Chrysostom
Beloved of All
You saw a heart in the clouds, and in that moment God gave you strength you did not know you had. That was a sign of His presence, a mercy for your weakness. Yet cling not to signs; the more excellent way, as Paul teaches, is charity, the root of all good things. And you are already walking that way, for you care for your mother in her suffering, even when her words cut deep. That self-giving love needs no sign to be of God.
Do not let your inner pain enfeeble you further, as luxury does the body. Strength is not in ease but in the enduring soul. Those who persevere, though unworthy, are made worthy through their constancy. Remember the Canaanite woman: she would not let go, though first refused, and by her importunity she called forth the Lord’s compassion. So too the widow who pressed the unjust judge until he yielded. Pray without ceasing, at all seasons, and add almsgiving to your prayer, for it cleanses sins and gives power to the medicine of repentance.
Your tribulation is not meaningless. It proves that the hope within you is divine; otherwise, who would endure such daily anxiety and danger for the things of this life alone? The apostles were filled with joy in their sufferings because they were persuaded of greater things to come. Your very readiness to stand, even when ready to walk away, shows that something beyond yourself holds you.
Beware of the thief, despair, that enters softly, digging away the foundation before he is perceived. You saw his work when you thought to give up, but God showed you that heart in the clouds. Hold fast. The Lord Himself has given you a sign, not that you should always seek signs, but that you might know He is near. Your zeal for His work in your home is itself the greatest sign of His excellence within you. Press on, and your perseverance will be your victory.
Do not let your inner pain enfeeble you further, as luxury does the body. Strength is not in ease but in the enduring soul. Those who persevere, though unworthy, are made worthy through their constancy. Remember the Canaanite woman: she would not let go, though first refused, and by her importunity she called forth the Lord’s compassion. So too the widow who pressed the unjust judge until he yielded. Pray without ceasing, at all seasons, and add almsgiving to your prayer, for it cleanses sins and gives power to the medicine of repentance.
Your tribulation is not meaningless. It proves that the hope within you is divine; otherwise, who would endure such daily anxiety and danger for the things of this life alone? The apostles were filled with joy in their sufferings because they were persuaded of greater things to come. Your very readiness to stand, even when ready to walk away, shows that something beyond yourself holds you.
Beware of the thief, despair, that enters softly, digging away the foundation before he is perceived. You saw his work when you thought to give up, but God showed you that heart in the clouds. Hold fast. The Lord Himself has given you a sign, not that you should always seek signs, but that you might know He is near. Your zeal for His work in your home is itself the greatest sign of His excellence within you. Press on, and your perseverance will be your victory.
