Koryl
Servant of All
Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You for hearing my prayer today. Sorry for not praying every day. Sorry for indulging in human pleasures by eating in buffets and looking out for promos on dining websites, Lord, I am really down these past few weeks and months. You know why I am like this Lord, I pray that Your peace will come and encompass all fears, doubts, anger, depression, anxiety, resentments, regrets, and sadness.
1) The loss of opportunity for not being able to negotiate for a better price on our mom's lot still lingers in my mind and also I am not in talking terms with my ### and ### because of the frustrations that I cannot do anything about it since they kept on pressuring and agreeing to the terms of the buyer and since majority said yes, I had to give in.
2) My phone burned today as I tried to remove and have the battery replaced. I made a mistake of not removing the battery properly thus puncturing or destroying the casing of the battery which caused the chemical reaction for the battery to burn and eventually my phone which was not spared as well as the adhesive needs special equipment for it to melt before removing. I also am worried that I may have inhaled the poisonous fumes that came out of the flames, I even burned one or two of my fingers when I tried to remove the item from flammable stuffs around my cellphone. I am now worried if I would be having serious illnesses due to the inhalation. Like cancer, etc. I was actually doubting since I always mess up with my electronic works, even if I am a registered electronics engineer (the training here in the Philippines is not that good), I want to change that even if I am a licensed engineer I am, personally, do not think I am qualified. I wanted to do something or accomplish something to make up for my bad day yesterday but it somehow even made it worse.
3) I had a bad day at my short course class which ended yesterday. I took up CAD short classes to gain CAD knowledge but the classes were held with a fast pace that I was not able to catch up and made several mistakes on our final output project. Several portions of the printout had missing lines and details.
4) Again with the selling of the lot, it seems that my ### being a merchant or trader as their family business is hesitant in endorsing the sale, since the lot is under my ### and ### only, the law provides that married individuals need their spouses' agreement for the sale to push through. My ### is afraid that the internal revenue will chase her and their business for the profits and sale of the property and their business may get affected.
5) I am contemplating of ending my life also as I listed SUICIDE as one of my goals.
6) I really feel apart from all my relatives here, I even am not replying to some of my ### who are asking if I am ok or not. I do not want to answer because I will not be able to find peace even if they confide in me as I know they do not entirely understand what I am going through.
7) Also, another issue is that it has been 2 months and the court has not even issued to us the cert of finality and writ of execution for us to do the ejectment procedures. I am afraid that the other party may find ways to alter this if this gets delayed even further.
8) Lastly, my investments in the ### stock market have been nose-diving and I have lost a lot of my saved money, now that I need it most for the ejectment process that instead of gaining for the ejectment I am losing money instead which is devastating. I made a wrong dining order on one of my dining escapades. My unit is so messed up, my ### says it looks like a dumpster or squatter. I know I am a hoarder. It seems that all my actions are failures I am so messed up. No lovelife, no family, no money, no success, no peace, nothing. Not even friends who really care and understand. I know that these are worldly pleasures, but I am only maintaining and liquidating what was passed on to me, I am not greedily asking for more forcing things my way. Lord, please let me know what to do and give me peace and understanding. Lord, thank you for hearing my prayer and sorry if I only approached You now. In Jesus mighty name I pray.
1) The loss of opportunity for not being able to negotiate for a better price on our mom's lot still lingers in my mind and also I am not in talking terms with my ### and ### because of the frustrations that I cannot do anything about it since they kept on pressuring and agreeing to the terms of the buyer and since majority said yes, I had to give in.
2) My phone burned today as I tried to remove and have the battery replaced. I made a mistake of not removing the battery properly thus puncturing or destroying the casing of the battery which caused the chemical reaction for the battery to burn and eventually my phone which was not spared as well as the adhesive needs special equipment for it to melt before removing. I also am worried that I may have inhaled the poisonous fumes that came out of the flames, I even burned one or two of my fingers when I tried to remove the item from flammable stuffs around my cellphone. I am now worried if I would be having serious illnesses due to the inhalation. Like cancer, etc. I was actually doubting since I always mess up with my electronic works, even if I am a registered electronics engineer (the training here in the Philippines is not that good), I want to change that even if I am a licensed engineer I am, personally, do not think I am qualified. I wanted to do something or accomplish something to make up for my bad day yesterday but it somehow even made it worse.
3) I had a bad day at my short course class which ended yesterday. I took up CAD short classes to gain CAD knowledge but the classes were held with a fast pace that I was not able to catch up and made several mistakes on our final output project. Several portions of the printout had missing lines and details.
4) Again with the selling of the lot, it seems that my ### being a merchant or trader as their family business is hesitant in endorsing the sale, since the lot is under my ### and ### only, the law provides that married individuals need their spouses' agreement for the sale to push through. My ### is afraid that the internal revenue will chase her and their business for the profits and sale of the property and their business may get affected.
5) I am contemplating of ending my life also as I listed SUICIDE as one of my goals.
6) I really feel apart from all my relatives here, I even am not replying to some of my ### who are asking if I am ok or not. I do not want to answer because I will not be able to find peace even if they confide in me as I know they do not entirely understand what I am going through.
7) Also, another issue is that it has been 2 months and the court has not even issued to us the cert of finality and writ of execution for us to do the ejectment procedures. I am afraid that the other party may find ways to alter this if this gets delayed even further.
8) Lastly, my investments in the ### stock market have been nose-diving and I have lost a lot of my saved money, now that I need it most for the ejectment process that instead of gaining for the ejectment I am losing money instead which is devastating. I made a wrong dining order on one of my dining escapades. My unit is so messed up, my ### says it looks like a dumpster or squatter. I know I am a hoarder. It seems that all my actions are failures I am so messed up. No lovelife, no family, no money, no success, no peace, nothing. Not even friends who really care and understand. I know that these are worldly pleasures, but I am only maintaining and liquidating what was passed on to me, I am not greedily asking for more forcing things my way. Lord, please let me know what to do and give me peace and understanding. Lord, thank you for hearing my prayer and sorry if I only approached You now. In Jesus mighty name I pray.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.