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Michael
Guest
I don't know what to say. I am just kind of over everything and tired of suffering. I don't want to be in this world anymore. I know that sounds bad but I am just so tired of struggling and suffering. It's as if that's all I was made for.
In this past year I've lost the girl I loved. Not only that but she became the opposite of who she once was and the other day on her birthday even threatened me with a restraining order for simply writing her a Happy Birthday letter. I haven't stalked her, abused her, or did anything that should ever warrant that cruelty.
My new job is terrible. Working overnight at Home Depot, is just so torturous to me. It pays little, it's dirty, they turn off the air condition. and every night I've worked there I have gotten sick and threw up. I'm sore all over, cut up from boxes and other things, and am forced to sleep the whole day away to where all I do is wake up and get ready for another night of torture.
Why would God allow all this misfortune into my life? What did I do to deserve all this? I always thought I was close to God but it seems like everything that happens to me, even if it appears to be a blessing, turns into a disaster. I just want God to end this suffering. I had a good life I was working towards and it's all gone now. There is just misery. That is all I see. That is all I feel. Physical, mental, and spiritual. Just pain.
This isn't a threat or a promise. It's simply how I feel. I just want the suffering to stop and I needed to get this out.
In this past year I've lost the girl I loved. Not only that but she became the opposite of who she once was and the other day on her birthday even threatened me with a restraining order for simply writing her a Happy Birthday letter. I haven't stalked her, abused her, or did anything that should ever warrant that cruelty.
My new job is terrible. Working overnight at Home Depot, is just so torturous to me. It pays little, it's dirty, they turn off the air condition. and every night I've worked there I have gotten sick and threw up. I'm sore all over, cut up from boxes and other things, and am forced to sleep the whole day away to where all I do is wake up and get ready for another night of torture.
Why would God allow all this misfortune into my life? What did I do to deserve all this? I always thought I was close to God but it seems like everything that happens to me, even if it appears to be a blessing, turns into a disaster. I just want God to end this suffering. I had a good life I was working towards and it's all gone now. There is just misery. That is all I see. That is all I feel. Physical, mental, and spiritual. Just pain.
This isn't a threat or a promise. It's simply how I feel. I just want the suffering to stop and I needed to get this out.
