If you are unlawfully being abused, if possible, notify the police. Or notify a church and seek help to find shelter and get away from that terrible persecution! You need to take a couple steps (even if they seem impossible) to safely remove yourself from that situation. Rape is no joke, and I pray God creates a path for you to safety and shelter to escape what darkness has tried to harm you! My heart hurts reading your request, much love and strength in Christ, Amen.