Cancer may have returned

[Broomarrad]

Got another prayer need (my apologies for the many requests)....Monday, ### had a wellness check and they found she's underweight. She has also been having pain around her colon which is significant bc she had colon cancer in ### & ###, and had a Colectomy in ###. She was ### then & they said there was a ###% chance of it returning. She's ### now and the weight loss along with the pain makes us fear the cancer is coming back. In her case, she's chosen NOT to have any tests or treatment. She did bloodwork today but we don't know the results yet. This is so hard bc I've already been thru so much the past few weeks, with my sibling giving me a hard time, harassing, etc. I'm ###'s caregiver and every time I visit her room, I expect to find her dead. My sibling loves to remind me "tomorrow's not promised," but I am so sad and discouraged. When she passes, I have to move out of the house and find another place....not that easy for someone with no savings, who would love to have their kitties, etc. I KNOW I won't be able to find a place that lets me have at least 1 cat. Can't afford to buy a home due to high price$. I feel like everything and everyone I care for and about is being stripped. Yet I will STILL PRAISE YOU LORD. I am a believer and so is ###, but I'm tired of having to sacrifice things I enjoy to make someone else happy. (No I don't have a choice.) But I sure wish.....things I'm not allowed to wish. I am so DONE. Thanx for putting up with me, I know I'm a bother and I have no joy or hope. Just dread.

 

[Broomarrad]

Got another prayer need (my apologies for the many requests)....Monday, ### had a wellness check and they found she's underweight. She has also been having pain around her colon which is significant bc she had colon cancer in ### & ###, and had a Colectomy in ###. She was ### then & they said there was a ###% chance of it returning. She's ### now and the weight loss along with the pain makes us fear the cancer is coming back. In her case, she's chosen NOT to have any tests or treatment. She did bloodwork today but we don't know the results yet. This is so hard bc I've already been thru so much the past few weeks, with my sibling giving me a hard time, harassing, etc. I'm ###'s caregiver and every time I visit her room, I expect to find her dead. My sibling loves to remind me "tomorrow's not promised," but I am so sad and discouraged. When she passes, I have to move out of the house and find another place....not that easy for someone with no savings, who would love to have their kitties, etc. I KNOW I won't be able to find a place that lets me have at least 1 cat. Can't afford to buy a home due to high price$. I feel like everything and everyone I care for and about is being stripped. Yet I will STILL PRAISE YOU LORD. I am a believer and so is ###, but I'm tired of having to sacrifice things I enjoy to make someone else happy. (No I don't have a choice.) But I sure wish.....things I'm not allowed to wish. I am so DONE. Thanx for putting up with me, I know I'm a bother and I have no joy or hope. Just dread.

Forgot to mention - Mom has a great appetite

 

[Articles]

We hear the deep sorrow and exhaustion in your words, and our hearts ache with you as you carry such heavy burdens, fear for your loved one’s health, the weight of caregiving, the strain of family conflict, and the uncertainty of your own future. Yet even in this valley, you declare praise to the Lord, and that is a powerful testimony of faith in the midst of suffering. We stand with you in prayer, lifting every concern to our Heavenly Father, who sees your tears and collects them in His bottle (Psalm 56:8).

First, we lift up your loved one, asking the Great Physician to move mightily on her behalf. Lord, we pray for clarity in her body, let the bloodwork reveal no cause for alarm, and if there is any trace of illness, we ask for Your healing touch to restore her fully. Your Word declares that by Your stripes, we are healed (Isaiah 53:5), and we claim that promise now. We also pray for wisdom for her, if fear or weariness is keeping her from seeking further care, soften her heart to trust in Your provision through medical means, even as she trusts in You. Father, give her peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7) and surround her with Your comfort.

We rebuke the spirit of fear that seeks to paralyze you both. The enemy would love nothing more than to steal your hope, but God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). When the dread of loss creeps in, we declare that God is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Even if the worst comes to pass, He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). We pray for supernatural strength for you as a caregiver, may the Lord renew your energy day by day, as He promises to sustain the weary (Isaiah 40:29-31).

We also bring your sibling before the Lord, asking for conviction where there is hardness of heart and for healing in your relationship. It is not loving to speak words that wound, even if they are true, Proverbs 12:18 reminds us that reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing. We pray that your sibling would see the weight of their words and repent, and that you would be given grace to respond with patience, even when provoked. Father, guard your heart from bitterness and fill you with Your peace instead.

Your concerns about the future, housing, finances, the care of your pets, are valid, and we do not dismiss them. But we remind you that our God owns the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10) and knows your needs before you even ask (Matthew 6:8). He has promised to provide for His children, and we trust Him to make a way where there seems to be no way. We pray for favor as you seek housing, that doors would open to a place where you and your kitties can thrive. Lord, give her creative solutions and unexpected blessings, and help her to cast all her anxieties on You, because You care for her (1 Peter 5:7).

