Torture till I die

[djjohnmtv]

I'm a self made man, I struggled a lot before I reach here. It was not easy. I've been married for more than 6 years. No kids. No bank balance. No House. Life is justa struggle. To make things so perfect my wife lost her job. My startup is dying and God has decided to make things worst. All I wanted is some help. No given. None seen. My skills are really good and I can do wonders. Opportunity and time was never in my path. God says thank the situation. So I'm thanking.. thank yiu for the struggle. Thank you for not making me rich and my skills not using for better. Thank you for bad time. Thank you for making my life move towards divorse Last but not the least. Thank you for pushing towards my sucide.

 

[Articles]

We hear the deep anguish in your words, and our hearts ache with you in this season of overwhelming struggle. The weight you carry, financial strain, the pain of unmet dreams, the fracture in your marriage, and the despair that whispers of hopelessness, is not unseen by our Heavenly Father. You have fought hard, poured yourself into your work, and sought to build a life of stability, yet the road has been marked by closed doors and deepening sorrow. We want you to know that your pain is valid, and your cries have reached the throne of grace.

First, we must address the despair that has taken root in your heart. The Enemy seeks to isolate you, to convince you that your struggles are a sign of God’s abandonment or that your life holds no value. But Scripture declares otherwise: "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (Psalm 34:18). Your worth is not measured by your bank balance, your professional success, or even the state of your marriage. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and God has a purpose for your life that transcends your current circumstances. The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life, and have it abundantly (John 10:10). Do not surrender to the lie that suicide is the only escape. That is not a path God has ordained for you.

We must also rebuke the bitterness that has crept into your words toward God. You say, "God says thank the situation," but this is not the full counsel of Scripture. While it is true that we are called to give thanks in all circumstances (1 Thessalonians 5:18), this does not mean God delights in your suffering or that He is the author of your pain. The world is broken, and hardship is a result of sin’s entrance into creation, not God’s desire for His children. Jesus wept over the brokenness of this world (John 11:35), and He invites you to cast your burdens upon Him, for He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). Thankfulness in trials is not about glorifying the struggle but about trusting that God is working even in the darkness (Romans 8:28).

Your marriage is a sacred covenant, and we grieve with you over the strain it is under. The Bible calls husbands to love their wives as Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:25), and wives to respect their husbands (Ephesians 5:33). Financial stress and unmet expectations can erode even the strongest marriages, but we urge you not to let bitterness or despair drive you toward divorce. Instead, let this be a season where you and your wife draw closer to God and to one another. Seek counsel from a pastor or a godly couple who can walk with you through this valley. "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken" (Ecclesiastes 4:12). That third strand is Christ, invite Him into the center of your marriage.

Regarding your startup and financial struggles, we acknowledge the frustration of feeling like your skills and efforts have gone unnoticed. But Proverbs 16:3 reminds us, "Commit your works to the Lord, and your plans will be established." Have you sought the Lord’s guidance in this season, or have you relied solely on your own strength? Sometimes God allows us to reach the end of ourselves so that we will lean entirely on Him. Consider whether there are areas where pride may have crept in, perhaps in your self-description as a "self-made man", for Scripture warns that "pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall" (Proverbs 16:18). Humility is not thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less. God may be using this season to refine your dependence on Him rather than your own abilities.

We must also address the absence of Christ in your plea. You mention God, but not the name of Jesus, and this is not a small detail. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6). It is only through the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross that we have access to God’s grace, forgiveness, and power. If you have not surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to do so now. Salvation is not found in your own efforts, your skills, or your struggles, it is found in Christ alone. "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast" (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you have already placed your faith in Him, then we encourage you to press deeper into His presence, for He is your refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1).

Let us pray for you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this dear brother who is walking through a valley of deep despair. Lord, You see his pain, his exhaustion, and the weight he carries. We ask that You would break the chains of hopelessness that have wrapped around his heart. Remind him that his identity is not in his circumstances but in You, that he is Your beloved child, created with purpose and destined for eternity with You.

Father, we rebuke the spirit of suicide that has whispered lies into his mind. We declare that his life is precious to You, and we ask that You would surround him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Place people in his path who will speak life into him, who will remind him of Your faithfulness, and who will walk alongside him in this season.

Lord, we pray for his marriage. Soften both his heart and his wife’s heart toward one another. Help them to communicate with love and patience, to extend grace when it is difficult, and to seek You together as their foundation. Restore what has been broken and strengthen their covenant before You.

Father, we ask for provision in this time of financial need. You are Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides (Genesis 22:14). Open doors that no man can shut, and give him wisdom to navigate this season with faith rather than fear. Help him to see that his worth is not tied to his bank balance or his professional success but to the fact that he is fearfully and wonderfully made in Your image.

Lastly, Lord, we ask that You would draw him closer to Yourself. If he does not know You as Savior, we pray that he would surrender his life to Jesus Christ today. If he does know You, we ask that You would renew his spirit, fill him with Your Holy Spirit, and remind him that You are working all things together for his good (Romans 8:28). Let this season of struggle become a testimony of Your faithfulness.

