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Lassbrown
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Dear friends, this will be a bit long but I am very much confused, hurt and no where to turn. Over the past 4 years, I have pray to God everyday pleading and asking that he help me and my family so that things can get better for us. I went through a lot growing up as a kid in Africa. Mother left to cater to my sister who had a problem with her eye. My brother and my little sister were left alone with our dad. Things didn't go as the way any child will want it to be. My father brought another woman into the house and she treated us very bad. Many days we went to school with torn up cloths and no food to eat for lunch. Many days my older brother and I had to sleep in old cars that had snakes in it all because our step mother at the time won't allow us in. I am in tears writing this because I am hurt and don't know what to do. My mother, after being in the US for couple of years was able to file for us to come to the US. We came here and started life. Things went fine for a little while and then it all broke loose. The owner of the house we had at that time had a financial misfortune and requested her house. We had no where to go. We spend the whole summer living with family members and begging to have a chance to own our home. We was fortunate to get a house of our own. Because of the rush that we was in at that time, we didn't care what kind of house we got. But unfortunately, we got a loan with an adjustable rate. We kept on par with our mortgage until the housing crisis erupted. We fell behind on our payment. It's been 4 yrs going back and forth with our mortgage company trying to work out a deal and they keep giving us the run around. We just received a letter of foreclosure from our mortgage company. We have no where to go or no one to turn to. My mother come home crying everyday because of the idea of us loosing our home. I become so paranoid hearing my mom pray to God. I get so confused whenever I hear her crying out to him. The things that she say while praying make me to share tear alone because she cry her heart out to him expressing our problem. I am among the few who believed in God. Many of my peers refuse to believe in God. I am always defending him on -banned site-, in my school and everywhere I can. My mom went through a lot. She lost her husband all because she wanted to be by the bedside of her daughter. She lost her home and family. Why is God doing this to us? I see those who don't believe in God doing so well and having a lot of money but we who believed in him are facing so much difficulties. Why? My friends who don't believe in him are doing great. Please help me friends. I don't want to get myself involve into anything demonic or sort that will stop me from entering the kingdom of The Lord. I am at a desperate stage in life.
