We hear the depth of your pain and despair, and our hearts ache with you. The suffering you’ve endured, losing your child, facing repeated hazing, and being used by others, is a heavy burden to carry. It is not God’s will for you to live under such oppression or to feel that death is the only escape. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came so that you may have life, and have it abundantly (John 10:10). We stand with you in the name of Jesus, who alone can break every chain and set you free.
First, we must address the weight of your words about wanting to be taken to heaven. While we understand the depth of your anguish, we must gently but firmly rebuke any thought that death is the answer. God has a purpose for your life, even in the midst of this suffering. The psalmist cried out, "Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God!" (Psalm 42:5). Your life is precious to Him, and He has not abandoned you. The pain you feel is real, but so is God’s power to redeem and restore. We pray that He would fill you with a fresh hope and a renewed sense of His presence, even now.
You mention that you have not always known or understood, but now you do. This is a powerful testimony of God’s grace at work in you. He has been drawing you closer, even in the darkness. We rejoice that you know He hears you, for the Word says, "The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry" (Psalm 34:15). You are not alone in this battle. The Lord sees every injustice done to you, and He will repay. "Vengeance is mine; I will repay, says the Lord" (Romans 12:19). But we must also caution against bitterness taking root in your heart. Forgiveness does not mean what they did was right, it means you are releasing the burden of anger to God so He can heal you. "Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you" (Ephesians 4:31-32).
You are right that true freedom does not come from medicine or institutionalization, it comes from Jesus. But we must also say this with love: if you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or despair, we urge you to seek godly counsel and support. The Lord often works through His people to bring healing. You are not weak for needing help; you are human, and He has placed others in your life to walk with you. "Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ" (Galatians 6:2).
Now, let us pray with you and for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is in deep pain. Lord, You see every tear, every injustice, every moment of despair. We ask that You would wrap Your arms around them and remind them that they are not forgotten. Break the chains of oppression, Lord, and silence the voices of those who have sought to control and harm them. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we bind every spirit of fear, despair, and hopelessness in Jesus’ name.
Father, we ask that You would fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Where there is darkness, let Your light shine. Where there is pain, let Your healing flow. Where there is loneliness, let them feel Your presence like never before. Lord, we pray for restoration, restore what has been stolen, heal what has been broken, and renew their strength like the eagle’s (Isaiah 40:31). Give them the courage to forgive, not for the sake of their oppressors, but for their own freedom.
We also pray for wisdom and discernment. Show them the steps to take, whether it is seeking godly counsel, finding a safe community of believers, or simply resting in Your presence. Surround them with people who will speak life, truth, and encouragement into their situation. And Lord, if there are areas where they need to surrender control to You, help them to do so, trusting that You are their Good Shepherd who leads them beside still waters (Psalm 23:2).
Most of all, Father, we ask that You would draw them closer to Jesus. Let them know that He is their refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Remind them that their life has purpose and that You are not done with them yet. We declare that joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5), and we pray that this season of darkness would give way to a new dawn of hope and freedom.
We thank You, Lord, that You are faithful and just. You will not leave them nor forsake them (Hebrews 13:5). We trust You to complete the good work You have begun in them (Philippians 1:6). In the powerful name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Friend, we want you to know that your story is not over. The same God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Jesus from the dead, and who has performed miracles throughout history is the same God who is with you now. He is not distant or uncaring, He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). You may feel like you are in the fire, but remember Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. They were thrown into the furnace, but they were not alone. Jesus was there with them, and He is with you too (Daniel 3:25).
We encourage you to hold onto hope. The enemy wants you to believe that this pain is all there is, but God has a future for you that is filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Cling to His promises, even when they feel far away. Speak them out loud, write them down, and let them be the anchor for your soul. And if you ever feel like you cannot go on, remember that God’s grace is sufficient for you, and His power is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).
Lastly, if you have not already, we urge you to surrender your life fully to Jesus Christ. He is the only way to true freedom, true peace, and eternal life. The Bible says, "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9). If you have never made this decision, or if you feel far from Him right now, we invite you to pray this simple prayer:
"Lord Jesus, I come to You just as I am. I confess that I have sinned and fallen short of Your glory. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and that You rose again on the third day. I ask You to forgive me and to come into my heart. I surrender my life to You and ask You to be my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and help me to walk in Your ways. Thank You for saving me. In Jesus’ name, Amen."
If you prayed that prayer for the first time, or if you rededicated your life to Christ, we rejoice with you! The angels in heaven are celebrating (Luke 15:10). We encourage you to find a Bible-believing church where you can grow in your faith and be surrounded by fellow believers who will support and encourage you. You are not alone, and your journey with Christ has only just begun.