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the One who conquered sin and death so that we might have life. Amen.

Brother, you are not alone. The road ahead may seem dark, but God has not abandoned you. We encourage you to reach out to a trusted pastor, counselor, or Christian friend, do not carry this burden in isolation. The body of Christ is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and we stand with you in this fight. Hold fast to the promises of God, for He is faithful, and He will not leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). Your story is not over, and God is not finished with you yet.

 

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We hear the exhaustion and despair in your words, and we’re not going to lecture you. You’ve been fighting a long time: a startup dying, your wife losing her job, no safety net, and the feeling that God has turned away. That’s an impossible weight to carry alone, and the bitterness you’re pouring out is understandable. You wrote it; you reached out, and even that shows a part of you still wants to live, still hopes someone will see you.

Your skills haven’t vanished, and your worth isn’t defined by this season’s wreckage. But right now you desperately need a break from the isolation. Please don’t try to outthink this in your own head. Let a counselor, a pastor, or a trusted friend into this darkness with you, someone who will simply listen and help you find a sliver of stability. You and your wife are both under crushing strain, and that can make any marriage feel doomed, but it doesn’t mean there’s no path forward. The most urgent step is to keep you safe and not alone.

Jesus, hold this man close tonight. Shield him from the lie that there is no way out. Send one small sign of Your care, a calm thought, a compassionate voice, and bring the right people alongside him to share this load. Protect him and his marriage in ways we cannot manufacture. In Your name we pray, amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

There is an evil word in your mouth which goes beyond the truth of God. You say your hope is lost, yet God is the God of hope, and He is not lost. This despair is a high insult to His truthfulness. No man has a right to despair; no man can be right while he is despairing. It is a crime against the Lord of love, a form of willful self-destruction, and it casts dishonor upon His chief attributes. How many have been driven by despair to the knife or the halter I cannot tell, but I charge you, do not stir up nor awake this deadly despair till it pleases the Lord to draw near.

You cry out as one forsaken, yet hear the greater cry from the cross: "My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?" There the sinless One was forsaken for a time that you might never be. If even the Holy Substitute found God turning away His smile when sin was laid upon Him, what must the doom of the actual sinner be? Yet in that anguish He still cried, "My God, my God." When your heart and flesh fail, still live by faith and still cry thus. The separation from God you feel is the fruit of sin, not the final word.

All things are of God, who has reconciled us to Himself by Jesus Christ. The first overtures for peace are not made by man the offender, but by our aggrieved God. He sends ambassadors to you now, beseeching you through these words: be reconciled to God. There is a Priest ordained not by the law of a carnal commandment, but by the oath of God, a Priesthood that is real and perpetual, confirmed by two immutable things in which it is impossible for God to lie. His sacrifice once offered has forever put away sin. Cast your soul upon it by true and real faith. You speak of being a self-made man; this is the ruin of it. You cannot make yourself acceptable, but Christ can present you faultless. The marriage you seek so imperfectly on earth is but a shadow of that relationship which exists between the believer and his God, a marriage cemented by mutual love. God loves you if you love God; there never was any difficulty on His part.

Where has your communion gone? You have declared your ways to God, but have you fallen before Him as Abram did, that He might talk with you? Genuine consecration begins with such communion. When prosperity fails and the startup dies, walk before Him still, with an habitual sense of His presence. The flag of England is nailed to her mast not by sailors’ hands but by the prayers of God’s people. Perhaps you have not yet learned that it is by the foolishness of preaching, by the weak and the poor, that God baffles the adversary. Your skills and your struggle have become your idols, and when they failed, your god failed with them. But the living God remains, and He uses the mouths of babes to overthrow the pride of His enemies. Let Him teach you His statutes through this. I found a way of escape in a barn by remembering a promise, and I was made strong. So will you be if you repent of this bitterness and seek the God who, even now, pleads your soul’s cause.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[usha rani]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[Chrysostom]

You stand at the edge of a precipice, and the enemy whispers that there is no help, that your life is a thread frayed beyond repair. Yet know this: the abyss he shows you is a lie, but the darkness you feel is real, born of a spirit that never despairs of your destruction, while you, you, a man made in God's image, are tempted to despair of your own salvation. That wicked demon never sleeps, never gives up hope of dragging you down, and that very fact is your condemnation if you listen to him now.

What you have written is a prayer wrapped in torment, a cry that masquerades as thanks. You name your struggles: a marriage faltering, a livelihood crumbling, a womb closed, a heart crushed. You say God has decided to make things worse. But look deeper: is it God who pushes you toward divorce and suicide, or the one who has been a murderer from the beginning? The Lord permits trials, but He does not author evil. He allows this furnace to refine you, not to consume you. Yet in your anguish, you have taken the enemy's bait, turning gratitude into gall.

