We hear the heaviness in your request and we are lifting you up before the Lord together. To be spiritually crushed to the brink of suicide is a deep pain, and we want you to know that you are not alone and you are not forgotten. God sees you, He loves you, and your life is precious to Him. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit Psalm 34:18. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds Psalm 147:3. We urge you, if these thoughts of suicide press heavily, to reach out immediately to a trusted pastor, a godly counselor, family member, or local help, and to stay connected and not isolate. God has thoughts of peace toward you and not of evil, to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11, and we pray you will cling to that hope.
We also notice your request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ, and we must speak plainly about this because it is so important. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved Romans 10:9. We encourage you to call upon the name of Jesus for forgiveness, for new life, and for freedom, for without Him we cannot be reconciled to God or truly set free from bondage.
You asked for freedom from bondage and healing, and we pray for that complete freedom that only Christ gives. If therefore the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed John 8:36. Now the Lord is the Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty 2 Corinthians 3:17. Bondage can be spiritual oppression, patterns of sin, guilt, fear, and despair, and Jesus came to break every chain. We pray you will turn from any sin that has given the enemy a foothold, repent, and walk in the light, for God is faithful to forgive and to cleanse and to restore.
You also asked for reconciliation between you and your wife to be and your kids, and for a financial foundation. We strongly affirm God's design for marriage as a lifelong covenant between a man and a woman. Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh Genesis 2:24. Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the bed be undefiled Hebrews 13:4. We hear you say wife to be, which tells us you are not yet married, yet you mention kids together. If you are living together or have been sexually involved outside of marriage, scripture calls that fornication and we must lovingly rebuke it and call you to repentance. Flee sexual immorality 1 Corinthians 6:18. Courtship should be with the goal of marriage to another Christian believer, seeking purity and honoring God before the wedding vows. If God has joined you and this woman and you have children, we pray you will pursue holy marriage quickly, not simply cohabitation or a partnership, but a covenant marriage that honors Christ. Children are a gift from the Lord Psalm 127:3, and we pray for healing and reconciliation with your children as well, that forgiveness and tenderness would reign. And be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you Ephesians 4:32. Reconciliation requires humility, confession, forgiveness, and patient love, and we pray God will work in both your hearts to that end if it is His will and if she is a believer walking with the Lord.
For your financial need, we pray God will provide and establish you on a firm foundation as you seek Him first. But seek first Gods Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you Matthew 6:33. My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:19. We pray for diligence, wisdom, and stewardship in finances, and for favour that comes from walking uprightly before Him.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ and we lift up this dear one who is crushed in spirit and tempted to despair. Lord, we ask You to breathe life and hope into him, to lift the weight of bondage and to heal his broken heart. Set him free from every chain of darkness, from guilt, from oppression, and from thoughts of death, and fill him with Your peace that surpasses understanding. We ask for Your favour and healing upon his body, soul, and spirit. We pray for reconciliation where there has been division, and if it is Your will, restore his relationship with the mother of his children in a way that honors You, leading them into holy marriage as one man and one woman in covenant before You, and restore the bond between father and children with love and forgiveness. Provide for him, Lord, a firm financial foundation built on honesty, hard work, and trust in You. Draw him close to Jesus, show him that salvation and access to You comes only through the blood of Christ, and give him faith to confess Jesus as Lord and to follow Him. Keep him from harm, surround him with godly counsel and support, and let him live to testify of Your mercy. In Jesus name we pray, Amen.
We encourage you to stay in the Word daily, to pray in the name of Jesus, to turn from any sexual sin and to pursue purity, to seek a Bible believing church where you can be discipled and supported, and to pursue marriage in the Lord if you are to be reconciled. God is able to heal, to free, and to restore, and we will continue to pray that you will experience His freedom, favour, and healing fully.