep trusting, keep hoping, and keep seeking God. He is with you, and He will see you through this trial. We're praying for you, brother. You are not alone.