Silas
Beloved of All
Thank you for sharing these goals so openly. It is clear you have a desire to accomplish things for good in Jesus' name, and that is a beautiful starting point. But as important as these milestones are, the real axis upon which your whole life revolves is your personal relationship with God. When that relationship is thriving and set apart for His purposes, everything else begins to fall into its proper place. If it gets neglected or reduced to a checklist of requests, even genuine achievements can leave you feeling off balance.
Each of us has been given a ministry, a calling uniquely fitted to the way God has made us. Yours will not look like anyone else’s, and it may well involve education, public platforms, or a spouse. But those things are not the ministry themselves; they are tools He may use as you labor together with Him. The question to sit with is this: if the Lord chose not to grant any of these things according to your preferred schedule, would your joy still be anchored in Him? A loving relationship with God frees you from a performance-driven faith. He does not want a servant bound by deadlines but a child who trusts His timing enough to say, “Not my will, but Yours be done.”
Your desire for a girlfriend a year or two from now is a good desire, but guard your heart from turning it into an obsession that drowns out everything else. A Christ-centered relationship is not just companionship; it is two people, joint heirs of the grace of life, dwelling together so that their prayers are not hindered and their lives become a shared offering. Moral purity is not a barrier to love but a joyful surrender of your body as an instrument of righteousness. When that foundation is firm, you can rest and let God write that story in His way.
The thought of a degree designed especially for those on the autism spectrum suggests you have a heart to serve others out of your own lived experience. That may very well be a significant piece of the ministry God is unfolding through you. But remember that the most effective work flows from a life that has been proven: through pureness, patience, kindness, and love unfeigned. Those qualities are shaped more in seasons of hidden faithfulness than in any degree program. Let Him prepare you first, and the education will serve its purpose rather than becoming your identity.
And as for national television, a platform can be a powerful place to do good. Yet fame is a dangerous master. Seek to be hidden in Christ now. If He ever raises you to a public stage, He will also give the grace to handle it without it consuming you. The truest ministry often happens in quiet acts of intercession and service that only heaven sees.
So bring these goals to Him, but lay them on the altar. Tell Him, “Here are my desires. I surrender them to Your purpose. Let me fulfill the ministry You give me, whether before many or before few.” When your life is set apart for His use and your first love is simply abiding in Him, you will discover that He either answers these prayers in His perfect way or exchanges them for something far better. In the end, the deepest longing is not for a degree, a broadcast, or even a relationship, but to know and walk in the purpose for which He made you: fellowship with Him. Press into that, and everything else will take care of itself.
Each of us has been given a ministry, a calling uniquely fitted to the way God has made us. Yours will not look like anyone else’s, and it may well involve education, public platforms, or a spouse. But those things are not the ministry themselves; they are tools He may use as you labor together with Him. The question to sit with is this: if the Lord chose not to grant any of these things according to your preferred schedule, would your joy still be anchored in Him? A loving relationship with God frees you from a performance-driven faith. He does not want a servant bound by deadlines but a child who trusts His timing enough to say, “Not my will, but Yours be done.”
Your desire for a girlfriend a year or two from now is a good desire, but guard your heart from turning it into an obsession that drowns out everything else. A Christ-centered relationship is not just companionship; it is two people, joint heirs of the grace of life, dwelling together so that their prayers are not hindered and their lives become a shared offering. Moral purity is not a barrier to love but a joyful surrender of your body as an instrument of righteousness. When that foundation is firm, you can rest and let God write that story in His way.
The thought of a degree designed especially for those on the autism spectrum suggests you have a heart to serve others out of your own lived experience. That may very well be a significant piece of the ministry God is unfolding through you. But remember that the most effective work flows from a life that has been proven: through pureness, patience, kindness, and love unfeigned. Those qualities are shaped more in seasons of hidden faithfulness than in any degree program. Let Him prepare you first, and the education will serve its purpose rather than becoming your identity.
And as for national television, a platform can be a powerful place to do good. Yet fame is a dangerous master. Seek to be hidden in Christ now. If He ever raises you to a public stage, He will also give the grace to handle it without it consuming you. The truest ministry often happens in quiet acts of intercession and service that only heaven sees.
So bring these goals to Him, but lay them on the altar. Tell Him, “Here are my desires. I surrender them to Your purpose. Let me fulfill the ministry You give me, whether before many or before few.” When your life is set apart for His use and your first love is simply abiding in Him, you will discover that He either answers these prayers in His perfect way or exchanges them for something far better. In the end, the deepest longing is not for a degree, a broadcast, or even a relationship, but to know and walk in the purpose for which He made you: fellowship with Him. Press into that, and everything else will take care of itself.
