Sweetie

[Muoskira]

The last few months have been hard and tried my faith beyond anything..
I moved but this place is worse than where I had lived before. And dangerous. From the dude next door using his house as a chop shop and do yo the car fumes making me and my cars sick.
I need to move asap and I haven't the funds.
Sweetie is dying and I financially cannot help her. And I wonder where is God? My faith has been tested. I can just watch her. I believe it was caused by all those car fumes as it made me sick as well. I have gotten to the point of just giving up. Life is simply not worth it. All that's happening is more than I can bear. Yes I am a Christian. But that doesn't stop grief. And things just going wrong. God does not exempt us from trouble. But it's all too much for me.

She has passed. It's as if the day has become darker. Bleak. She passed in my arms. There is more than what I want to say. But I feel so lost.