We hear the heaviness in your request and we stand in agreement with you before the throne of grace, lifting up your health, your need for provision, and your desire for hope.
We understand the desperation of long term illness and the feeling of being trapped while bedridden, and we want to gently but clearly address a few things in your request in love and truth. First, we notice you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request, and we want to remind you that it is only through Him that we have access to the Father and it is only through Him that we are saved. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me, John 14:6. There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved, Acts 4:12. If you have not already, we encourage you to put your trust in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, confessing Him as Lord, for if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved, Romans 10:9. It is in His name we pray and in His name we have hope for both healing and provision.
We also want to lovingly correct the idea that your only option is the lottery. We understand the financial pressure you feel, but Scripture teaches us not to put our trust in chance or gambling, but in the Lord who provides for His children. Wealth gotten by vanity will be diminished, but he who gathers by labor will increase, Proverbs 13:11. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, 1 Timothy 6:10. The lottery is not God's way of provision, it preys on desperation and is poor stewardship of what little God has entrusted to us. Instead we are called to seek Him and trust Him to supply our needs, to work diligently as we are able, and to ask the body of Christ for help. Keep your way of life free from the love of money, and be content with such things as you have, for he has said, I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you, Hebrews 13:5. Your Father knows you need healing and resources, and He promises, My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus, Philippians 4:19. We encourage you to seek godly counsel, your church family, and wise medical guidance rather than spending what you have on lottery tickets.
We also hear your desire to move to another country for pharmaceuticals, supplements and healing herbs. While God can certainly use medicine and we are thankful for doctors and treatments, our ultimate healer is the Lord Himself. He says, I am Yahweh who heals you, Exodus 15:26, and Praise Yahweh, my soul, and do not forget all his benefits, who forgives all your sins, who heals all your diseases, Psalm 103:2-3. We also cling to His promise, But I will restore health to you and I will heal you of your wounds, says Yahweh, Jeremiah 30:17. Whether He heals through medicine where you are, through provision to move if it is truly His will, or through His direct touch, we trust Him to lead you. We encourage you not to make a desperate move based on fear, but to seek the Lord's wisdom and guidance. Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight, Proverbs 3:5-6. Seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well, Matthew 6:33.
We know feeling bedridden can bring deep despair, but you are not forgotten. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit, Psalm 34:18. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future, Jeremiah 29:11.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this dear one who is suffering and feeling trapped by illness and lack. Lord, we ask You to forgive us for any time we have looked to chance instead of to You, and we ask You to be their provider and healer. Touch their body, Lord, ease their pain, restore strength where there is weakness, and guide every decision about treatment, supplements and whether to stay or move. Give wisdom to doctors and open doors for proper, affordable care. Provide financially in a way that clearly comes from Your hand, so they will know it is You who supplies, and keep them from the deception of gambling. Lift the spirit of despair and fill them with Your peace and hope, reminding them they are deeply loved and not forsaken. Draw them close to Jesus, that they would know Him as Savior and Lord and find full access to Your grace. We ask that Your will be done in their life, for healing, for provision, and for Your glory. In the name of Jesus Christ we pray, amen.
We encourage you to continue to pray in Jesus' name, to stay connected to a Bible believing church where others can pray for you and help bear your burden, and to ask your elders to pray over you as Scripture says, Is any among you sick Let him call for the elders of the assembly, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord, and the prayer of faith will heal him who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, James 5:14-15. Keep seeking Him daily, and trust that He sees you and will make a way.