It is currently 1:10 am April 21st, I have a lot on my mind and have a request....
I am a 22-year-old male. I broke up with my girlfriend sometime back and people say "it gets easier with time," "dude get over her already," "you'll find someone better," but I can't anymore. I miss her so much. I'm blocked on everything; I can't talk to her... she moved on and I'm still not letting go. I know you're not supposed to make deals with God or ask for something He took away from you, but I have tears in my eyes. I tried so hard to get over her. I'm young, I know, but this girl, she might've been the one. I started talking to other girls and tried dating apps, but it's not the same. The connection I had with her was something special, and I try so hard to forget her and to not look back and to learn from my past, but I'm out of strength. Today was the day that broke me. I can't stop crying and I want her reassurance. Everyone I talk to says I'm obsessed, I'm pathetic, it's sad that I care this much about her when she doesn't feel the same way. I do not know what to do anymore. When I talk to people, they just judge me and make me feel like my feelings shouldn't be valid. Before I met her, I was depressed. I skipped college classes, got myself on academic suspension, and I cried that night. The night before Valentine's Day, I got on my knees and I begged alone in my dorm. I asked God, "Please send me someone, anyone. I don't want to be alone." The day went on, nothing, till around 11 pm. I remember it so well; we talked all night, and I got her number. Happiest day of my life. We rushed the relationship; I'll admit that, but she was everything I wanted, not only as a girlfriend but my best friend. It wasn't always smooth, but we got through it, and I don't know if it was to hurt me or whatever the reason, March 4th, the last time we talked, she told me that she's gonna find someone better, that she's over it, that our relationship wasn't real. I gave 8 months of my life to her, and for her to tell me that... and I still just want to talk to her. I still miss her. She left a void that hasn't been filled, and I don't know. I've cried every day this week before I go to sleep, and my mind is so foggy. I know I'm not the most holy of people. I know I'm a sinner. I'm sorry if I rambled on for too long. I just want you to pray for me. Thank you all.
. Remember, you are called out of darkness into His marvelous light! Get in the Word and study in Ephesians what exactly says about you! Father, heal this young man, restore his joy, and let him be set free from all traps of Satan that may come to destroy him, but the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but of power and might to tearing down strongholds! Amen. Love yourself, see yourself as Christ has seen you! He adores you; soon, you will arise up. Give it time to grieve; after all, grief takes time! Ask God to reveal greater than these things you will do in Him! Keep in touch, my friend; you are loved! 