You mentioned feeling "done" and devoid of joy or hope, but we want to gently remind you that joy is not the absence of sorrow, it is the presence of Christ in the midst of it. The psalmist cried out, "Why are you cast down, O my soul?" (Psalm 42:5), yet he also preached to his own heart: "Hope in God!" Even when you cannot see the path ahead, Jesus is the Light that shines in the darkness (John 1:5). We pray that He would restore your soul (Psalm 23:3) and fill you with a hope that is anchored in Him alone.

Lastly, we want to encourage you to cling to the truth that your sacrifices, though painful, are seen by God. He is not asking you to give up what you love without purpose. Colossians 3:23-24 reminds us that whatever we do, we should work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord we will receive the inheritance as our reward. Your faithfulness in caregiving, even when it costs you, is a fragrant offering to Him.

Let us pray together now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, but we come in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who bore our sorrows and carried our griefs. Lord, we ask for Your healing hand to rest upon our sister’s body. If there is illness, we declare Your power to restore and renew. If there is fear, we ask for Your perfect love to cast it out. For her caregiver, we pray for strength that only You can provide, strength to endure, strength to hope, and strength to trust You even when the road is dark.

Father, we ask for protection over her heart, guard her from despair and fill her with Your peace. Provide for her needs in ways that only You can, and open doors that no man can shut. Heal the brokenness in her family, and let Your love mend what has been torn. Remind her that she is not alone, for You are with her, and Your grace is sufficient for her every need.

We thank You that even in the valley, You are working all things together for good for those who love You (Romans 8:28). Help her to fix her eyes on You, the Author and Perfecter of her faith (Hebrews 12:2). Renew her joy, restore her hope, and let her see Your faithfulness in every detail of her life.

In the precious name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for trusting us with what is on your heart. So much is pressing at once and it makes sense you feel done and without hope right now. Caring for ___ every day while carrying the fear her cancer may have returned, waiting on bloodwork, and bracing each time you open her door would wear anyone down. Add a difficult sibling dynamic and uncertainty about housing and your cats, and the load is even heavier. You are not a bother for needing prayer.

What you describe is common for family caregivers. The demands can be around the clock for months and years, with real costs to sleep, health, finances and family relationships. It does not mean you are failing that you feel dread and exhaustion. It means you have been carrying a lot with little rest.

One gentle next step we encourage is to not carry the practical worries alone while you wait. If you have a primary care provider, pastor, or social worker connected to ___'s clinic, consider reaching out this week just to talk through caregiver support and what housing resources might exist in your area before a crisis decision is needed. Even one trusted person who knows the full picture can help you think through options for you and your cats and give you some respite.

Your faithfulness in still praising the Lord in this valley has not gone unseen. God sees you and ___.

Father, we lift this sister and ___ to You in Jesus' name. Give comfort in the waiting, wisdom for next decisions, rest for a tired heart and provision for a safe place to live. Remind her she is not alone and renew her hope day by day. Amen.

 

[Zedekiah]

We myst not stew in bitterness too long even though the feelings come on strongly. For the more we need him the more he will show up if we always depend on him and always pray and keep our minds fixed on him he will be there. He is faithful who holds you. Now he might let you struggle for a time because it seems to be good that we struggle but he who bares you up wont fail. We myst believe and pray and keep faith and hope alive. May God bless you with a praise and a joy in him. Only pray always and fix your thoughts on him. God bless. Lord Yeshuas name amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

Your sorrow has been read with much tenderness, and it is not a bother to hear it. There is a heaviness in your letter that many would recognize, when you look forward to the future and scarcely know why, but feel a dread of something indefinable and full of terror. Like Nehemiah, when he heard tidings of the waste and ruin of his city, you have good reason to say, why should not my countenance be sad. To watch daily at the room of one you love and care for, to expect to find her gone, to carry the weight of past cancer and present pain, of weight loss and waiting for bloodwork, is a grief enough to cause many a sleepless night if the soul has any tenderness left in it.

You write that you have no joy or hope, just dread, and that you feel stripped of everything you care for, tired of sacrificing, and so done. Yet in the same breath you say, yet I will still praise you Lord. That word is precious. It was not a dry confession, you wet it well with tears of grief and anxiety, and the Lord who hears brief, silent prayer as Nehemiah prayed before the king, hears that still small cry from a weary heart. You are not a bother to Him, nor to those who would bear your burden with you. The very hopelessness you feel may become a space for Jesus to come, since He is the Resurrection and the Life. The Bible says we are dead in sin, and then concludes there is room for Christ to enter. So also when we feel dead in sorrow and dread, there is room for Him to bring life.

You ask where bread may be found for such hunger. The only way to meet hunger is to eat bread, and the only way to meet your soul's need is to get Christ in whom there is enough and to spare, but nowhere else. If we do but get hold of Jesus Christ and feed on Him, He is sufficient for us, sufficient for anguish, for grief, for sorrow, sufficient for the weakest of babes and sufficient for those who must labor long under a heavy burden. He is soul satisfying Bread. He saw grief and shame beyond our measure, and the weight of His Father's wrath fell upon Him at Calvary with pierced hands and feet, that those who trust Him should no longer be dead unto God, but alive unto Him, delivered from the sentence and dread of death. Because He lives, those who belong to Him, as you and your loved one do through faith in Him alone, cannot again come under that penalty.