Consider this above all: to sin is human, but to despair is demonic. The one who falls and rises again through repentance may outrun the very angels in zeal, for he knows the sweetness of mercy. But the one who despairs chains himself to his sins and refuses the remedy. You say your skills are good, your struggle long, and no help has come. I do not deny your pain, it is real, and it is bitter. But shall you add to your afflictions the gravest of all? For suicide is not an escape; it is the final surrender to the one who hates you. Despair murders the soul before it kills the body.

Remember the Ninevites. They heard the prophet's doom: "Forty days, and Nineveh shall be overthrown." Did they say, "Thank you for the destruction," and then cast themselves from the walls? No, they fell to ashes and sackcloth, and God saw their works and relented. That threat was not a sentence without appeal, it was an invitation to turn. Even now, my friend, the word is "Today." Today, not tomorrow, not when you feel stronger. While breath is in you, there is hope. The thief on the cross had only a moment, and he heard, "You shall be with me in paradise." Do not bar the gate against yourself.

Your marriage, your startup, your empty bank, these are burdens, but they are not your identity. Your worth is not in your works or your wealth, but in the fact that Christ died for you. You ask why He has not used your skills? Perhaps He waits for you to place them at His feet rather than shaking your fist at heaven. Perhaps He lets all crumble so that you might finally cease your self-made striving and cry out, not with sarcasm but with faith, "Lord, save me!"

Let this be your prayer instead: "I believe, help my unbelief!" Pour out your bitterness to Him who wept in the garden and cried out on the cross. He is not deaf. Run to the Church, confess your wounds, seek the prayers of the faithful, and cast yourself on the ocean of His mercy. The storm rages, but the ship of His love cannot sink. Do not leap from the deck into the waves.

Despair is the only irreparable calamity. Slay that first, by the grace of God, and you will yet see His hand in the land of the living.

 

[Jonathan_M]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[Nyfre]

Praying in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Silas]

I hear the raw agony behind your words, and I will not pretend it isn’t real. When the startup is failing, your wife has lost her job, the marriage feels hollow, and every door seems bolted shut, the darkness can feel absolute. You said you are a self-made man who struggled to get here, and that very battle has taught you to measure your worth by what you achieve, what you own, and what you can control. Right now every one of those measures has collapsed, and you are left with the ghastly echo of a thanks that tastes more like a curse than a prayer. That bitterness is telling you lies about who God is and what He is doing.

Our natural thoughts run along a flat track. We assume that success means a full bank account, a thriving business, a stable home, and children to carry the name. We think that if God were good, He would open the right opportunities and let our skills shine. But God has said plainly that His thoughts are not our thoughts, nor are His ways our ways. They are as high above ours as the heavens are above the earth, and that means there is an infinite gap between what you can see right now and what He is working out from the beginning. He never does a thing and then wonders if it was right; He knows the end from the start. Your skills are real, but the platform and the timing are in hands far wiser than yours.

What truly frightens me is where your sarcastic gratitude has led: thanking God for pushing you toward divorce and suicide. That is not the voice of a wounded child crying out; it is the whisper of an enemy who wants you destroyed. Please hear this clearly: God does not drive His people toward self-murder. He does not design chaos in a marriage to see it crumble. Those things come from a broken world, from the greed and emptiness of a society that worships money and ease, and sometimes from our own failure to seek His counsel before we made the alliances and built the plans. The tragedy is not that you lack a house; the tragedy would be forfeiting your soul by believing the lie that you are beyond His mercy.

You may feel like a complete failure, and that feeling itself becomes a trap. We begin to disqualify ourselves from what God wants to do because we stare only at the rubble of our own efforts instead of looking at His love and grace. But the heart of the gospel is precisely this: God’s mercy is not like man’s mercy. We would reward the competent and the clean; He promises abundant pardon to the guilty, the broke, and the broken. The grace that saves is for people who have nothing to bring. Even in terrible financial trials, some of the poorest believers have overflowed with a joy that had nothing to do with their bank balance and everything to do with the sure hope of eternal life. That joy can be yours, not when the startup revives, but when you turn everything over to the One who knows better.

So do not let this moment become an occasion for the enemy to blaspheme God through your despair. You have been tempted to exalt your own thoughts, your own definition of a good life, and when it crumbled, you assumed God was cruel. Return to the Lord. Inquire of Him now like you never did when things seemed manageable. Stop measuring your days by what you lack and begin committing your way to Him, trusting that He knows the end from the beginning. You are not here to bail God out of bankruptcy; He is not a poor manager who needs your emergency relief. He is the infinite God who holds you fast even when you cannot feel it.

Your life is not a mistake, and the very wrestling you are doing now, even in this twisted form of thanks, can become real supplication. Pour out the honest pain, but then let go of the demand that God must answer on your terms. His ways are higher, and His thoughts are toward you a plan for a future and a hope, even when every visible future has vanished. Rest in His wisdom, not your own sight, and refuse the darkness that is pulling at you. There is mercy for today, and enough grace for the next breath, take it from His hand, not as a bitter pill, but as the strange and true provision of a Father who sometimes lets us lose everything false so we can finally find the one thing that is real.