We hear the deep sorrow and conviction in your heart, and we want you to know that what you are feeling is the Holy Spirit working in you, drawing you back to repentance and restoration. The fact that you recognize your sin and feel this weight of guilt is evidence that God has not abandoned you—He is calling you home. You are not an orphan; you are a child of God who has strayed, but your Heavenly Father longs for you to return to Him.
The sins you’ve described—drug use, sexual immorality, and divination—are serious in the sight of God, but they are not beyond His forgiveness. The Bible is clear that *all* have sinned and fallen short of God’s glory (Romans 3:23), and the wages of sin is death (Romans 6:23). Yet, the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. You are not beyond redemption. The enemy wants you to believe that Jesus is "done with you," but that is a lie from the pit of hell. Jesus said, *"All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out"* (John 6:37). If you return to Him with a broken and contrite heart, He *will* receive you.
You mentioned feeling unwelcome at church, but we urge you not to let the perceived reactions of others keep you from seeking God. The body of Christ is imperfect, and sometimes people fail to show the love and grace they should. However, the church is not your judge—God is. And He has already provided the way for your forgiveness through the blood of Jesus. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9). This is not just a suggestion; it is a promise from God Himself. Your sins are not too great for His mercy. Remember the apostle Paul, who persecuted and killed Christians before his conversion? He called himself the "chief of sinners" (1 Timothy 1:15), yet God used him mightily for His kingdom. If God can redeem Paul, He can redeem you.
The Parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32) is a beautiful picture of God’s heart for you right now. The son took his inheritance, squandered it in sinful living, and found himself broken and starving. When he returned home, expecting to be treated as a hired servant, his father *ran* to him, embraced him, and celebrated his return. That is how your Heavenly Father feels about you. He is not waiting to scold you or reject you—He is waiting to restore you, clothe you in righteousness, and rejoice over you.
Divination is an abomination to the Lord (Deuteronomy 18:10-12), and sexual immorality and drug abuse defile the temple of the Holy Spirit, which is your body (1 Corinthians 6:18-20). These sins open doors to spiritual oppression, and we strongly urge you to renounce them completely. Turn away from these things and turn toward Jesus. Destroy any objects or ties related to divination or occult practices, and flee from sexual sin. *"No one who is born of God practices sin, because God’s seed remains in him; and he can’t sin, because he is born of God"* (1 John 3:9). This doesn’t mean you’ll never stumble, but it means your life should no longer be characterized by willful, unrepentant sin.
Now is the time to surrender fully to Jesus. Confess your sins specifically to Him, ask for His forgiveness, and invite Him to cleanse you and fill you with His Holy Spirit. If you have not already, we encourage you to share your struggle with a mature, trusted believer—perhaps a pastor or elder in your church—who can pray with you, hold you accountable, and guide you in discipleship. Isolation is dangerous; God designed us for community. *"Confess your offenses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The insistent prayer of a righteous person is powerfully effective"* (James 5:16).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother, who is broken and repentant. Lord, we thank You that You do not despise a broken and contrite heart (Psalm 51:17). We ask that You would forgive him completely for the sins he has committed—drug use, sexual immorality, and divination. Wash him clean by the blood of Jesus and restore him to fellowship with You. Break every chain of addiction, lust, and occult influence in his life, and fill him with Your Holy Spirit. Surround him with godly brothers and sisters who will walk with him in this season of restoration.
Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell him he is beyond Your grace. Remind him that Your mercy is new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23) and that nothing can separate him from Your love (Romans 8:38-39). Give him the strength to turn away from sin and to walk in obedience to Your Word. Help him to find a church home where he can grow, serve, and be discipled.
Lord, we pray that You would renew his mind (Romans 12:2) and give him a hunger for Your Word. Let him experience the joy of Your salvation again and the peace that comes from being reconciled to You. Use his testimony to bring others out of darkness and into Your marvelous light.
We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, who gave His life so that we might be forgiven and set free. Amen.
Brother, your story is not over. God is not done with you—He is just getting started. The road ahead may not be easy, but it is worth it. Stay close to Jesus, immerse yourself in Scripture, and surround yourself with believers who will encourage you in your walk. *"Don’t you know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run like that, that you may win. Every man who strives in the games exercises self-control in all things. Now they do it to receive a corruptible crown, but we an incorruptible. I therefore run like that, as not uncertainly. I fight like that, as not beating the air, but I beat my body and bring it into submission, lest by any means, after I have preached to others, I myself should be rejected"* (1 Corinthians 9:24-27).
You are loved. You are forgiven. Now go forward in the freedom and victory that Christ has won for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
