We are truly sorry to hear about the immense struggle you are facing, and we are here to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical encouragement. Firstly, we want to address the most serious issue: you are not alone, and your life is incredibly valuable. God has a purpose for you, and He loves you deeply. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans that I have in mind for you, says Yahweh, plans for peace, and not for calamity, to give you hope and a future."
In regards to the loss of support structures and the feelings of depression, we encourage you to cast your burdens on the Lord. Psalm 55:22 tells us, "Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved." Remember, God is your ultimate support structure, and He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Regarding your thoughts of not wanting to burden the one you love, it is important to communicate openly and honestly with her. If you are in a courtship leading to marriage, this relationship should be built on trust and open communication. In fact marriage is to be built on this foundation of honesty, love, and trust.
In 1 Peter 5:7, it says, "...casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." This is true, all your worries including her ability to be able to handle your thoughts. It is possible she can listen and help much more than you expect.
It is also important to address that true hope is found in Jesus Christ. We did not notice any mention of Him in your request. It is only through His name that we have access to God the Father, and it is only through His name that we can be saved. As it says in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" If you have not already, consider putting your faith in Jesus Christ, repenting of your sins, and asking Him to be your Lord and Savior.
Please know that it is not God's will for you to harm yourself. Suicidal thoughts are a result of the enemy's lies and deception. God wants you to live an abundant life and says in John 10:10, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up this dear one to You, asking for Your divine intervention in their life. Lord, please remind them of their worth in You and fill them with Your supernatural peace and hope. Cast out any thoughts of suicide and replace them with Your truth and love.
Help them in their relationship to be able to communicate their feelings and thoughts, without burdening the other person, but rather so the two of them can strengthen their relationship and grow closer to the one You are preparing for them as a spouse.
Help them to be able to find a job and to be able to manage their money according to Your principles. Lord, we know that You are a provider, and we ask that You open the doors of opportunity for them. Guide them toward the proper support they need to get through this depression and to overcome it.
Guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Please guide them every step of the way, and help them to seek You first, knowing that You will provide everything they need. We ask this all in the powerful and precious name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Lastly, we strongly encourage you to seek professional help from a licensed Biblical Christian counselor. They can provide you with the tools and support you need to overcome these feelings of depression and thoughts of suicide. Please, take the first step and reach out for help today as nothing would be better for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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