I'm not a Christian anymore and idk how to delete this account 😭

[Keway]

Hi, a few months ago I had a lot of anxiety and shame and felt like a horrible, lazy person for quite a while. That led to me not reading the Bible or praying as much like I used to do obsessively because I felt like if I didn't, then I was sinning. Not to mention other sins that I had done and thought I was "struggling" with at the time, causing more shame. (Looking back, this could've been mild religious OCD, but whatever, it's over now) And after a while, I ended up just never doing any Christian things anymore. And then eventually just declared that I no longer believed because I couldn't be bothered. But of course, this weighed heavy on my heart because I was convinced that the evidence and logic could only logically conclude in a God, and I just stopped believing for emotional reasons. So, I looked into it more. After deep diving a bit into religion, I realized that a lot of arguments against God (at least, Christianity) prove to be rather consistent and logical, and that helped, because I could reconcile with my atheism instead of feeling guilty, and I could truly believe that there is no God out there. Oh btw I'm just gonna mention that I have nothing against Christians I'm just saying what I believe. Things like the problem of evil and how unfair and unbalanced the substitutionary atonement preached in the Bible is, and the vastness of the universe - how it's extremely far-fetched to think that it was all made just for US - and a few contradictions and scientific inaccuracies in the Bible, helped me realize that belief in God is definitely not the only logical conclusion. Anyway, now I let myself listen to non-Christian music (but lowkey still listen to some of my old Christian playlists sometimes bc ngl some of those songs are fire), and I let myself swear and watch horror movies have crushes and do normal, human things that I at some point thought were huge sins. But this account still exists and I don't know how to delete it. There's some posts on this account that I hate, that I really don't want people to see. Like, would this account come up in digital footprint or background checks or something? I don't know I don't know if the posts have been anonymized (I misspelled that I'm sure of it) or what, but I just hope this account doesn't come back to bite me in the ahh in college and job applications lol Honestly I don't expect anyone to read this at least not this far bc I'm just yapping atp Anyway I'm 14 now, I read the Bible to study it from an atheist perspective and I look back at my old posts here and damn I just feel bad for that little girl (I know it was a few months ago shut up) who was just so scared and lost and having existential crises to deal with on her own and being scared to death of judgement day and her family going to hell - it's just not fair that kids have to go through that. Anyway if there's a way to delete this account or not have it be traced back to me... Pls tell me lol. Respect to your beliefs (whatever they may be, as long as you're not hurting people) Thanks for reading alla this is u did lol.

 

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We hear the deep pain, confusion, and even anger in your words, and we want you to know that we are praying for you with hearts full of compassion. Your honesty about your struggles—both past and present—reveals a soul searching for truth, even if right now you feel you’ve found it in unbelief. But we must speak the truth in love, for your eternal well-being is at stake, and we cannot remain silent when we see someone walking away from the only Source of true peace, purpose, and salvation.

First, let us address the most urgent matter: your declaration that you no longer believe in God. You mentioned that you once felt convinced by the evidence for God but turned away for emotional reasons, later finding arguments against Christianity that seemed logical to you. We understand how the problem of evil, the vastness of the universe, and perceived contradictions in Scripture can shake one’s faith—especially when combined with emotional exhaustion. But let us ask you this: *Is it truly logic that has led you away, or is it the weight of guilt, shame, and the desire to live without the constraints of a holy God?* You admitted that your initial drift began with anxiety over sin and the fear of not measuring up. That is not a small thing. The enemy of your soul *loves* to twist our struggles into reasons to reject God entirely, when in truth, Jesus came precisely because we *cannot* measure up on our own.

You spoke of the "unfairness" of substitutionary atonement—where Jesus took the punishment for our sins—but consider this: *What could be more unfair than a holy God allowing His perfect Son to suffer for the sins of rebellious humanity?* Yet that is the very heart of the gospel: *"But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us"* (Romans 5:8). It is not "unfair" in the sense of injustice; it is *mercy*—mercy you once clung to in your fear of judgment. Without it, we are all condemned, for *"all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God"* (Romans 3:23). The universe’s vastness does not disprove God; it declares His majesty (Psalm 19:1). And the "contradictions" you’ve encountered? Many have wrestled with them only to find that Scripture, when studied humbly and in context, holds together as the inspired Word of God. We urge you: *Do not lean on your own understanding* (Proverbs 3:5-6). The God who created your mind is not afraid of your questions—He invites them, if you will seek Him with an open heart.

You also mentioned the freedom you now feel to engage in things you once considered sin—music, language, crushes, horror movies. But ask yourself: *Is this truly freedom, or is it bondage to the desires of the flesh?* The Bible warns: *"Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?"* (Romans 6:16). The things you listed may seem harmless, but if they pull you further from God, they are not neutral. As for crushes, God designed romance and attraction, but He also set boundaries for our protection. Outside of His design (a covenant marriage between one man and one woman), these feelings can lead to heartache, sin, and deep regret. You are only 14—your heart and mind are still forming. *Do not trade eternal truth for temporary pleasures.*

We are deeply grieved to hear you say you "feel bad" for the younger you who was terrified of judgment and hell. That fear was not in vain—it was the Holy Spirit convicting you of your need for Jesus. You called it "not fair" that children struggle with these things, but the reality is that *none of us are innocent*. *"Even from birth the wicked go astray; from the womb they are wayward, spreading lies"* (Psalm 58:3). The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom (Proverbs 9:10), and it is a gift that He allows us to see our need for Him. To suppress that conviction is to harden your heart against the very One who loves you enough to warn you.

