We hear your heart crying out for clarity, a true autobiographical clarity concerning yourself and your mother, and a longing to find a place beyond the past, free from the meticulous scrutiny of others. We join you in seeking God's will together in Jesus' name for this deep need for peace and understanding.
We understand the weight of wanting to be seen rightly, and the weariness that comes from feeling examined by religious confessions and the general public. The Word reminds us that the fear of man brings a snare, but whoever puts his trust in the Lord is kept safe, Proverbs 29:25. And we are to ask, Am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God, Galatians 1:10. Your true story is not ultimately defined by what others write or think about you, but by what El Elyon, God Most High, who is possessor of heaven and earth, Genesis 14:19, has written about you. Your days were all written in his book before one of them came to be, Psalm 139:16.
You ask if it is ordained by God's providence that autobiographies about you are excluded. We rest in this truth that God in His sovereignty ordains our steps, Psalm 37:23, and works all things together for good for those who love Him, Romans 8:28. Whether others include you in their narratives or not does not change your value or your calling. Your identity and clarity are not to be found in public recognition or in the absence of it, but in Christ. If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new, 2 Corinthians 5:17. The Lord says, Do not remember the former things, and do not consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, Isaiah 43:18-19. We are called to forget what lies behind and to stretch forward to what lies ahead, Philippians 3:13-14.
This place beyond the past that you seek is found in Jesus Christ. He invites us, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest, Matthew 11:28. Through Him we have forgiveness and distance from our past sins, as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us, Psalm 103:12. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness, 1 John 1:9. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, Romans 8:1.
Concerning your mother, we pray for healing and honor in that precious relationship. We are commanded to honor your father and your mother, Ephesians 6:2, and to walk in forgiveness as Christ forgave us. Only God can give you clarity about her and about yourself together, for He promises, I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you shall go. I will counsel you with my eye on you, Psalm 32:8, and Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight, Proverbs 3:5-6. The Holy Spirit, whom you mentioned, is the one Jesus promised will guide you into all truth, John 16:13. We rejoice that you named Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and El Elyon, for it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, John 14:6. We gently remind you that while angels are ministering spirits sent out to do service for the sake of those who will inherit salvation, Hebrews 1:14, we pray to the Father through Jesus Christ alone, not to angels.
So we pray together for you.
Father, El Elyon, God Most High, we lift this dear one to You in the name of Jesus Christ. We ask You to grant autobiographical clarity that comes from Your perspective alone. Heal the memories concerning their mother and themselves, and bring reconciliation, forgiveness, and understanding where there has been pain. Lead them to that place beyond the past that You have prepared, a place of rest and newness in Christ. Free them from the fear of the scrutiny of men and let them rest in being fully known and fully loved by You. Show them Your providence over their life story, that every chapter is in Your hands, and that their worth is secure in You. Let Your Holy Spirit guide them into all truth and give them peace that passes understanding. We ask that You make their future bright with hope, for You know the plans You have for them, plans for peace and not for evil, to give them hope and a future, Jeremiah 29:11. In Jesus' name we pray, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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