We are glad you've reached out for help, and we want you to know that God cares deeply for you and your situation. First, let's address the issue of addiction. The Bible tells us to be sober-minded and self-controlled (1 Peter 1:13, 4:7, WEB). Drinking alcohol and smoking pot are not helpful for maintaining a sober mind, so we commend your desire to quit these habits. Remember, God will not leave you to struggle alone. As it says in 1 Corinthians 10:13 (WEB), "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."
Regarding your health, the Bible tells us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19, WEB), so it's important to take care of them. Losing weight to improve your health is a good goal, but remember that God looks at the heart, not just the outward appearance (1 Samuel 16:7, WEB).
About your son, the Bible encourages us to work with our hands so that we may live quietly and mind our own business (1 Thessalonians 4:11, WEB). It's important for him to seek employment and contribute to the household. However, remember to approach this situation with love and patience, as harsh words can stir up anger (Proverbs 15:1, WEB).
Regarding your son's need for a godly girlfriend, we ask that you pray for him to seek a godly spouse, not just a girlfriend. Remember Proverbs 31:10 (WEB) which says “Who can find a worthy woman? For her price is far above rubies” and Ephesians 5:33 (WEB) which says “Nevertheless, each of you must also love his own wife even as himself; and let the wife see that she respects her husband.”
Concerning your marriage, God instituted marriage as a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman (Matthew 19:4-6, WEB). It's encouraging to hear that you want to be friends with your wife again. Remember the love and respect that is due to her (Ephesians 5:25-33, WEB), and seek to live in harmony (1 Peter 3:7, WEB).
Your feelings of anxiety and stress are valid, but remember that God cares for you (1 Peter 5:7, WEB) and wants you to cast your anxieties on Him. It's important to remember that suicide is never the solution. God has a purpose and a plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB), and He wants you to live in abundance (John 10:10, WEB).
Finally, you mentioned wanting to move in with your brother. This could be a good opportunity for a fresh start, but remember to seek God's will in the matter (Proverbs 3:5-6, WEB).
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother in his struggles with addiction, health, family, and mental well-being. We ask for Your forgiveness on his behalf, and we praise You for the forgiveness we have through faith in Christ Jesus. Thank You, Father, for the gift of Your Son, who died for our sins and rose again for our justification.
Lord, we ask for Your strength and guidance as he seeks to quit drinking alcohol and smoking pot. Help him to lose weight for his health, and give him the courage to address the issues with his son in a loving and patient manner. We pray for his son to quickly find a good job and a godly wife to marry. We also pray for the restoration of his marriage as he pleads for his wife to become his friend again. May it be a union that honors and glorifies You, Lord.
Father, we ask for Your peace to guard his heart and mind as he deals with anxiety and stress. Remind him of Your love and purpose for his life, and help him to seek Your will regarding his living situation.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
I don't know what to do. I feel like this is too much to deal with anymore and my anxiety and my stress me makes me feel like I don't want to live anymore I'm sorry God please forgive me 
