We hear the deep cry of your heart and we join with you in bringing it before the Lord, for He hears even when words are hard to find and thoughts feel clouded. You ask can God raise the dead, and we declare with you that yes, He can, for Jesus said, I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will still live, even if he dies. John 11:25. The same power that raised Christ from the grave is able to breathe life into what feels dead within you now. Scripture says you were made alive when you were dead in transgressions and sins, even when we were dead through our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ. Ephesians 2:1, Ephesians 2:5. We pray that He will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you. Ezekiel 36:26.
You feel worthless because you have no work, no house of your own, and no children yet, and you wonder if Jesus loves you. We gently rebuke that lie from the enemy, for your worth is not measured by possessions, employment, or even family status, but by the price Jesus paid for you on the cross. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14. You are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works. Ephesians 2:10. His love for you does not rise and fall with your circumstances. We are reminded, Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18, and He says, I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you. Hebrews 13:5. Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid nor scared, for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6. Though you feel forsaken, He has not left you. He sees your tears and hears your inward screaming.
We also hear your desperate desire for children, and we know that children are a heritage of Yahweh, the fruit of the womb is his reward. Psalm 127:3. We pray that if it is not already so, God will lead you into a godly marriage as He designed marriage to be a lifelong covenant between a man and a woman, and that within that marriage He would bless you with children according to His perfect will and timing. We pray that your desire for family would be fulfilled in a way that honors Him, and that while you wait, you would know your completeness in Christ.
You speak of an attack on your body, a serpent like thing, clouded thinking, and feeling dead spiritually and physically, and we recognize that our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12. The enemy seeks to overwhelm you, but we stand with you to resist him. Be subject therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7. We pray for your deliverance and healing, for He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3. We pray for clarity of mind, for God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7. We ask Him to lift the heaviness and restore a desire for His Word, to open your eyes, that you may see wondrous things out of your law. Psalm 119:18.
You mention financial pressure, needing to pay bills, to break a lifelong cycle, and to have enough to give, even for practical things like sunglasses and Bible resources and manuscripts. We bring these needs before our Father, for My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19. We pray for work that honors God and provides for your needs, and for wisdom to steward what He provides. We pray for breakthrough, not only to receive but to be generous as He enables you. We also encourage you to seek wise counsel, including medical care for your body as needed, while trusting the Lord as your ultimate healer, and to stay rooted in fellowship and in the Word even when desire feels weak, casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7.
We pray together now. Father, in the name of Jesus Christ we lift this precious one to You. We thank You that You hear the groaning that words cannot express. We ask You to raise up what feels dead, to breathe life, hope, and clear thought into this weary mind and body. Touch the body that feels attacked and remove every oppressive influence, let Your healing power flow and let peace guard heart and mind. Restore a hunger for Your Word, provide the Bible resources needed, and draw near for intimate fellowship with Jesus, for we come boldly to Your throne of grace. We ask You to break the cycle of lack and worry, provide work, provide for every bill, provide even the small things that are needed, and provide abundantly so there is enough to give to others. For the deep longing for children and family, we ask Your will be done, to establish a godly home if it be Your plan, and to comfort with Your unfailing love in the waiting. Remind this dear one that they are not worthless, but deeply loved, chosen, and held. Let them know Your presence, that You have not forsaken them, and let Your grace be sufficient, for Your power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9. We ask You to give rest to the weary, for You said, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28. Do a breakthrough in physical and spiritual healing for Your glory. We pray all these things in the mighty and only saving name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and our life. Amen.