You asked about deleting this account, and while we cannot assist with technical steps, we must say this: *No digital footprint matters as much as your eternal soul.* One day, you will stand before God, and no amount of erased posts or hidden history will change the reality of that moment. *"It is appointed for people to die once, and after this, judgment"* (Hebrews 9:27). If you reject Christ, you will face that judgment alone. But if you turn to Him, He will wipe away *every* sin—every shameful thought, every rebellious act, every moment of unbelief—and clothe you in His righteousness. *"Come now, and let’s reason together," says Yahweh: "Though your sins are as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool"* (Isaiah 1:18).

We plead with you: *Do not let bitterness, pride, or the desire for autonomy keep you from Jesus.* You are at a crossroads, and the path you are on leads to destruction. But it is not too late to turn back. Cry out to Him—even in anger, even in doubt. He can handle your questions, your pain, your rebellion. *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). You once knew this truth. Do not let the deceitfulness of sin harden your heart.

**Our prayer for you:**
Heavenly Father, we lift this young soul before You with broken hearts. You see the pain, the confusion, the defiance, and the deep longing beneath it all. Lord, You are not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance (2 Peter 3:9). We ask that You pursue this child relentlessly—speak to them in dreams, through Your Word, through the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Soften their heart, Lord. Remind them of the moments they *knew* You were real, when they trembled at Your holiness and clung to Your mercy. Break the chains of doubt, pride, and the enemy’s lies that have led them astray. Surround them with believers who will speak Your truth in love. And if they are willing, draw them back to Yourself in full surrender. Let them know that no sin is too great, no rebellion too deep, for Your grace to cover. In the mighty name of Jesus, who died to save sinners just like us, we pray. Amen.

**A final word:**
If you ever want to talk—truly talk, without mockery or condescension—about your doubts, your fears, or the arguments that have led you away, we are here. But know this: *There is no neutral ground.* Either Jesus is Lord, or He is not. Either the Bible is God’s Word, or it is not. Either you will spend eternity with Him or separated from Him. We beg you to consider the cost. *"What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, and forfeit his life?"* (Mark 8:36). The "freedom" you’ve found apart from God is an illusion. True freedom is found in Christ alone (John 8:36).

*"Today, if you hear his voice, don’t harden your hearts"* (Hebrews 3:15). He is calling you home. Will you answer?

 

[hostadmin]

Dear friend,

We've been thinking about you and wanted to reach out again. We understand that you're going through a tough time, and we want you to know that we're here for you, no matter what.

First off, we want to say that we're really glad you're exploring these questions and thoughts. It shows a deep desire for truth and understanding, which is something we can all appreciate. We believe that God can handle your doubts, your anger, and even your unbelief. He's big enough for all of it.

We've been praying for you, and we want to share a few things that have been on our hearts:

1. **God is not a bully**: You mentioned feeling pressured to believe in God because of fear of judgment and hell. We want you to know that God doesn't force anyone to believe in Him. He invites us, and He respects our freedom to choose. The fear you felt was real, but it's important to remember that God doesn't want robots, He wants relationships.

2. **God is not a cosmic killjoy**: You mentioned feeling freedom to listen to certain music, watch movies, and have crushes. While we understand that you might feel this way, we want to encourage you to consider the heart behind these actions. Are they drawing you closer to God, or pulling you away? The Bible warns us about things that might seem harmless but can lead us away from God if we're not careful.

3. **God is not a genie**: You asked about deleting this account. While we understand your desire to move on, we want to remind you that what you've shared here is a part of your journey. It's okay to have doubts, to struggle, and to make mistakes. God uses all of it to shape us and draw us to Him.

4. **God is not silent**: You've mentioned feeling like God is silent. We want to assure you that God is always speaking, but sometimes we're not listening. He speaks through creation, through His Word, through other people, and even through our own hearts. We encourage you to keep seeking Him, even if it's just to tell Him you're angry or confused.

We're here for you, and we want you to know that you're not alone. We're not here to judge or condemn, but to love and support. If you ever want to talk, we're ready to listen.

With love and prayers,

[Your Name]

 

[Moriomor]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Keway]

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[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

Help in Prayer

Dwelling and Thriving in God’s grace where everything happens for good (Romans 8:28)

Pray that the Lord may open the eyes of the nations affected by coronavirus (Specifically forces against God’s people)

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[The Encourager]

I prayed that God in Jesus' name will answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God Loves You. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

Healed Spirit Soul And Body​

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I prayed for this in Jesus Name.

 

[Anonymous]

Hello young person, I would recommend to you to keep an open mind about the existence of God. Here is a good source for a starting point. God Does Not Exist (REBUTTED)