He knows the other burdens you carry, the harassing words of your sibling who reminds you that tomorrow is not promised, the fear of having to leave your home with no savings, the love you have for your kitties and the fear that no place will receive you. These are not small things. The Lord sees the faithfulness of a caregiver who continues day after day, and He does not despise the care you show for the creatures He has put in your keeping. When you feel you must give up things you enjoy and have wishes you feel not allowed to wish, bring even those unformed sighs to Him. He understands weariness, and He invites the tired to come and feed upon Him.

Do not carry this dread alone. Seek out a faithful pastor or a mature believer near you, let them sit with you as Job's friends first sat, without many words, and then let them pray with you and help you consider practical steps for housing and support. If dread becomes overwhelming, reach for help at once from your church family or a trusted counselor, for the Lord often provides strength through His people. Continue in brief, silent prayer through the day, as Nehemiah did, lifting your heart to heaven in a moment.

May the Lord give you to taste again that Christ Himself is your portion. May He keep your loved one in His mercy, whatever the bloodwork shows, and may He keep you. May He turn your dread into a hunger that drives you to the soul satisfying Savior, and may He show you day by day that He is sufficient for this grief and for the next step you must take. You are heard, you are not forgotten, and your praise in the midst of sorrow is precious to Him.

We pray now that the God of all comfort would grant you rest, provide for your needs according to His riches, guard your heart from the harassing voice, and fill you with quiet hope in Christ, who is our life and our bread.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[Jonathan_M]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Chrysostom]

Thank you for sharing so honestly about this heavy burden you are carrying. You are not a bother at all, and it is understandable that you feel sad, discouraged and worn down. So much has been placed on your shoulders at once, caring for someone you love while carrying fear about her health, tension with your sibling, and worry about your own future and housing. God sees all of it, and He hears you even when you feel you have no joy or hope left.

It is painful to live with daily dread, to walk into her room fearing what you might find, and to wait for bloodwork results while also respecting her choice not to pursue further tests or treatment. The weight loss and pain would alarm anyone who loves her, especially with her history of colon cancer and colectomy. It is also painful to feel harassed by the reminder that tomorrow is not promised, even when it is true, and to feel that everything you care about is being stripped away, down to the concern about whether you can keep your cats and find an affordable place to live. Your weariness and your words about being done make sense in light of so much prolonged stress.

And yet the faith you voiced matters deeply. You said you will still praise the Lord, and that you and she both believe in Jesus. The Lord draws near to those who are brokenhearted and close to those who are crushed in spirit, as Psalm 34 says. He invites those who are weary and burdened to come to Him for rest, as Jesus says in Matthew 11:28. He does not measure your faith by how strong you feel, but by His own faithful love which is new every morning. Your desire to honor Him even while you are tired and grieving is precious to Him.

I want to pray for you and for her now.

Father in heaven, thank you that you know this dear caregiver and the woman she cares for by name, and that both have put their trust in Jesus Christ for salvation. Lord, you see the fear about cancer possibly returning, the pain and weight loss, and the waiting for results. We ask for your mercy and comfort over her body. Give wisdom to those caring for her, give relief from pain, and give peace that passes understanding whatever the results show. We ask for your presence to be very near to her, to sustain her and to remind her of your love.

Lord, we lift up this caregiver who feels exhausted, discouraged and full of dread. Comfort her heart, lift the heaviness, and renew her strength day by day. Surround her with your peace when anxiety rises, especially when she feels alone in the house. Heal the hurt with her sibling and bring protection from harassment and harsh words. Provide for her practical needs, for housing, for finances, and for a place where she can live with stability. You know her love for her cats and her worry about losing them, and you care about every detail of her life. Make a way where she sees no way, and connect her with caring people in her church and community who can walk with her, help her carry this load, and help her plan for the future.

Help her to bring every wish and every sorrow honestly to you, trusting that you hear and that you will lead her in what is right and good. Restore to her even a small measure of joy and hope in your presence, and remind her daily that she is not forgotten and not a burden to you. Keep her praising you not because life is easy, but because you are faithful.

We ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ, our only hope and our peace. Amen.

Please do not walk through this alone. If you have a pastor, a trusted friend, or a counselor at your church, please let them know how heavy things feel right now so they can support you in person and help with practical needs like housing resources and caregiver support. If you ever feel overwhelmed to the point of feeling unsafe, please reach out right away to a trusted person or call or text 988 to speak with someone who can help. You are deeply valued, your service as a caregiver is seen by the Lord, and it is right to keep bringing every fear and need to Him. Please keep letting us know how you and she are doing so we can continue to pray with you.

 

[usha rani]

Praying in Jesus Name.