wond3rwoman
Disciple of Prayer
I have been with this guy for 4 yrs ago and we broke up a year ago and reconnected last night but only to find out he still feels the same. I still love him and he still loves me but he is fighting what is real and pushing me away. I cannot help how I feel, it is like fireworks battling inside me. I want all of you prayer warriors to pray for me, us and forgiveness. Let him be reminded, let his mind flow with the good memories we had. Pray he will find his way back to us. It has been a year and we both still single but it is like no matter how we try the universe keeping us apart. Pray he will come back and we will rekindle our love. Pray for us please. I don't know what else to do. I have been praying and I want to respect his wishes but it all seems fake ....like he deliberately pushing me away. I don't know why.....I ask him and he gets mad. It is so hard to start over especially knowing how you feel about someone else. I have let him go and suddenly he came back last night after a year of not seeing each other. And it feel like we been together all the time. We in this thug of war with our hearts and it is killing me because I don't know how to pretend anymore; how to ignore how I feel about him. Again if prayers work then please pray you’re hardest pray for me. Hardest thing is missing and loving someone who is alive. Who is right there and you have to play along or pretend, it eats you alive. so whatever healing pray that'll make him see that. That would give this love a fighting chance. Please pray and I thank you. The connection is there and I am not silly. I know I can find someone else and so can he. But it like we stuck apart but can't be together. We miss each other so much.....but he is fighting the ifs. I just feel like we both give up so much and we are both going through a lot. It surprise me how strong we still feel about each other, He say he don’t but his mouth was saying one thing and his body was saying another, He was relieved to he was relieved to hear I was dating and as I was to him. But I don't know what is keeping us apart. Pray your hardest pray so we can find our way back to each other....I feel empty and shallow after seeing him last night. I am so angry with God because he was the foundation of our relationship. But to watch us battle being apart is taking a toll on me. It is hard. so I am asking for strength to move on and let it be .....or let him stop hardening his heart from me. True love only come around once....I wish I could change this feeling, But Pray for me and him - his name is ###
