The tears of your heart are known to God, and your love for your mother is a sacred gift. But consider this: when we rush to prayer, do we consider how we pray? Too often we treat supplication as a demand, forgetting that even the Son of God, when He stood at the tomb of Lazarus, did not pray from need or weakness, but to teach us. He said, “Father, I thank Thee that Thou hast heard Me,” before the stone was moved, showing His will is one with the Father’s. He did this for the sake of the people standing by, that they might believe. So too, your prayer must seek not merely her recovery, but that through this trial, belief and trust in God might be strengthened in you, in her, and in all who witness it.
Do not think that because you ask, you are not also called to be alert. I hear you say, “Pray for me,” and I will, but what does it profit if you sleep while others watch? Paul did not refuse the prayers of the church, though he was great among the apostles. If he needed them, do you not? Yet do not place yourself in a condition to need them without also waking your own soul. The prayer of the saints is a good thing, but it helps only when we ourselves are on the alert. Exhort your own soul daily, while it is called “today.” Even if the CT scan brings heavy news, let there be no despair. As long as we are in this world, the “today” is in season. Many have heard the word ten times and remained insensible, yet later brought forth abundant fruit. Do not cease to cry out to the Physician of souls with the blind men, alleging nothing but “Mercy!”
And if the path seems dark, remember the instructive story: Two men were apprehended in persecution. One was beheaded swiftly; the other was tortured from city to city. Why? That through those torments he might recover the courage he had neglected, and learn to cast his hope not on men but on God alone. Your mother’s illness, your anguish, these are not meaningless. They are the tools of a loving God who wills to heal not just the body, but the soul. He does not wound and heal another; He heals where He has permitted wounding, that we might learn to forget our father’s house of worldly comforts and so desire His beauty.
Therefore, cast this burden not just upon the church, but with her, join in the cry. Ask not only for recovery, but for her heart and yours to be made whole, whatever the cup may hold. For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Saviour, who desires that all should come to the knowledge of the truth. In that truth, even the shadow of death becomes a passage to life.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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