Your cry has come before the Lord and we have heard the many burdens you have declared before Him, and this is well, for the way of the believer is to declare his ways unto God and know that He hears. You have done as the Psalmist did when he said, I have declared my ways and Thou heardest me, teach me Thy statutes. To live at a distance from God is the way of the world, but the child of God recognizes Him everywhere, in every checkered path of good or ill, and has communion with Him wherever he goes.
You first ask that you may be taught to love Him with all your mind and soul and body and heart. This is the great desire of every renewed heart, and the answer is not in striving in your own strength, but in being filled with the Spirit. You thought perhaps that deliverance must come from yourself, but it is God that worketh in us to will and to do of His good pleasure. Pray then not only for instruction, but for the Spirit to shed abroad the love of God in your heart, for when the Holy Spirit enables the mind to perceive the character of God, the heart cannot refuse to love Him. He can gird you with spiritual strength and make you to forget your poverty and misery, and to burn with love for Him who first loved you. Ask Him to teach you, and He will.
Concerning the government attorney and the deed of sale, and the fear that presses upon your mind that the government may pull out of the offer if you insist upon the clauses concerning the illegal settlers, hear the word of the Lord, Fear thou not for I am with thee, be not dismayed for I am thy God, I will strengthen thee, yea I will help thee, yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. This fear came into man's heart with sin, and it haunts even good men, lest they lose all they have in the world. But immutability itself is with you to be your succor, and all the attributes of God are your treasury. You have verbally told what is true, and your attorney wisely would put it in writing to prevent future issues. Commit this also to Him and say, Thy will be done. A waiting God waits that He may be gracious, and He kept back the sword of justice long for us. Trust not in the arm of flesh, nor in the changeableness of the creature, but wait only upon God.
In the same way you are hesitant to press your attorney concerning the relatives of the settlers not included in the eviction order, and a month has passed with no news. Here again the Lord would have you wait only upon Him. God's waiting people wait only upon God. They do not rely upon themselves nor upon their own experiences. It is right to inquire with gentleness and patience, but leave the outcome with Him who does all things well. If it be His will to grant a complete eviction, He can give wisdom to your counsel where there seems to be no remedy. If there be no way, He will show another path. Continue in prayer, and leave the timing to Him who never comes too late.
For the neighbor who claims rights without claim, and the proposed joint sale to the company that surveyed the land and has not updated you, we join you in praying, if it be the Lord's will, that He would open the way. The man who fully trusts in God is not afraid of temporal trouble. Whether the sale goes through or not, your inheritance is not in that lot alone, for everything in this earth is His, as you have rightly confessed. Submit it to Him, and let His will be done.
For your siblings who are not speaking to one another, we pray that the Lord will soften hearts and bring reconciliation. Know this, there is forgiveness with Him that He may be feared. Stand in imagination on Calvary and look into the wounds of Jesus, and see what forgiveness cost. There is forgiveness with God for the chief of sinners, a divine forgiveness, complete and free, because He Himself has said, I, even I, am He that blotteth out thy transgressions. None fear and love and bless God so much as those who know they are forgiven. As you have been forgiven, so may grace be given to your eldest sister and brother to forgive one another. Pray that the same Spirit who works submissiveness of mind, who makes a man content to be last if he may glorify God, would work in your family.
You have submitted your land, your finances with their failures, your health, and your relationships to Him. This is right and good. And for your health, waiting for the HMO release for colonoscopy and endoscopy, and fearing because of symptoms and because your mother died of this disease, we would point you to Him who is the end of fear. When God drew near at Sinai, men trembled, and when the angel came at Bethlehem men were sore afraid, but the message was, Fear not, for God is love. The angels veil their faces with holy fear, yet perfect love casteth out slavish dread. There are some who through fear of death are all their lifetime subject to bondage, but Christ came to deliver such. Whether the report be good or ill, you are upheld by the right hand of His righteousness, and not one of His promises can be of none effect to the soul that trusts in Jesus alone.
Let us pray together. O Heavenly Father, we thank Thee that there is forgiveness with Thee through the blood of Jesus Christ Thy Son, and that salvation is in Him alone. Teach this Thy child to love Thee with all heart and soul and mind and strength, and fill Thy servant with Thy Spirit. We commit to Thy sovereign will the deed of sale, the decision of the government, the wisdom needed for the eviction order, and the sale with the neighbor. Grant wisdom to the attorney and peace to this anxious mind. Reconcile these siblings and soften every hard heart among them. Thou knowest the finances and the failing dealings, and Thou art owner of all the earth, provide as Thou seest fit. Lay Thy hand upon this body, calm all fear of death, and let the coming tests be in Thy hands, that whatever the outcome, Thy name may be feared and loved. We ask all in the name of Jesus Christ our only hope, Amen.