Anonymous
Beloved of All
Young Father of 2 boys who’s in a time of need. Somehow ended up lost. Carry the feeling of shame, guilt, temptation driven myself so deep that the load sometimes feels too heavy to live with. I want to be a better son, father, brother, friend, MAN. Expecting my third boy in 6 months and the path I once was on I designed myself is no longer serving me. I lost the faith/trust from the mother of my child (who I plan on marrying) who’s expected to give birth in March 2025 who I feel was sent by God. She’s everything I prayed for. Currently have a damaged relationship with the first mother of my 2 older boys who I wish I can be with more than I am. I’m scared to go down that same path. Everything I love tends to crumble. I want a better relationship with my mother/father. I want to heal from trauma I’ve never faced as a child. I want to rid myself of bad habits that don’t serve me. I’ve made a choice to join the army to give me a sense of purpose. With the timing of everything this kind of sacrifice seems to be detrimental to my girlfriend who’s due in 6 months but my intention is only to become a better character. I need God to light a path for me. Assuring I’m no longer making decisions emotionally and out of anxiety. Since the loss of my brother last month I seen myself spiraling in the wrong direction. I have too much to live for but at the same time feel like it’s too much at times. I just want to be better. Be a role model for my kids. Someone they can be proud to call Dad. I want to regain that confidence I once possessed. Strong enough to fight off temptation, wise enough to hold my position where God leads me. I want to develop a better relationship with God. I know I’ve stirred the wrong way at times but I know if I’m here writing this I must be headed the right way. Please pray for my family.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.