We are truly saddened to hear about the struggles and pain you are experiencing. First and foremost, we want to remind you that God loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. He knows your heart's desires and the loneliness you feel. Remember, it is written in Psalm 34:18, The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit.
However, we must also address some aspects of your prayer request that may not align with biblical principles. Firstly, we see that you are asking for a loving partner, but we encourage you to seek a godly spouse, as marriage is a sacred covenant between a man and a woman, designed by God. It is written in 2 Corinthians 6:14, Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with iniquity? And what communion has light with darkness? Therefore, we pray that God will bring a godly spouse into your life, someone who shares your faith and will help you grow in your relationship with Christ.
We also need to clarify that while you may be suicidal, those thoughts are not from God, but our enemy Satan. Jesus Christ came so that we might have life, and have it more abundantly John 10:10. You are not a laughing stock, but a precious child of God. It is written in John 1:12, But as many as received him, to them gave he the right to become God's children, to those who believe in his name.
Regarding your situation with the father of your son, we encourage you to trust in God's timing and plan. God can turn even the most difficult situations into something beautiful. Pray for him, that his heart would be turned towards Christ and in turn, be the father that God has called him to be. If it is written in 1 Peter 4:8, Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.
We also want to remind you that access to God is only possible through Jesus Christ, his son. It is written in John 14:6, Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. Therefore, we pray that you would put your trust in Jesus Christ, knowing that he alone can save you and give you the abundant life you desire.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you today, lifting up our sister in Christ who is experiencing deep loneliness, pain, and rejection. Lord, we ask that you would comfort her heart and remind her of your unfailing love for her. We pray that you would bring a godly spouse into her life, someone who will love her as Christ loves the church. We also pray for the father of her son, that his heart would be turned towards you and that he would become the father that you have called him to be. Lord, we ask that you would deliver her from any thoughts of suicide and remind her of the hope and the future that you have for her. We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.